Just Good Friends?

Chapter 43 - Letters

Bex.

"So what was that with Nate do you reckon?" Harry asks when we reach the skatepark.

"No idea dude. Joe will sort it though, I'm sure" I don't want to interfer, we decided we'd take it slow, not get too serious too soon.

"You two are good though aren't you?" Harry asks.

"Yeah Harry, we're good. We just want to take it slow".

"Good. I'm really happy for you both mind, don't know if I said. After the Trayton game, you both came through for me. You looked after me, and Nate was a rock, he didn't leave my side. I tried to do the same for him after the whole Mike business, but he wouldn't let me. He played it down a lot" Harry went serious.

"Yeah he does that Harry, but whatever this is, he will be fine. Skate" I grab my board and push off. A couple of hours later, we head back home.

......

Nate.

"You need to tell Bex. This is big. I know it's bullshit, but Anna is being really sly, she'll message Bex herself otherwise" Joe says to me when we go back to the kitchen

" I will. I'll tell her later OK. Where did she go?" I hope I didn't upset her or anything.

"Skatepark with Harry. She was fine dude, don't sweat it"

Harry and Bex come through the door then, laughing about something.

"Hey you two, good skate?" Joe asks them.

"Yeah, skatepark is great. Some cool people there too. All good here?" Bex looks over to me questioningly.

"Yep, cool. Walk with me?" I hold my hand out to her, and she takes it.

"Let's go" we walk out, and down the private path to the beach. Once out of earshot, Bex turns to me "so what's really up?"

"Anna messaged me. She is definitely pregnant. Apparently she's in to her 7th month already. She sent me a scan pic, and told me it's mine, and I need to take responsibility" I sit on the rocks and look at her. "Bex, I honestly, truly believe it isn't mine. We had s*x once, with a condom, and the condom was fine, no splits etc. I know it can happen, I'm not that naive, but I don't believe it's mine for a minute. Obviously if it is, I'll take full responsibility for it. I'm not a bastard Bex. But I know this will be hard for you, so you need to know so you can back off from this thjng between us. I love you Bex, you know that, and this may be hard for you to accept, as i know we haven't exactly been careful in the whole protection thjng, but you are the only girl I have ever had s*x with without a condom. And honestly, if you got pregnant, it wouldn't be a bad thing in my eyes".

"Nate I believe you. Anna hasn't shown her face, or contacted anyone for months. The last I heard, she was seeing someone from Trayton too. We need to get this sorted soon as we can, so we can move on ok. And as far as our s*x life is concerned, that's our business. If I end up pregnant, then it's our problem... but I'm also not ready to have anyone call me mother yet!" She says lightly with a grin.

"Ah but you'd be an awesome parent" I say laughing.

We head back to the house.

......

Bex.

So everyone knows about what Anna is saying now, and nobody believes the baby is Nates.

Jess said that Anna was seeing this really dodgy guy from over the river before she started seeing Nate, but he kept messing her around. Something happened between them that got Anna really upset, and then the following day, she was running after Nate like her life depended on it. She told Jess that he wouldn't sleep with her, and that she had to practically jump him the one time they did.

Nate told us that he didn't really want to sleep with her, he only did to shut her up, but his heart wasn't in it. And he looked at me sheepishly.

"Because you were pining after Bex here, but none of us f*****g knew that!" Harry blurts out.

"f*****g d**k" Nate punches Harry in the arm.

"OK, f**k this, I'm going for a swim" I jump up and grab a towel and head out to the pool.

I throw the towel down and strip off to my bikini, then feel arms wrap around me.

"Hey beautiful. You ok? It's a lot to take in isn't it?" Nate kisses my neck, and I succumb to the pleasure. I turn around and snake my arms around his neck. "God, you are a f*****g beautiful, sexy woman. If we weren't being watched by 5 pairs of eyes, I'd make love to you right here"

"Do you ever wonder why we've all come together as friends in the first place Nate? We've all had so much s**t thrown our way, from a young age, but we all found each other, and always get through everything together. I love you, more than I ever thought possible. We will get through this too. I just couldn't take any more gloom and doom in there, that's all. Now get that f*****g t-shirt off, show me that sexy mother f*****g body of yours, and what it looks like in the water" he pulls away from me, pulls his t-shirt over his head, grins, wiggles his eyebrows at me and flexes his muscles, then dives in the pool and swims to the other side. f**k he is so hot, even the long scar he has on his side from the knife wound, and the scar under his eye, it all adds to his ruggedness and makes him the most sexy man alive. I dive in and start doing laps before I f**k him infront of my brother and all our friends.

......

Joe.

"They're good aren't they? I mean, Nate is happy, relaxed, even a bit cocky now. And Bex, she smiles more" Harry says thoughtfully.

"Yeah. I'm glad they got together. I think Mike would be happy about it too. Despite the way he was before hospital, he knew there was nothing going on." Cal was close to Mike, they became good friends. It was really hard for him after Mike died.

I look at my sister and my best mate doing laps in the pool, and smile. I'm so glad Nate finally got his girl. He waited 8 years for her to notice him. He had grown so much in confidence over the last few months, it was so good to see. I realise now, that I never really knew the real Nate around girls. He'd always been a bit of a flirt, play the girls, sleep with them, but never anything serious. I knew now, that's not the real Nate. The real Nate is who I see with Bex. His face melts when she walks in to a room. He visibly softens when he holds her. This is Nate.

