I PROMISE, IT'S NOT ME !

Love or care?

The next day at school, I saw Ken in his father's car, he screamed my name and waved at me. I smiled at him , he begged his driver to stop the car so he could walk with me to class. "Ken, you don't have to, please" I said feeling tensed, I didn't want Cole to see us, he would be heartbroken to see us, I still felt guilty after kissing two best friends in one day. I wanted to tell Ken about this because I felt so bothered, but I didn't just know how to tell him. I resolved to speak to him at lunch hour, I would tell him about my situation at the moment. I got to class and saw Cole sitting alone, I went to join him, I hoped to sit right next to him. I couldn't say a word to him, neither could be say a word to me, so we just sat down looking at each other. I picked up my History notebook and tore out a page, I picked my pen to write, I wrote; "Good morning Cole, please can we talk later?" I folded it into a tiny bit and put into his palm. He opened it and giggled. He scribbled something and gave it to me, just like I had done. He wrote ; "you really want to do this?" I didn't respond to this, I only nodded and then, I simply put the paper into one of my books .

Immediately I heard the bell for lunch, I dragged him into the empty room, where we kissed yesterday. "This place of all places?" He asked in a worried tone. I nodded gently as I looked into his eyes. "Why was I feeling this way? Was I even supposed to feel anything for Cole at all? He has been a friend for two years, we can not do anything to hurt Ken" I thought to myself. All this time, I had no iota of idea that Cole had feelings for me, I was now stuck, didn't know what to do. "Cindy, why did you drag me out here? You've been silent " he asked and I regained consciousness. I began to think of what to say, and how to say it. "Cole, we have been friends from Day 1, you're my buddy, a great friend, you're also my closest friend, and about yesterday, I really melted when we kissed, I didn't know the feelings that built up in my heart, I felt lost and confused, and yesterday at the call you said you love me, if you really love me, you should have mentioned it a long time ago, Cole you kept it away from me, I didn't have any erotic feelings for you until yesterday, I really don't know what to do Cole. You saw me kiss Ken yesterday, you must have been shattered, you're best friends with him, I can't come between you two. Yesterday at the garden, Ken also confessed his love for me, what do I do Cole? I am stuck, really stuck, this is draining me, I couldn't get any sleep all through last night " I said. He looked at my face and felt pity for me, he pulled me close to him, hugging me tightly as he whispered into my ears; "Everything will be fine" I could feel his heart beating fast, my head was on his chest, Cole was very tall, much taller than me.

I looked up to him and saw him crying, one thing with Cole is that he is bound to cry only when he is in real pains. I knew he was in pains, he wiped his tears and began to speak; "Cindy, I've always wanted to tell you that I love you, I'll always love you, perhaps we cannot be together now, maybe in future we will be, follow your heart, if you love Ken go for him, besides he spoke up first, I'll always be your friend, your best friend, let's pretend that this never happened, when you see me in class, act chill so Ken doesn't figure out what happened" His eyes had turned red, a sign that he was weak. I nodded and walked away. I saw Ken at the Cafeteria where I went to eat, he called me ; "Cindy, come sit here,I reserved a space for you and I've been looking around for you, where have you been?" I replied; "I was using the restroom"

I sat down beside him with my tray of food, all eyes were on me, I was sitting with the hottest boy in school! "Cindy are you okay?" He asked slipping his hands into mine. "Of course, I am fine Ken" I said forcing myself to smile. "Cindy, I love you, Cindy please love me back, Cindy I do not wish to lose you, do you want more food?" He said all in whispers. I trembled and told him that I was okay with my food. We ate in silence and I led him to the garden. He sat on the pavement and requested for me to sit on his laps. At first, I felt awkward but then it would change nothing, I sat slowly. "Are you comfortable? Please relax, I don't bite" he said laughing as he touched my hair. I nodded, still in distress. He played with my hair and I began to feel more comfortable, I laughed as he touched my hair because I had sensual feelings. I looked at him and kissed him, he looked irresistible, he kissed me steadily and played with my body, he was touching me at various parts, I placed my hand on his waist. He now stopped slowly. "Why did you stop?" I asked . "Cindy, I don't think it's right for us to keep doing this" he said clearing his throat. "What do you mean?" I asked in a confused state. "You have not agreed to date me, I love you dearly but I am uncertain about how you feel , I don't want to pressure you or rush things" he said in a concerned manner. About that, I led you into the garden because of that, I wanted to tell you that I have agreed to date you, Ken I will be your girlfriend!" I screamed excitedly. "Woah! Cindy Troy , you would be my girlfriend? Best news I've heard all year!" He responded carrying me up. I felt shy but then, I felt relief. He was now mine. "Cindy, I want you to come over to my house on Saturday, I'll tell the helps to prepare something extravagant for you, to celebrate our union, I'm so happy Cindy, thank you " he said happily. "Really? I'll inform my mom about the invite, I don't know if she'll permit me to go, but I definitely will be happy to visit you " I said smiling brightly.