Viola I was boiling in anger and jealousy and felt so sorry that my father fell in love with a woman used to sleep with mathew!That’s awful!But for his happiness I accepted that. I was just worried that women might be doing that to get close to mathew and try to seduce him to take him from me. Once in a while I feel so near him that I don't have to utilize my mouth to state a solitary word….In any case,on different occasions I feel that there's high fringes that keep us far from one another.For what reason do I feel that terrible?Why my malevolent personality can't simply be glad for me?Is that typical? That wouldn’t just kill me emotionally!But I will screw up mathew relationship with my father forever.My father might die from such a shock! So for me when I accepted to stay with my f

