I’m tempted to tug at my hair, but I know that I’ll ruin the magic my mom managed to accomplish. I need to calm down, and get back out there. I can take one night, right? Just one night and Eric finds out the truth. I can’t ruin everything now that we’re already here. He’s been so good to me, he doesn’t deserve that.
I have to remind myself that he also didn’t deserve that I cheated on him with Hunter. f**k, I’m a terrible person! Grandpa would be so disappointed with me right now.
The thought of him makes me break down. I start to tremble, but I force myself not to cry. If I cry, everyone’s going to know that something’s wrong. I can’t show that. I need to wear an armor. It’s just for a few hours. When I get home, I can bawl my eyes out, if I want to. But right now, no crying. Period.
