I was never human

4 years later

I didn't leave my room the rest of the day. I left the medical center thinking things were gonna get back on track. Now I believe I might still be in there, cause what's happening now is a nightmare. I still gotta be in a coma with this craziness. How could my dad turn me away like that? H- he said he'd never leave me... so what's up with him now? Tears ran down my face at the thought of what I most feared.

I was gonna lose another parent.

I just couldn't come to terms with that, and the idea of it broke my heart. I lay in bed and cried. I cried until I cried myself asleep. I was awoken by knock after knock at my door. Psy brought me food and left it out by my door. My brother and grandparents came. They wanted to be let in and to talk, telling me that dad still loves me and that he's just scared, etc, etc.

Uhhh... I'm scared, too. But do you see me blaming every wolf I see for the few that hurt me?

No.

Why?

Because it's stupid as hell. Besides, I'm half wolf, so that would be hating myself. I didn't want to be bothered by anyone.

Later that night, there was a knock on my door, and again, I ignored it.

"Kwenali, you better open this door, or I'll break it down."

My eyes widened at the voice of the commander. I knew him long enough to know he meant every word. I rolled my eyes and blew my breath as I slid off the bed and opened the door. He stood with a tray of food and something to drink. He had a smirk on his face, and I wanted to kick him in the shin.

"Take this. You need to eat, and I won't have you withering away."

He passed me the tray and entered my room.

"Yes, please. Do come in."

I said sarcastically. He gave me a stern look, and I lowered my head.

"Sorry."

I lowly spoke. I shouldn't be taking my frustrations out on anyone else.

"All good, kid. I won't say I understand how you're feeling, but I know what it's like to be hurt and frustrated."

I walked over to my desk, sitting my food down and taking a seat. Bruce leaned up against one of the posts on my bed and folded his arms over his chest. I looked up at him.

"I told him if he didn't want me, then he could've let me go. He didn't have to do this... he didn't have to be my dad. He wanted this. He asked for this... so why am I the one hurt? Why is it then on me?"

I couldn't keep the water from my eyes from falling. His stern features began to soften.

"Kwen. I know this all seems like a lot and confusing. Trust me, it's confusing for the test of us too. But know and understand how much your father loves you. He fought to bring you here and-"

"And yet, he has told me to leave. If it wasn't for the fact that Danny threatened to leave with me, no plans would have been made that involved me being here."

My anger was rising, thinking of everything that was said to me. You don't get to use people like that.

"...listen. I know there isn't much I could say to make this better. I just ask that you don't give up on him. I don't know what it is, but something's not right. I've known him my whole life. One thing he doesn't just abandon is family. Family is literally so important to him. So, none of this is adding up to me."

Hmm. So Bruce thinks something smells fishy, too.

"You find it strange as well?"

He looked at me and nodded.

"This is why I'm asking you not to give up on him. I know him, and I'm sure this isn't him. I don't know if it's fear or something else, but he wouldn't do this."

I'm tired of all this push and pull when it comes to my dad. Since I got here, it's been one thing after another, and it's exhasting... but even I feel that there is something off.

"Regardless, I'm basically banished from everyone and everything here."

That's when I saw the slight smile that showed on Bruce's face. I frowned.

"About that..."

A few hours later...

It was close to 11pm, and I made my way to the training grounds. Bruce instructed me to head there tonight and he'd explain things to me here. I honestly thought he wouldprobablyy give me a quick intro into his training. Ididn'tt expect to see him,myy grandparents and Steph all waiting for me.

"We going camping or something? Ishould'vee brought my sleeping bag."

I said as I made my way to the center with the rest of them.

"No, smartass. We've been waiting for you."

Bruce said with a fake annoyed face... or at least I think it was fake. It made me smile nonetheless. I walked over to steph and gave him a huge hug. He returned the hug after being startled. That's when he chuckled.

"What's wrong, Kwen. It's been a day since I last saw you. Did you miss me that much?"

I just held on to him.

"She's like that because today she's been told by the Luna and Alpha that she isn't allowed to hang around you boys anymore... around anyone, for that matter."

My grandma said. I fought hard against more tears. Steph's once loose arms, tightened around me, squishing me closer to him.

"WHAT! WHY??! NO! THEY CAN'T DO THAT. YOU CAN'T LEAVE ME!!"

Steph sounded frantic at the idea of me never being allowed around him and the others ever again.

"Calm down, Steph. She's not going anywhere, ok."

