Becoming Adult - "But I'm just a baby!"

Let me tell you a story.

Cloudy's POV:

My life started as far as I can remember when I was 5 years old in a day care center.

The first adult that I met outside of the family was my teacher, ma'am Elena.

I really admired her back then.

The way she talks, the way she sings, and the way she scolds me. Everything about her is everything I wanted to be when I grow up.

But everything I am now, about what I wanted, is the exact opposite of ma'am Elena.

I don't talk eloquent as her and I sing like a goat.

I guess it's my fault for comparing myself to others. I am me, let's embody me. Let's just be positive here.

Going back to me, being a five-year old kid, I really loved the idea of being a grown up person, of being an adult. They always seem like the perfect people to me. They can do what they want, they can say anything graciously.

To be honest, adults have made great impact to the little me.

Little did I know that everything that I saw was just a product of my pessimistic way of seeing things back then. Super naive.

But this way of me made things for me to make friends.

I was the one who always initiated conversations even to strangers.

Ha-ha, I can't do that now. The me now is super introverted. What happened to you my little old self...

Change is the only permanent in this world.

Yep..

I changed.

Oh, I remember the very first friend I had on that daycare center.

It was a little boy named Nicole.

We were like best buddies, everywhere I go he's there. Whatever he does, I do. If I get in trouble, he's in also. We're partners in crime.

That Nicole, I saw him last week.

The funny thing is he smiled at me and I smiled back.

Then he was approaching me when I suddenly stepped back and signalled him, pointing my fingers to a PUV, which tells him that I have to get on that vehicle and I have to go.

He got confused but still waved goodbye.

The truth is, I don't know how to talk to him.

We're best friends but then we were not cause we went to different schools after daycare and I'm not sure how to approach him. Do I approach him like we're buddies or just act normal?

I don't know.

Let's just move on.