Janet POV
I was actually well aware that my behavior as a first year had been reprehensible.
I'd had an epiphany halfway into my second year as I let some random dude finish f*****g me while I stared at the ceiling tiles, wondering what material they were made of. I felt no pleasure in the act. I didn't even know his name, and I was so out of my mind I didn't remember how we'd ended up in his bed at all. The disgust I'd seen on Ren's face when he broke things off sent me spiraling even worse into a vortex of s*x, alcohol, and drugs.
It was when the dude spoke that I suddenly realized things were really bad.
"Uh, hey, whatever your name is, better make sure you get a morning after pill. I don't need a tramp like you latching onto me with some kid attached to you." He dismissed me cold
