While the night last, I couldn't get any sleep. My mind's too troubled with thoughts. What do I want? What future am I planning for myself? Will I continue to live with Vampires till I get old, and chit-chatting with Mr. Seth, who will not grow old till then? Will I allow the humans to hate me and my father, and condemn us as betrayers to future generations?
It's so painful and distressing to think about, but I've got no choice. I feel like I'm in a hard and rock place. What choice do I seem to have? I can't even remember what Cole said to me in the woods, what he is planning for me and the Vampires. I roll on the bed for the thousandth time tonight and force my eyes to shut, but my mind won't just stop.
Sharply, I sit up and smack myself on my lap, through the thick sheet such that I f
