I was never human

Happy with a limit

It's been a few months since I've decided to only go back to the pack during summer. Back in December, I graduated at the top of my class. My auntie, sister, brother, and grandparents came in support. Danny even FaceTime all the guys back home and Psy, and I swear I could hear them shouting from the stage. The sounds they made sort made up for the lack of my parents being there. I just know my mama would've been proud beyond words... and in the back of my mind, I could only pray my father would be proud of me, too. Whether he is or not, only he will know because he'd never tell me. I brushed all those unwanted feelings aside and just enjoyed those who showed up. My 17th birthday, for the first time in 4 years, went amazingly well. I was home with my Aunt Mia and Angel. They woke me up out my sleep at midnight to balloons, confetti, cheers, and smiles. My biggest suprise was my brother being there. I screamed and jumped in his arms. He held me for what felt like forever. He looked at me and I, him. He knew what I was asking and shook his head. I gave him a slight nod, then turned my attention on those that were there. I had hoped, again, that my father would've come to suprise. But of course, he didn't. He did send word for me to let him know if my wolf appeared with this birthday. Since I turned 13, he, Lisa, and Ava would watch me all day, or have someone else watch me and report back to them to see if I would get my wolf. I never did, and every year after that, he would look disappointed while Lisa spoke of her enthusiasm. To her, this solidified me not being his. Dr. Mason did a paternity test to lessen the blow every time she spoke about me not being fathered by him. When the results came back positive, she finally had to shut the f**k up! I'm a daughter to a father, who just so happened to be a wolf and an alpha. I have many of his attributes that can't be seen, and most know nothing of. So those who wish to see me as nothing more than a blight, choses to focus on only that which can be seen. I looked nothing like him and not having a wolf is worst than being a weak one. For a time, I began to take on their frustrations with me as if they were my faults, but through the remembrance of my mother and my Auntie's love and confidence in me, I've long stopped wishing to have something I know I could never. We spent all night laughing and talking about the things we would do back at the pack or here with Angel. Danny, as usual, had the boys and Psy on the phone. Psy and Angel seemed to get along well, and it looked to me that Logan was developing a bit of a crush on Angel.

If your wondering if Angel knows about wolves. The answer would be yes. My aunt knew and I could never hide something so big like that from Angel. The only reason my aunt Mia never told me she knew was because:

1. She didn't believe it when my mother told her.

2. She only started to believe it as I grew older. I hardly ever got sick and I was unnaturally strong and fast.

3. All the things she thought was weird about my father suddenly started making sense to her.

I didn't know she knew until I was 15. She accidentally let it slip to me when she was becoming overly concerned about my safety. She spoke to my father about why I had to keep my hair covered. She thought it strange. I wasn't upset by it at all. I was actually relieved. I then thought to tell Angel. I didn't want who I was to be hidden from her any longer. She was skeptical at first, up until I had Danny show her his wolf. Well, he only allowed his eyes and voice to change. That seemed to seal the deal for her.

Anyway, the little time I've spent just being around people who love me and are not limited by conditions, I've grown to be happier, even within this short amount of time. I know this happiness has a time limit, but I'm ok with that. When I go back to the pack, I'll be able to see all my other babies again and be able to spend more time with Dr. Mason and my grandparents. Doc schedules meetings with me so I can get caught up on the literacy of everything he teaches. When I see him, we focus on the physical and application of what is taught.

All in all... I feel like I'm in a better position, and I'm glad.

A few months later...

