Chapter Twenty
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Bella
“Jesus!” I exclaimed and left out a deep sigh of relief when Leon started to move his eyes to open. He’s unconscious for about two hours before he woke up. I panicked big time that I have to call his friends because the old couple is not here.
“What happened?” He asks, lifting his body and massaging his temple. His head might hurting right now because of the sudden fainting.
“You fainted.” I started. “You fainted after I return your feelings.”
“f**k? What?”
“I like you and you fainted.” I repeated myself.
His eyes dilated and he brought his right hand to cover up his mouth. If I can pick up his jaw, I will because it looks like his jaw dropped.
Why is he so dramatic today?
“Oh f**k you like me back. Oh f**k. f**k. f**k. Fuck.” He muttered multiple curse words, acting like he just won a noble prize or something.
“Damn. f**k. s**t. I’m out of friend zone. f**k! I’m f*****g god!”
I whimpered when he hugged me tightly. Muttering sweet words right on my ear sounding so happy. I smiled, he looks happy and pleased at the same time. He never expected this moment at all.
“I’m a motherfucking legend! I got out of the hellish zone of being a friend.” He said while giggling. He looked me in the eye for a moment before kissing me on the lips with so much passion.
His kisses were excited and happy. If I can just simply describe him, he’s blushing like a little girl. He let go of me and continued uttering at least seventy seven curses in a minute and saying how happy he is.
I shook my head because I cannot deal with his drama queen attitude, it makes my head hurt. I turned my heel to leave him alone for now and start cooking up for our lunch.
The living room of the cottage is once again silent. I can barely hear Leon’s celebratory cursing down in basement but the sounds of the waves are overpowering my ears. I could careless of Leon being dramatic over me, admitting my feelings.
The waves is all I need.
A small smile appeared on my lips when my eyes spotted a vase full if lilies. I really love lilies.
Lilies holds a good symbol to me. Different meanings but all of them will go down on the same path— simple and beautiful.
Lily is the symbol of happiness for me. I get happy whenever I see a bunch of flower lilies. They are my hope, love, and happiness. I will not give up my hope until I get the happiness, the love that I deserve.
For now, I’m a white stargazer lily. I’m sad and full of bad news because I’m still struggling to let go of my hideous past but I’m getting there. I’m helping myself to get better.
“Occupied with your lilies, I see.” I looked up to Leon and saw him smirking.
“Are you done with your cursing celebration?”
“Yes. What are you doing? I’ve been calling you.” He closed out distance to wrap his strong arms around my waste.
“Just thinking about the lilies. They are beautiful.”
“You know my favourite flower?”
I shook my head and put both of my hands over his chest. “What is it?”
“Chrysanthemums.” He simple said. Eyes glued against mine.
“Death flower.” I muttered. “I read before that in Asia, they are seen as the flower as symbol of saying goodbye to your loved one and a death flower.”
He sighed. He closed his eyes and he careful put his forehead against mine, his arms are tightened around me.
“That’s represent my mom. I started liking that flower because she likes them. She is loyal and devoted to my father. She’s happy with his two mischievous sons. Chrysanthemums represent that for her.”
“Your mother seems a kind woman.” I commented.
He didn’t opened his eyes but a beautiful smile appeared on his pinkish lips. He’s definitely a beautiful man.
“She is. She really is. I miss her, you know?”
“I know she’s proud to you.”
On my part, I know not all parents are made equally. My papa for example. He used to be a loving father until my mom left. He started to become violent and all . I became his punching bag of a daughter. While my mama, I don’t know where she is or how she is because she never called me or even Leandra.
There’s part in me that she already forgot about me.
I will be lying if I say that I’m not holding any grudge on both of my parents because I do.
On the other hand, there’s Mrs. Monzato. A loving mother and a good example for his two kids. Maybe they do something horrible in this life but I knew, deep down that the attitudes, the disciplines and traits their mother taught to them will stay forever in their hearts.
He maybe having a hard time with his father but he got a good time with his mother. Still a blessing.
Every little things in this life is a blessing, you just have to learn how to be more appreciative.
The night time came so fast. I finished the novel I was reading and I’m ready to read for more. I looked around the dark horizon. Even though there’s a little light in the patio and the bright light coming from the moon, it is not enough to give light in the ocean. It was pitch black only the waves you can hear.
I wonder where is Leon right now. He told me he was going to do something two hours ago and he’s out there.
