I can fight too

Chapter 16

Anger flows through my body as I watch the clip that is probably passed on to all the students in our school. I am sure, Evelyn has circulated that video but why would she do that? I don't even know why she hates me. 

"Who could that be?" Ryan roars as he stands up instantly and starts pacing around the room.

"probably some people who hate me and want to see me suffer" I shrug and I am shocked that I sound so calm and controlled right now. I don't know what I should do or if I should let it be but I am sure that I have to talk with Evelyn.

"Whoever it is, they are going to regret this"  Ryan shouts as his eyes turn a darker shade of green and I can literally see his nerves that are about to pop out of his neck.

"Calm down Ryan, I have a hunch about this person. I will-"

"who is it, Carrie? Tell me now!" I don't know why he is so angry. I mean yes we are friends but his action is unexpected.

"Ryan, Calm down, these things will just take around three to four days and everyone will forget that it ever happened. So calm down and let me think" I soothe him as I try to compose myself as well. 

Who would have thought that my weekend would bring such turmoil in just one day? I don't know what's happening anymore. I mean, everything was so normal until yesterday. I mean I didn't even think that my day would be this way. But the one question that is revolving around my head is to know why Evelyn did what she did. I want to know why she hates me to the point that she shared that ridiculous dialogue shared by Benz.

Benz

I thought he was my best friend and now, he chose his crush and his interest before me. I thought I knew him well enough. I thought he would never be the one who will think ill of me even if I act weird; even if I am weird. Guess I am wrong. 

"Ryan, thank you for helping the lunch and for today. I had a great time with you. But I have to go now. See you" I try to sound as calm and controlled as I could because I don't want him to get worried and I don't him to be any closer to me because I had enough of people turning their back on me and I don't think I can Irish that anymore.

so I grab my bag from the table nearby and head towards his door.

"Wait up Carrie" 

"Ryan, we are still going to be friends but I need some space alone. Please" I beg as I open the door and head out before he could say anything.

I run across the streets ignoring all the confused looks I get.

I need time to think but I don't know if I can do that given that my head is pounding like it will blast any moment and I am not so sure I can handle that anymore.

As I run, my vision gets blurry and I can feel my head spinning but I am determined not to let anyone see my vulnerability. I am not going to cry. I am not going to let any people in my heart. I am not going to let them see me weak ever again.

I force a smile as I smile and see my house across the street. I run towards it with all the energy I have and open the door before I faint right outside my door.

I would put her in a garbage bin to show her place...

I would put her in a garbage bin to show her place....

I would put her in a garbage bin to show her place...

I grab my head tightly as I try to force it out of my head but the more I try, the more I hear this phrase over and over again. 

I don't know for how long I had been in this state but I now feel some peace calling for me and I am going to give in.

"hey Car" Benz call out 

"what is it, Benz?"  

"My mom wants to invite you over for dinner"

I  stiffen as soon as I hear the word dinner because every time I hear that word, it reminds me of uncle paul.

"who all will be there?" I ask with hesitation because if I am to decline, I will have to come up with a strong reason.

"just you Carrie" Benz smiles as he sits beside me and we enjoy the scene before us, taking in all fresh air and feeling at home.

"Also, my grandpa is here so you might have to be prepared for his lame stories as well" I stiffen once again and am about to decline the offer when Benz cut me out.

"you will love him Car, I know because I love him" His eyes glitters as he speaks about his grandpa.

I haven't been around my grandparents much and I don't know what it's like to be around them. But I am sure that if Benz loves him, I will like him too. Moreover, I have received paternal love from his parents all along.

Mr. and Mrs. Johnsons were the ones who would attend the parents-teachers meeting instead of my mother, They were the ones who would cheer me up when I am playing sports and they are the ones who would never forget to buy me gifts on holidays and on my birthdays.

I wish my mother were like them.

"let's go Car, it's getting late"

"sure" I smile as brightly as possible to try and conceal my sadness.

"come on Car, You can't be sad when you are with me!" I laugh at his cute pout and hug him tightly for all the things he did. For being a brother I never had and for being with me when the world decided to turn its back on me.

"You are the sweetest friend ever!" I confess as I hug him even tighter. Instead of hearing his sweet response, I hear laughter from all around me. 

I release Benz from my grip and look around confused. There are people I don't recognize but they seem to know me well enough. They are all laughing at me!

"Why are you laughing?" I question as I look beside me to seek comfort from Benz but to my utter surprise, he is nowhere.

"I would put her in a garbage bin to make her realize her place" A boy who is around sixteen laughs at me as he speaks.

He seems familiar. The square face shape is too familiar and those innocent eyes; look so much like Benz but how did he grow up so fast?

"Benz?"  I ask as I try to ignore the mocking crowd.

"I would put her in a garbage bin to make her realize her place"  He repeats

"What is wrong with you! Benz, What are you talking about?" I prob as I feel tears brimming my eyes. I close my eyes to fight back the tears and just like that, all the laughter I heard before fades away.

I open my eyes and I am now all alone in a dark dense forest without a trail to be seen.

"Benz" I call out but all I hear is silence giving me goosebumps.

"Benz" I whisper as my eyes roam all around the surrounding to find any signs of danger and with a hope that Benz will appear right out of blue to rescue me.

"Benz" I call out again and again and again but all I get in response is creeping silence.

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