I was running late for class and needed to head out. Angel's car was in the shop, so I dropped her off before I headed to my first class. I'm not actually late in the sense that my class has already began, but I like to get to campus early. I've made a friend who likes to get some studying done first thing in the morning because he has a lot of duties after his classes are done. He doesn't know that I know he's a wolf. I figured I'd just let him keep his secret. On the first day of class, most were shocked to see me in class, especially after learning my age during my introduction. My first professor thought being an ass would humble me. He made it very clear he thought I wasn't as smart as I believed to be and tried talking about a subject that wasnt even a part of our curriculum at that time or for our year. He eneded up looking dumb as hell when I showed him up. He stopped being an asshole towards me after that. That same day, I met my friend Cersai. He was older than me, like most were, considering I was a 17 year old in medical school. He's a 20 year old who's stands at 6'7. He has broad shoulders and is muscular as well. Of course he's very handsome. Again, this has to be a wolf trait and it's so not fair. He has black hair that's on the shorter end from shaggy. It's fluffy but draps perfectly over his forehead and brushes against his neck. He has dark blue eyes, pointed nose and full but small lips. He's currently growing out a beard, which right now, just etched out his very strong jawline. Apparently, he's a person that's too cool for school. So it was shocking that after that day, he chose to sit next to me. I remember the muttering that could be heard around me. The guys looked at me with curiosity while the girls looked at me with envy. I couldn't care either way, so I just ignored them all.

Flashback...

Why would this guy sit next to me? Now I'm gonna have all these crazy heffas looking at me like I was the one after him. I was told he always sits alone and is by himself at all times, and he would hardly ever participates in class. Granted, we just started a few days ago, but he's never even looked at anyone hard enough, let alone me, to suddenly feel the urge to be friendly. He has a wide frame, so he tends to spread out. I guess he thought I'd move for him, but I sure didn't. I left my books where they were and my laptop open, waiting for the professor to arrive. I was messaging Psy and we were talking about whatever random conversation. She sent something that made me snickered. I smiled widely. It didn't last long because someone had to ruin the moment.

"What's so funny? You texting your friend about me?"

I was so caught up in replying that I had no idea he was actually talking to me. The girl next to me bump my arm to get my attention, causing me to mess up my text. I looked at home girl like she was tripping. She rolled her eyes at me.

"Stop acting as if he didn't hear Cersai talking to you."

Again she rolled her eyes, but I just looked at her.

"Who the heck is Cersai?"

She snickered.

"Don't play dumb. Everyone knows who he is."

She gave me her stank face. I raised a brow, confused by her words.

"I am Cersai."

This deep rumble voice sounded off next to me and it made me jump. I looked over at him, having to look up even though we're both was sitting.

"Damn. If I didnt know any better, I would've thought God had came down personally to have a conversation. Geez man, you got rocks in your throat?"

The people around began to giggle lightly and snickered. Cersai raised a brow at my comment and he, too, snickered.

"HOW DARE YOU SPEAK TO HIM THAT WAY!! HE COULD SNAP YOUR NECK IN TWO!"

I looked back at mystery girl and gave her "the hell you preach" look.

"Uhhh, ma'am... I get you don't know me from a can of paint. But don't you ever disrespect me like that again. I've taken down men his height and bigger. He don't scare me and neither do you. If you haven't noticed, regardless to how deep you keep his d**k down your throat, he ain't never gonna like you. So calm it down."

The room went silent. Home girls' face was beat red. Everyone busts out in laughter. I shrugged my shoulders and went back to texting Psy, but ole girl didn't have enough.

"What would you know. You're a baby. He's not interested in you either. So you can stop that fake nonchalant attitude."

I lifted a finger in her face to ask her to wait. I needed to send my last text to Psy before I put shawty in her place. Once I was done, I lifted my eyes to meet hers and smiled.

"I don't have to pretend. I didn't ask him to sit here, he just did. Yesterday, both these seats were empty. So I can only gather your sitting here because you're stalking him. Girl, you can have him. Besides, I'm 17. Not unless he wants a case, he'd leave me alone, at least until I turn legal. So you got about a good few months left before he really tries hitting on me. Until then, please keep you insecurities and jealousy inside the vehicle at all times. Please and thank you!"

I said the last part like I was a flight attendant, and it caused people to laugh again. Even Cersai chuckled. She was annoying me, and so I stood up.

"Do you wanna switch seats? I'm sure he'd prefer looking at you anyway."

I went to move when his big hands reached for and grabbed my arm, holding me in place. I looked at him confused. He straight looked at me and, without hesitation, looked from her and back to me.

"No."

He pulled my ass back down in my seat. I don't know about yall, but my behind stayed seated for the rest of the day.

End of flashback.

I chuckled thinking about our first encounter as I pulled up to the parking lot of my school.

I just know he's about to throw a fit for being late.