Interim

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They didn't call a new Alpha. Not yet. Grief needed a body to be official, and Blackthorn didn't have one, so for three days the pack existed in a kind of suspended arrangement — Orsa and two other elders making decisions by committee, nobody quite willing to say the word *succession* out loud. Maren kept working. It was the only thing that hadn't changed. "You're being watched," Ren said, on the second of those days, not looking up from the smoking racks. "I know." "Not the usual watching." He glanced toward the yard, where two of the younger fighters stood a little too near the smokehouse door, doing a poor job of pretending they had business there. "That kind." "Why." "Ask them." He didn't sound like he expected her to get an answer, and he was right not to. She didn't ask them. She'd learned there was no version of that conversation that ended with information rather than more silence dressed up as an answer. Instead she watched them back, until one of the two flushed and found something urgent to attend to elsewhere, and the other held her gaze a beat longer before doing the same. Elias came by at midday with bread he hadn't been asked to bring and sat across from her on an overturned crate while she ate. "They think you had something to do with it," he said, without preamble. "With the mill?" "With Darius." He watched her face carefully as he said it, the way he did when he expected the words to land badly and wanted to be ready to soften them. "Someone's saying the timing's strange. That the attacks started right around when you started asking questions about the boundary patrols." "I never asked about the boundary patrols." "I know that." "Then who's saying it?" He hesitated. "I don't know who started it. I know it's being said." She set down the bread, not hungry anymore. "That's absurd, Elias. I've never been past the boundary in my life. I'm not allowed." "I know. I told them that." He looked miserable saying it, the particular misery of someone repeating an argument he already knew hadn't worked. "It didn't change anything. People want an explanation. You're an easy one." "Because I can't shift." "Because you're different, and something bad happened, and people would rather blame something they don't understand than admit they don't understand it." He said this last part quickly, like he'd been holding onto it and needed to get it out before he thought better of it. Maren looked at him for a long moment. It wasn't the kind of thing Elias usually said out loud — most of his objections stayed private, voiced only in small gestures, a bucket carried without being asked, a seat taken beside her when no one else would. This was something closer to an actual position, stated plainly, and it surprised her enough that she didn't know what to say back. "Thank you," she said finally, because it seemed like the thing that fit best, even if it didn't fit exactly. "Don't thank me. I didn't do anything." He picked at the bread crust, not eating it, just breaking it into smaller and smaller pieces. "I should have said something louder. To more people. I didn't." "You're saying it to me." "That doesn't help you much, does it." She didn't have an answer for that, and he didn't seem to expect one. They sat together a while longer, neither speaking, until Ren called her back to the racks and Elias left the way he usually did — quietly, without ceremony, like someone leaving a room he wasn't sure he was allowed back into. That evening, the elders called a gathering — not a funeral, not yet, but something adjacent to one, the whole pack summoned to the long hall to hear whatever official statement Orsa had decided the situation required. Maren went, because attendance wasn't optional, and took her usual place at the back, near the door, where the draft was and no one wanted to stand close enough to block it for her. Orsa spoke plainly, without embellishment. The mill had been found burned. Blood had been found, more than any single wolf should lose and survive, though survival hadn't been ruled out. No body. No confirmation. Search efforts would continue, cautiously, given what the returning patrol had encountered. She did not say what the returning patrol had encountered. Nobody asked her to clarify, though Maren could feel the question sitting unasked in half the room, the specific tension of a hundred people choosing not to voice the same thing at once. "Until further notice," Orsa said, "the pack will be governed by the Elder Circle. Patrols will be reduced to essential routes only. Boundary movement requires explicit clearance." Her eyes moved over the crowd as she said this, and for just a moment — brief enough that Maren wondered afterward if she'd imagined it — they stopped on her. Then they moved on, and the moment was gone, and Orsa continued as though it hadn't happened at all. After the gathering broke, Maren lingered near the door longer than she needed to, watching the pack disperse into its usual fractured clusters — the elders retreating toward their hall, the younger fighters gathering in a tight knot near the fire, throwing occasional glances her way that she pretended not to notice. Sela's cousin, freshly shifted and still riding the high of his own success from a week before, said something to the group that made two of them laugh, though the laugh cut off fast when he noticed Maren watching. She didn't need to hear the joke to guess its subject. She walked back to the lodge alone, the night colder than it had been in days, frost already forming along the edges of the path. Halfway there, she passed close enough to the old stone foundation to see, in the moonlight, that the offering left there several nights before was gone. Not knocked loose. Not scattered by wind. Simply gone, the space at the base of the carving swept clean, as if someone had come specifically to remove it. She stood there a moment, studying the bare stone, the three crossed lines catching just enough moonlight to be visible. "Still looking at things you shouldn't." She turned. Not Orsa this time — one of the other elders, a stooped man named Halvard whom Maren had spoken to perhaps three times in her life, none of them pleasant. He wasn't looking at her the way Orsa had. There was something almost pitying in his expression, which unsettled her more than suspicion would have. "I wasn't touching anything." "Didn't say you were." He glanced at the carving himself, briefly, then away, the way people glanced at something they'd trained themselves not to look at directly. "Some things are better left where they are, girl. Whatever you think you're going to find by staring at old stone." "I don't know what I'm looking for." "That's usually when people find something they shouldn't." He didn't elaborate. He didn't wait for a response either, moving past her toward the elders' hall with the particular unhurried gait of someone who had said more than he'd meant to and knew it. Maren stood alone in the cold a while longer, turning his words over the way she turned over everything else lately — bread crumbs on a trail she couldn't yet see the shape of, each one meaning nothing on its own, all of them together meaning something she was increasingly certain she wasn't supposed to find. She thought, before she finally went inside, of the boundary — of Halvard's warning about staring at things, of Orsa's rule about explicit clearance, of every closed door and lowered voice she'd catalogued over the last several days. Somewhere out past all of it was the mill, burned and empty, holding whatever answer the pack was so determined she shouldn't have. She didn't decide anything that night. But the thought stayed with her long after she'd lain down, long after the lodge had gone quiet around her, a small hard seed of an idea she hadn't yet let herself fully name: that if nobody was going to tell her the truth, she was going to have to go and find it herself.
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