>>Maya
At breakfast Yohan told me that Ruda would be coming over for dinner and I asked if I could call Nena over too. I felt like having a small get together with my beloved people. He agreed and we decided to have a small pizza party at dinner.
I was expecting him to talk about me and what I was hiding but he didn’t and quietly went to work.
I guess that works for me.
I still have no idea what to tell him or how to tell him.
As he left I dropped my fork on the shelf and looked at the barely eaten pancakes.
I’ve lost so much appetite. It’s hard to eat.
I took a deep breath and picked up the fork again.
Still, I have to try. I’ve lost weight so fast that even Yohan noticed it. I licked my lips in worry.
The anxiety in my chest grew and I blankly stared at the wall while I fe
