My Addiction

Chapter Eleven

Jessie's POV

After Lucy left I went to my study room to finish up a few files I had brought back from the office. I turned on some music and started to work but after a while, I couldn't concentrate anymore, was just too distracted by the thoughts of Ryan and making out in the restroom of my office. We have been getting along lately but there's no denying the tension between us so I think this whatever it is, is heading somewhere whether it's in the right direction or not I don't know. I just want to try and give fate a go for once and see if it works out so I took my phone and started typing and hit the send button, I had sent him a text.

After a few minutes of waiting, I started to become conscious

Maybe he doesn't like me or even wants to be my friend. It is degrading for a girl to send the first text? why isn't he replying it's not like I sent him a love confession or anything I'm just overthinking it's just a text maybe he didn't even get it

tired of overthinking I decided to call my best friend

" hey Jessie what's wrong?" Tricia asked from the other end

" does anything have to be wrong for me to call? "

" Well, no but it's been a minute and you haven't said anything. Did something happen?" she asked concerned

" it's nothing I sent Ryan a text and he hasn't replied yet do you think I'm overwhelming him or something?" I nervously asked

" oh I see, it depends on what you sent I hope it's not a love confession or anything like that is it?"

" no it is not that , I thought it's normal for girls to ask boys out these days," I said

" it is but most guys don't like it but you could, you know these things just depend on the person in question," she said then added " maybe he's just busy why don't you wait for a while or give him a call if it's urgent " she's right maybe he is busy or maybe he's with someone else. why does the thought of him being with another hurt so much? we are not even together

" jessie are you there "

" yeah I have to I'll call you later Tricia love you," I said as hung up

Tired of sitting around in my study doing nothing I decided to have an early night , so I went into my room and have a bath before going to bed. I love a good and long bath so I prepared a bath with my favorite lavender foams. long baths give me time to think things through and plan properly

My phone started to ring but I wasn't up for anything at that time so I let it ring away unattended. Who said I should always answer my phone when people are always too busy to answer theirs? but it doesn't stop whoever that must have had an urgent message so I grabbed a towel dried myself off and went to answer. All that noise and it's just a messages seriously who has the time for all these? they were quite a lot so I decided to get dressed first.

I had a really bad feeling about these but I had to check them out, the moment I opened the first my fingers trembled and I heard the sound of my phone hitting the floor

" This isn't true no it has to be some kind of prank " I tried to comfort myself. Not believing what I just saw, I picked up my phone which had miraculously not endured a c***k from the fall, and checked the picture again. Tears were pouring from my eyes despite my attempt to hold them back. I scrolled down and there were more other pictures of Ryan with another girl they seemed so chatty and happy together I kept scrolling and I saw Tom too they must have gone out all three of them. It hurts so much I can't bear to look anymore so I put my phone down and went to wash my face. I don't get why it hurts so much just seeing him with that girl but I know why we have been seeing each other. I guess I just thought it was monogamous for the both of us and I'm starting to fall for him maybe I already have. I thought he was into me as well but I guess not maybe I've been reading the wrong signs the whole time. I tried whipping off my tears, put my phone on the nightstand, and crawled into my bed weeping like the fool I am.

After hours of tossing and turning Lucy send a text asking how I was texted for a while, she told me about how she enjoyed her ride home. She also mentioned something about how her boyfriend bumped her. it was really sad especially when she started crying and went on about how she loved him so much and would do anything to make it right. I momentarily forget about Ryan and was listening to her story it was so touching I felt pity for her. No one should ever go through that she said she caught her boyfriend with someone else and he tried blaming her saying it was her fault. I seriously don't get how but I'm not an expert in those things and I wasn't in the mood to comfort anyone so I tried to be as brief as possible. I didn't want to tell anyone about Ryan, and it definitely won't be her if Tricia doesn't know then I don't feel a need to tell anyone at all so we said our goodnights, and I hung up. I closed my eyes and buried myself deep into my thoughts until sleep took over