.......

Nate.

When I wake up, Bex isn't next to me. I take a look in her room, and she's not there either. She must have got up early, probably gone for a run or something. I head downstairs to get coffee, planning on doing some training in the gym. When I walk in to the kitchen, Bex is there, reading a letter with tears streaming down her face. I stand for a minute, wondering whether I should go to her, or leave her digest what she's read first. I decide I need to go to her and she can tell me what she wants.

"Bex? Do you want me to stay with you?" It's the only thing I can say, as she's obviously not ok so pointless asking that.

"I need to run. I received this today. Mike's mum forwarded it to me. A box of his personal things got missed at the hospital, she's only just had them returned, and this letter was in there addressed to me. Read it, I'm going for a run. I love you so much Nate" she hands the letter over, kisses me, and leaves, wiping her eyes as she goes.

Babygirl,

By now, I'm no longer there with you, by your side. This isn't what I wanted, I'm so sorry. I love you so so much.

I'm not sure how I know, but I do, and it hurts me so much to know I did this, I put myself here, nobody else. I'm so sorry to Nate, I didn't mean any of the things I said, I was lashing out because of my mums boyfriend, and that I didn't protect her. Well now I can't protect you either. But Nate can, and he will. Please let him if you feel you can. Don't let your memories of me stand in your way. He's a good guy, one of the best, and I know he will always look after you.

I love you Bex, forever, always have.

Don't forget me, always hold me in your heart somewhere, but never let me hold you back or get in the way of your happiness.

All my love babygirl,

Mike XXX

Fuck. How did he know? He must have felt something. But why didn't he say, doctors could have saved him if he'd said. I won't say that to Bex, it would kill her.

"What's happened?" Joe is standing in the doorway staring at me. I have no idea how long he's been there, I was miles away.

"A letter from Mike. To Bex. He knew he was going to die" I can't think straight. I place the letter down, and walk in to the gym.

I don't know how long I've been in there, but someone taps me on the shoulder as I'm using the shoulder press. I do a few more reps, then stop and turn around. Bex is standing there.

"You've been in here, training non stop for 4 hours dude. So this is how you're so f*****g hot?" She comes around the front of me and straddles my lap and puts her arms around the back of my neck. I place my arms around her waist, and my forehead on her t**s. f**k, I'm sweating like a b***h, and aching like a mother fucker. "You need a shower. Come" she climbs off my lap, and pulls me to my feet.

"OK dude? That was some session" Joe eyes me hesitantly as I walk in to the kitchen.

"Need a shower" I mumble, and then I walk upstairs to my room behind Bex.

I step under the shower, and tilt my face up to the powerful hot stream of water. It feels so good. I grab the shower gel and then rinse, and step out of the shower. I look around for the towel but it's not there.

"Was this your plan beautiful? Get me up to the shower but not give me a towel so you can keep me naked?" I wink at her, feeling much better.

"You aching hot stuff?" She smiles at me and holds a towel out.

"Like a mother fucker" I say, wincing as I lift the towel to my head.

"Lay down on the bed on your front" I don't argue or ask why, I just do it.

She climbs on the bed, straddles me and starts massaging my shoulders and back. It feels f*****g amazing, and I can feel my pain easing.

Half hour later, she orders me to turn over. When I do, I see she's naked too. She starts kissing my chest, tiny little butterfly kisses, All over. She eventually takes my c**k in her mouth and sucks and licks it down the shaft. Oh f**k, I have to control myself or I'm coming in her mouth any second. She stops for a few seconds before carrying on. Then she stops again and moves back up my chest. She lifts herself up, then lowers slowly on to my c**k, so I fill her completely. We have amazing, slow sensual s*x, which lasts a long time.

Afterwards, we just stay in each others arms for a while.

"Do you feel better?" She asks a short time later.

"Much better. You're all I need Bex" i kiss her on the lips and climb out of bed. "Come on, I need food. I didn't eat breakfast, and I trained for far too long. What time is it?" I pull on a pair of shorts.

"Almost 12pm" she says after checking the bedside clock.

"Lunch, get something on beautiful and come down to the kitchen. I love you, you know that right?" I lean down and kiss her again.

"I know hot stuff, I know. I love you too" she grabs one of my t-shirts and walks through to her room, and i head downstairs.

......

Bex.

When i get downstairs, Nate is cooking something that smells amazing, Harry is following his orders and helping, Cal is on his laptop, and Joe is watching some s**t on TV.

I go and join Joe, and curl up with him on the sofa. He puts his arm around me.

"All good sis?" He asks, still watching the TV.

"All good bro"

"I need to keep an eye on him. That session he did this morning was off the chart. And he would of kept going if you hadn't stepped in" Joe says.

"I know. But look how f*****g sexy he is because of it" I wink

"f**k sake Bex, thats my best mate! I don't need to know how f*****g fuckable you think he is!" Joe raises his voice at me, and we hear laughing from the kitchen. We turn around and see Nate, Harry and Cal all looking at us and laughing.

"Don't tell him about the rabbit Bex, he'll have a proper hissy fit!" Nate laughs as I scowl at him and throw a cushion through the door towards him.

"For f**k sake, not the f*****g rabbit again? Really Nate?!" Joe shakes his head.

"Hey! I want to know more, sounds like some f*****g good s*x!" Harry bounces.

"f**k off Harry!" Joe shouts.