I can fight too

Chapter 4

"Please don't hurt me..... I beg you... I have a lot of things I want to do before I die... Please don't kill me... I promise I will call you as soon as I fulfill all my goals just so you can kill me if that's what you want."

I hear the man taking a deep breath as if to say that he is impatient. 

so I decided to open my eyes and look at that strong hand that is still having a strong grip on my wrist. I gather up my courage and look up into his eyes but all I see is just his outline because there is no light here. well, no wonder I couldn't outrun this guy. I mean he is well built and he is at least 6 feet 5 inches, which reminds me of... "Ryan? is that you?" I ask as I try to take out my phone with my free hand to put the flashlight on.

Trying to be fast enough, I bring my phone near my face and try to operate it with my left hand when I hear him speak for the first time

"yes, that would be me" he releases my hand and he sounds like he is bored. I mean, why did he even chase me when he is not interested to talk with me?

"so why did you chase me if you didn't even want to speak to me?" I ask as I feel anger replacing my fear. I met people who hurt me and it's no big deal for me but this guy is really getting into my nerve.

"because I saw you running through that hallway as if your life depended on it and it does not take a genius to figure out that you were trying to get yourself out of that place because you are too afraid of the dak!" he barks as his shoulders rise and fall rhythmically.

"so what? I lied!  The moment I looked at you, I knew that you hated me and that is why I rejected Kate's offer. I didn't want to waste anyone's time"  I want him to know that I hate being with him just as much as he hated being with me. I huff out my anger trying to even my breathing and get myself ready for him to spit out more harsh words but he is just breathing hard and not even uttering a word. I don't know why but his indifference to my words makes me feel agitated and furious.

"Okay then, act cool and smart mister. I better go" I turn around and just as I turn my flashlight on, I see Ryan in front of me. Before I could react, he takes my hand and he is dragging me the other way. 

"Stop it, Ryan! I had enough of you already. I don't want to go anywhere with you!" I growl but I didn't miss the moment where his grip on my hand got tighter. 

"I don't have any interest in you either little girl. I just want to make sure that my aunt's favorite student reaches home safely." he barks back at me with an equal amount of anger. 

"and I remember declining the offer earlier. so please feel free to go wherever you want and leave me alone Ryan?" this time, I try using a softer tone because I am feeling really tired now and I don't have enough energy to fight. I just hope that he listens to me this one last time and leave me alone.

"shut up and get in the car girl" his tone leaves no room for me but to obey. so I do just that and get inside the car before closing my eyes to avoid seeing this rude B(I don't want to use that word).

seems like the feeling is mutual because as soon as he got in, he started driving without uttering a word. 

"hey little girl, I think it's your stop" I didn't miss his sarcasm when he said that. Rolling my eyes, I look out and that's when it hit me. I didn't even tell him my address so how the hell did he know?

"My aunt gave me your address and let me tell you one thing, you are a horrible liar," he remarks as he opens his side of the door and move out and I think I know what he is up to but I am not going to let him do that.

with that thought, I get out of the car just as Ryan reaches my side of the door. yay!!!

"thank you for being very thoughtful Ryan but I am pretty much capable of opening a car door" I smile at him as I speak because, by the look on his face, I can say that he wasn't expecting this at all.

"well I am glad to know that you are not that spoilt" he smirks as his green eyes look at me from head to toe and to me, it's an insult because my life was anything but pampered! But he doesn't need to know that.

"thank you so much, Ryan. I really appreciate your help so see you around" I fake a smile his way and turn to head towards the place called "home" but then, I really wanted to take that smirk off his face so I turn around and speak out the words that had been whirling around my mind for the last ten minutes.

"FYI, we are of the same age so stop treating me like a child. I am very much thankful for your help but I would love to never see you again Ryan. You know why? Because you are very quick at judging. You don't even know me but you decided that you hate me. You thought I am some "spoilt child". I don't want to be surrounded by negative energy so I will pray that we never meet again" as I finish my mini-speech, I look at him and man am I happy?

His expression is not readable but then, the good news is that the smirk that he had earlier has vanished!

"Have a good night, SIR, "I say sarcastically as I sprint towards my house because I don't want to listen to his bold, authoritative, and arrogant voice and ruin my mood.

I am really happy with the way I got back at him and I can help but to dance a bit to celebrate my victory. I am serious though, I don't want to see him ever again. Maybe if he had smiled at me when we first met and agreed to drop me off without creating any fuss, I might have liked him but there is no way I can like him now.

I sit on my couch and try calling Benz again because I am quite worried about him right now because he always picks up my calls. if he doesn't pick up this call, I think I will have to pay him a visit.

"Hello," a female answered. The voice seems familiar but I cannot exactly point it out but I am sure that it's not Mrs. Johnson

"I am sorry, I think I dialed up a wrong number" am I blabbering?

"no, wait! Is that Carrie?"

I look at my screen and this is certainly Benz's number. 

"yeah, that would be me. sorry to ask but who is this?" I ask as I try to recognize that voice

"it's me Mia" oh well who else has that week laugh? I smile and roll my eyes

"so sorry, I couldn't recognize your voice. How is Benz? Is he okay?"

"yeah, he is absolutely fine. In fact, he is back so you can talk to him" hum.. so he is fine and he didn't even bother to call me?

"hey car, wait up a sec" I hear rustling and a door closing

"so you are doing fine" I point out as I feel that piercing in my heart. I mean he always calls me whenever I am late and this is the first time he chose not to call me.

"yeah I mean this is the best night ever! thank you so much for planning this day for us!" he sounds really excited about something.

"what do you mean planning for you? I didn't do anything" I ask as I try to contemplate his words. what is happening?

"Carrie please stop acting! I know that you decided to not join us tonight because you wanted us to get to know us better" he chuckles as he finishes his last word and what can I say? his assumptions are valid given the fact that it's his first time being with a girl he actually likes.

"oh! no problem but let's make a promise here Benz" I try to calm myself done before I start screaming at him for no reason

"yeah what is it?" he enquires curiously and I can even picture him asking that question as he quirks his right eyes with eyes half-closed and turning his face towards north. I mean he always does that when he is curious.

"I know that you are having a huge crush on Mia and believe me when I say that I like her because I do. But I sense that your relationship is growing too fast and I don't blame anyone of you because it happens in some love stories. But I want you to promise me that no matter how close you get with Mia, you will always be my best friend. That we will continue doing what we had been doing until now" I am getting edgy as I wait for his reply because I don't know what to expect right now because somehow, I feel that we have some gap between us that wasn't there before. 

"oh Car, You know how our friendship means to me. I would never dream of choosing others over you. like ever again! so my dear Car, don't you worry, I will keep my promise till death do us apart" and that brings back my bestie. Funny and loving.

"now that we have a deal, I am feeling a lot better. good night Benz. Have fun" I smile as I hear a chuckle.

"goodnight Car"

Now that it's sorted, I can eat something because it's been hours since lunch and I have to keep up my energy to deal with this world. I am glad that my mom is not here yet. I mean she is rarely home. Because she is so busy trying to create a "stable future" for me. She doesn't get that all I need for now is her time and a little bit of love. She doesn't understand that the food made by the maids just fills up my belly but not my heart!

"it's me and it's going to be me alone in this confusing world" I chant my mantra and walk towards the kitchen.