Lost

Eloise

Eloise ,Eloise my mother woke me up screaming like crazy every morning since the age of ten she wake's me up. Why can' t she at least be kinder i am about to turn eighteen in three months and she still treats me like a little girl. I hate her when she wakes me up like that specially because of the dream the same dream i have it from the day i turned nine years old and always i wake up with the image of the blonde women with curly hair and blue eyes crying for her little baby

Every night i have this dream where a little girl with long straight hair red color and big shinning green eyes playing with a boy a little bit taller then her with big blue eyes his skin white red checks and his pink lips playing in a garden around a castle everything green around them full of roses everywhere and a Well decorated with the head of dragon near them is settled a table where two women's in their middle thirtieths sitting there drinking their lemonade laughing and having a conversation one is dressed with a long red and golden dress queen style her blond curly hair fits perfect to her white skin pink checks and lips and on top of her head it seems to have a crown and the other a blue simple dress that hits the ground her long brunette hair is made in a pony tail having her decorated with a big flower her brown eyes are completing perfectly her big brown lips and her chocolate skin

The sun is shinning when suddenly all becomes black i see the blond women crying and calling for her little girl she speak her name serval times but never manage to understand it because my dear mother always manage to wake me up when that happens is like she knows something for God sake .

Lately all i do is to think about this why it all seams so real ???why i have the impression that something is not right??? why the little girl looks exactly like me ???

So many questions that i don't manage to find an answer ,how could all of this be possible i mean i don't live in the most exquisite neighborhood of my town but neither the poor one i may not have the life of a princess but still my parents manage to offer me a good life

But what is with this dream that makes me feel so anxios and lately to think almost all day about it I mean i know my parents for all my life we always lived here in Yorkshire our house indeed has a garden and a Well but not like the one in my dream and definitely is not a castle and what is strange is that the women is nothing like my mother.

Maybe i take this to personal and is just a dream we all have dreams i need to stop stressing