A small smile appeared on my lips when I saw him finally walking towards me with a big smile on his mouth. The light from the moon is reflecting his honey orbs making it shine more. The wind is once again messing his hair and his loose shirt but he couldn’t careless. His eyes is focus on me.
I waited for him to finally stand in front of me, towering me with his huge built, the result of working out six days a week or, that what he said to me.
“Good evening to you.” I greeted him and wrapped my silly arms around his waist when he opened his arms signalling that I should hug him.
He hugged me back and kissed my head gently.
“I miss you. What’re you doing here? It’s cold, baby.”
“Waiting for you. I don’t know what to prepare for dinner because I don’t know you want to eat. Anything in your mind?”
He kissed me again but this time, on my lips. He became more sweet towards me since I admitted my feelings to him. His smile is more happier and genuine than ever and his eyes screams joy.
I’m very glad to see him so happy like this. This vacation really made him relaxed, good for him.
Everybody deserves a break from the noisy, polluted places of the City. The beauty of nature over anything else.
“I prepared something for us. But we need to walk a little bit.” He said, nuzzling his nose against mine.
“Where is it?”
“A surprise. Go on and put a cardigan, I don’t want you to get sick.”
I did what he said and turned my heel. I put on another leggings and a new dress then my cardigan. I feel comfortable with my clothes but somewhere in my mind shouting that one way or another, I need to embrace those scars I made and wear a dress, like literally a dress.
But when is that time? Tonight? Probably not. I don’t want to ruin this night with my insecurities.
“Stunning as always.” Leon said when he laud my eyes on me.
I felt my face burned from the compliment. He never fails to make me blush whenever he compliments me. What a charm.
“Thank you.”
He’s only wearing his black khaki short and his newly washed white polo sleeves that he rolled up to his elbow. The fit is simple but looking at him, he looks immaculate.
We walked hand in hand with a complete silence. No one dares to talk because it was comfortable enough, no awkwardness at all.
Being in here with me helped me to lose the awkwardness that I’m feeling whenever we are close to each other. It made me realise that what is the awkward feeling for? We are just here, living the best life.
I learned so much everything about him. I learned a lot too.
I stopped on my track when I saw what’s in front of me. There’s a table for two. The table is decorated with different colours of chrysanthemums making it glow together with the lights around the place. There’s a little bucket containing a bottle of champagne on the centre of the table.
There’s flowers everywhere but what caught my eyes were the lilies on the ground, laying beautifully and making the whole scene beautiful.
“I prepared this. I thought that putting the flowers we love in the same room is going to be pretty.” He said, kissing the back of my hand.
“This is lovely, Leon. Lovey.” I smiled at him and then returned my gaze to see the flowers especially the lilies.
“Thank you. The caretakers cooked the food though.” He chuckled. “Let’s get this special date we deserve.”
He lead me to my seat.
I once again played my eyes through the chrysanthemums on the table. Every colour is glowing on its own. The moonlight is bright as the lights decorated around us. The sound of the waves is adding the sweetness in the atmosphere.
We continued eating in silence. Just like earlier, the silence is relaxing with zero awkwardness.
Maybe this is what they call being contented with the presence of the person you like. No words and all, just presence and the comfortable atmosphere between the two people.
Maybe I’m all contented being with him. Maybe I’m not worried being around him for too long. Maybe I like him more than I know. Maybe there’s something more.
“How’s the dinner?” He asked. Pouring us a glass of champagne each.
“I loved it. I loved this. Thank you so much.”
Like I said, I will always appreciate whatever he do. I will always support him in every way I know. He deserves all the appreciation I can give. He deserves anything in this world.
The other light started to flicker that caught both of our attentions. He muttered a low curse while watching the one little bulb flickering continuously.
“Flicker.” He says, “Do you know the song Flicker?”
“Yes.”
The makes me cry for the reason that I don’t even know. The song is about hope. I can do relate on the song before I met him.
Because I started having hope because I convinced myself that I’m still alive and breathing, I can go through all this struggles I’m experiencing. The first person who gave a flicker of hope is myself.
The second is him. Leon gave a flicker hope. I’m in the dark. Trying and trying to get out but when I met him, he managed to make the flicker of the I made myself glow even more.
I know the tunnel of struggles is still long and the chaos in my mind will take a while before I get healed, completely. But with him, I can already see the weak light of hope, flickering and waiting for me to approach and fix the bulb with him and get healed once and for all.
“I love that song.” He commented.
“Me too.”
Thank you for giving me the hope I started giving to myself.
- Writer