I heard my grandpa say gently. I heard a sniffling next to my ear. I pulled back to see Steph with tears running down his cheeks with an angry/scared look on his face. My heart melted. At least I know he feels what I feel for him. I love my brother, but it's so strange. I feel something, in a way, deeper or just different from the way I feel about Danny for Steph. I've always felt wanted and safe around all of the guys, but Steph has always felt different. I wiped at his eyes, and he leaned his face into my hand. I smiled at him.

"It's ok. I'm ok. We'll always be friends."

"No! Don't leave me, Kwenali."

Steph sounded so heartbroken. I knew he was struggling because his beautiful water green eyes kept flashing between his dark sapphire ones. His wolf, Styx, seemed to be just as upset by this whole ordeal.

"Relax Steph and Styx. This is why I wanted you here."

Bruce said. I felt Styx calm, and his blue eyes retreated, allowing Steph's water green ones to return completely. I held his hand as we both turned to face Bruce.

"The short version... Kwen was ordered to no longer hang around you boys. I was instructed to never train her."

"What!!? You can't be serious!!!"

Steph sounded just as shocked as everyone else. Bruce held up a hand to stop his rambling.

"Yes. It's an order, but it is one I can not commit to. Kwen is my alpha's daughter. Therefore, her safety is of priority to me as well. Instead, I will train you, Steph, harder and stricter than before. All of that will be so that you'd be able to train Kwen. You two seem to have a connection. We've all noticed it. The alpha and Luna here thought you'd be perfect to help in this."

Bruce pointed to my grandparents. They stood smiling.

"We told you, darling. We will protect you. We love you so much, and nothing will ever change that."

My grandma said. I smiled and ran to them, wrapping my arms around them as best as I could.

"Thank you! Thank you all for doing this for me."

I said on the verge of more tears.

"That's not all. Yes, we all are willing to do this, but it has to be kept a secret at all times. Your parents cannot know at all Stephen, and that goes without saying to you, Kwen. No one can know, or your and our lives will be in jeopardy. Also, this will be a long and tiresome process for both of you. If either of you feel like it's becoming too much or you believe you can't hide it from everyone, tell me now, and we all can walk away from this."

Bruce said in a very serious tone. He looked the both of us in the eyes. I looked at Steph, and he looked at me. I looked up to my grandparents, and they had nothing but love in their eyes for me. I had to do this. Someone must've gotten the wrong memo about me. I'm not weak, and I dont quit. I will become better and stronger, if not for anyone else, than for myself. I nodded at Steph, and a bright smile broke out on his face. We both looked at Bruce and at the same time accepted our soon to be future.

"We're in."

4 years later...

"Kw...Kwe... KWEN!!"

I jumped, looking around. I was seated in a chair, looking out the window in Dr. Mason's office. I saw Dr. Mason look at me with a snide smirk on his face. I gave him a bashful one. I've been zoning out all day.

"What's been on your mind that it hasn't been here all day, little one."

I took a deep breath.

"I'm sorry... it's just... I'll be graduating soo, and I'll be headed to medical school next fall. It's the first time I won't have my mom here for a moment like this. Plus, I'll be turning 16 in a few months, and Thanksgiving is around the corner. I don't know... these milestones get harder and harder to enjoy when the one person I really want to share them with isn't here to bask in the joy of them. I know my mom would've made a huge fuss over all these things, and knowing that Lisa is gonna give me a hard time with all of it, just sours everything for me."

I sighed heavily. I put my head between my legs, already mentally exhausted from... life.

"Little one, I'm sorry that things have unfolded the way it has for you. I know things are not as you'd like them to be, but think of those that are here, now, who loves and is happy for you. I'm sure your birthday will be special and your graduation will be as well."

Dr. Mason said gently. I gave him a small smile. He and I both knew what he just said was nonsense, but it doesn't hurt to dream.

"I just hope I can get a pass to wear my hair out for my birthday. If they won't do anything here, I'm sure my auntie and sis will have something planned."

I smiled brightly, thinking of them and what they could be mustering up.

"Oh, I hope the Alpha does. I miss seeing your beautiful hair."

I fake gasped in shock.

"Is my face not enough? Dr. Mason... how could you?!"

I laid a hand on my chest dramatically. He chuckled at me, grabbing his clip board and walking towards the door to his office.

"Yea, yea. Come now. We have things to do today."

I nodded, standing to my feet. I picked up my own clipboard and walked towards the door. I was passing the long mirror in his office when I stepped back to look at myself. Since that whole crappy meeting four years ago, I've kept my hair wrapped up. No one has seen it since. I'm about 5'6 now, and I'm definitely started fill out, but no one notices because I stay covered up. I was in a large hoodie and yoga pants. I sighed at my reflection.

"Today, Kwen!"

I heard Dr. Mason shout from down the hall.

"Coming!"

I shouted back, closing his office door behind me.