I can fight too

Chapter 13

I try to process why Ryan is pulling out the words that are the main cause of my pain as I watch his expression switch from grim and serious to full-on laughter gaining attention from the once-forgotten audience around the room.

"Why are you laughing?" Evelyn asks as she looks at Ryan with a confused expression.

"Actually, that's because I can now see how strong their bond is. I mean they think alike to the point that the same dialogue is being used to indicate their feelings towards each other" Ryan continues laughing as he looks at me with eyes that are asking me to play along.

So he is trying to turn that dialogue back at Benz so as to make their plans unsuccessful! How can he think so fast?

"Ryan, you were supposed to keep it a secret!" I pretended to act shocked 

"But what's the point when the both of you feel the same way and said the same way about each other?" Ryan plays along as he quirks a brow at me.

"that's not possible!" Mia exclaims all of a sudden as she looks at Ryan with a challenging and coy look.

"Well, she actually confessed it in front of my aunt Kate as well." Ryan shrugs and looks at Benz with a smile and Benz is just staring at me with void eyes.

Good for him. He should feel that pinch as well.

"you mean the Librarian?" Brandon asks all of a sudden sounding interested all of a sudden.

"one and only" Ryan smiles as he looks my way and smiles as he squeezes my hands once again.

I smile back at him but I am a bit skeptical right now because if they ask Ryan to prove it, I don't think he can do anything because that never happened!

"I don't believe this!" Evelyn scoffs as she rolls her eyes and looks at Ryan and me with a coy look.

"I won't believe unless I hear it from your aunt"

" seems fair but how will you prove that Benz said those things to you all yesterday?" Ryan challenges back and I smile broadly as I observe Evelyn fuming with anger. 

"Well Benjamin here, mentioned it clearly yesterday" Mia interjects as she looks at me with those pretentious pity eyes.

"I still don't believe it" Ryan smirks and looks at Benz, who is now fidgeting on his chair.

"Tell him, Benjamin, tell them that you said it" Evelyn press as she looks at Benz with determined eyes.

All attention is on Benjamin and all he does is stammer and look at me with pleading eyes.

"Did you say it, Benz?" I ask as calmly as possible but I am feeling pain all over my heart and I am squeezing Ryan's hand as my life depends on it.

"well... uh... Car listen..., I ..."

"I don't have much time Benz, I have lots of work to do besides having a useless chat with you all" I snap as he looks my way with a surprised look and I hear Mia gasping with surprise. They will now see the furious me and I don't think anyone can handle me when I get angry.

"yes.. but"

"See, it wasn't hard now was it?" I say as I stand up and look at Ryan who is now smirking and watching Benz who is now looking at me with pleading eyes as his eyes fill with tears.

"since you confessed it, it's only fair that I do too. Yes Benjamin Johnson, what Ryan said is right. I said that I will put you in a garbage bin to show your place if you have that lovely dovey feeling for me and I also said that you are not my type because I know soft your brain is and I don't want to have a boyfriend who does not know what he wants" I smile as I speak to him stressing every word as I speak.

I look around the table and see Evelyn whose mouth is open and is now looking at me and Benz with surprised eyes. Brandon is now smirking at me and by the looks on his blue eyes, he is happy to hear those words.

Mia is looking at me with the same shocked expression as Evelyn's and their expressions make me smirk even more.

"I thought you wanted those words to be a secret" Ryan laughs breaking the silence as he stands up and wraps his hand around my shoulder and squeezing it.

"well, it's only fair if he knows it all" I shrug as I give Benz one last look before leading Ryan towards the door.

"It was fun chatting with you "noob liers" Ryan press as I open the door and lead us to the counter.

"see it was not that difficult now, was it?" Ryan asks as he follows me out of the door.

"I don't want to talk about it" I whisper as I keep walking towards the public library to grab my books and bag. I think I will just head home and let my pain out.

"Okay," Ryan says as he walks silently with me towards the library.

"Ryan, thank you," I say as I pick up my books and turn towards the door.

"hey, did you realize that we actually didn't have anything for lunch?" Ryan reminds me as he looks at me with a smile. I know that he is trying to comfort me and make me laugh but I am dealing with so much pain right now that I can't even smile.

"you can eat something then. so sorry you had to see that" I apologize.

"See you around Ryan," I say as I force a smile and turn around once again.

"at least you can eat with me to show how thankful you are" Ryan suggests and he sounds so desperate.

"not today Ryan," I say as I continue walking away from him.

"but you have questions to ask me" Ryan reminds me as he follows me outside the library.

"some other time Ryan" I roar irritated.

"please" Is he pleading now? what is wrong with him?

cant he understands that I need time to process everything and deal with it?

"I need some space right now Ryan" I sigh as I sense hot tears sliding down my cheeks. 

SHIT! I wanted to cry when I was alone. Not in front of Ryan who has seen a lot already.