From Beta to Luna, an Alpha's love

Chapter 10: Step back

Eleanor

He...HE IS KISSING ME!

And it was the best kiss in the world. I put my hands on his chest. And we kept kissing. He moved both hands to my waist and I put mines around his neck.

It was the best feeling in the world. I felt like I didn’t want to kiss other lips than his, I didn’t want anyone else but him.

He...Kyle…he is my mate and, I'm melting in his arms.

Soon our tongues started playing, we were getting more and more excited. He squeezed my waist without digging his nails into me. I wanted to feel him closer to me.

The temperature was raising really quickly, our breathing was heavy and we kissed more and more passionately. Then he started to kiss my neck.

This is not right anymore…this is happening too fast.

I tried to move him away from me. I was able to put my feet on the ground and I tried again to move him away from me. But he didn’t react.

-Kyle wait, stop…Kyle.-

Has he lost control or is he not listening?

-Kyle! Stop!

Kyle

I could hear her in the back of my mind, but for some reason, I was addicted to her. I couldn´t stop. Her essence, her touch, everything.

And out of nowhere, it came to my mind the night in the pub, that guy. And the fact that she is not coming with me. The fact that I want her for me. That she is mine. That…

-AHHH!- She screamed. I was…biting her, no I…I moved away from her

-You marked me! - She yelled. - Without my permission!

F***, f***, f***

-Ely, I lost control.

- Really? And that luck of control what was going to lead to?

- No Ely, I would never...

-You would never what? Marked me?

- Ely I just want you to be mine– I step forward.

-Don’t get closer to me!- She was scared. Scared of me. Me! I’m meant to take care of her, to protect her. And, now she is scared of me.

- I WILL NEVER hurt you. I’m not capable of such a thing. It wasn’t my intention to do that, not this soon. I lost control because I don’t want to lose you. I want to be yours.- I said opening my heart.

- Well, I think someone should have told you that this is not the way.

-I know it's not the way but.

-But what?!

- I’m sorry. I can’t help to be an alpha, Ely. I’m like this. I’m possessive with my Luna. I once saw you with a guy I don’t want to see and feel the same again.

- And you thought I would do that after meeting you? -  She wasn0t scared anymore, she was pissed.

-It’s not because of you, it's because…- I couldn’t finish the sentence because she interrupted me again.

-Good afternoon Kyle.- She moved like she was leaving

-No, Eleanor.

But then she turned into a wolf and growled at me. In some pack that it's a death sentence, not in mine. She realized what she just did and her scared expression came back again.

-It’s okay. I’m sorry.- I said with both hands up. But she left. Running. And I let her go. I thought it was the best I could do. I closed my fist and punched the tree leaving a big mark.

-I just f***ing marked her! It’s completely normal! Okay, I didn’t ask for her permission but I explained myself. She is my mate! We have a connection, we kissed and I marked her because she is mine and she is not going to be anyone else’s.

- I know Kyle, but her permission is important. - Claire said calmly.

-I’m an Alpha. We don’t ask for stupid permissions. We find our Luna, we make sure the bond is real and the BAM, we mark each other.

It was 11 p.m and I was in my hotel room with Claire. I was so angry about what happened today. Everything was going well as it was supposed to be. And then just because I marked her everything was ruined.

-I do no longer know what to do.

-Apologize.

-Excuse me, what? - I said looking at Claire with my eyes wide open.

- Kyle, you can mark your Luna if you want, of course. But consent its important even if you run together and kissed.

- So, should I have asked for permission to kiss her too?

-It’s not the same. Why don’t you apologize not for marking her, if not for the way you did it?

-There’s only one way to do it, Claire.

- Kyle, I know – she sighed – I don’t mean the bite. But maybe she would have appreciated it if you were calmed down and more careful. The mark’s a special moment, especially if it's your mate. It's not the same as if she were your girlfriend. Was it the same with Hanna?

-Don’t bring my ex into this conversation! - I took a deep breath- Of course, it’s not the same. Nothing it’s the same.

- Kyle, there’s a reason why you asked me to stay. I’m giving you advice. Please listen to me.

- But why it's always me saying sorry? Why she can let things happen as its meant to?

- Probably because she is not sure about her future, she feels unstable and she has to rule her pack in the meantime. - Claire stood up and hug me-

- Don’t worry, you will end up together. Just don’t hurry things up. She likes you.

- I’m pretty sure she doesn’t.

- I’m sure she is thinking about you right now.

-But not in a good way Claire.

-She might be upset because this is not how she expected things to be. But you can’t avoid feeling the bond. And at the wedding, she couldn’t stop looking at you. - She kissed my cheek. -  Good night brother.

She left and I was alone, again, in my room. Wondering how was she feeling. And trying to figure out how I was feeling.

I messed up. I knew that. But I want her, I can’t help to feel the need to make her mine. To show that she is mine. That I found her, that I feel lucky, that I’m the happiest man to have her. But, do I have her?

Maybe right now I’m the saddest one because I thought I had her but I don’t. I guess I feel weak because she has me, but I don’t think I have her.

Eleanor

How it can be Monday again? I was drinking my second coffee in my office when someone knocked the door. And before I could even answer Liam came in.

-Oh, come in please! - I said with sarcasm. I didn’t even have to look up to know it was Liam. - How did my secretary let you come in this time?

- Well, she didn’t. You should get a new one. Look, this is for you and she didn’t even give it to you! –

- What? – I looked at Liam and he was holding a big bouquet of flowers.

- It says: To Ely. So, I guess… It went well yesterday?

- Something like that

-You don’t look excited. You just receive like 50 flowers!

- I’m busy Liam!

-Oh true, the meeting we have. So you don’t mind if I read the note it has right?

- No Liam, that private. – I stood up to stop him but he was too fast.

- I’m sorry, again. That wasn’t the way to do it. – Liam looked at me – what does he mean?

- Ely what did he do?

-None of your business - I wasn’t planning to tell him what happened because I knew what his reaction would be. That’s why I’m wearing a scarf, but I don’t know how long I will be able to hide it. I just hope Kyle and I can fix it before Liam discovers why he is sorry.

- Ely.

-No.

-Okay, I’ll find out what it is by myself.

-Don’t miss the meeting, its in half an hour – I said before he left.

Liam

 There are only a few things that I hate about this job, and one of them are the meetings. Especially the boring ones, when it's about rouges or dangerous situations it excites me, but talking about how safe and secure are our forests… it's just pathetic and boring.

-Hey Liam - a colleague whispered to me – why does Beta smell different?

- You know…different.

-She is my sister, she smells like my sister, and she still smells like my sister.

- Well for us, she smells like a no available she-wolf.

- ….- My mind was trying to figure out what he was trying to say. It was obvious but I was blocked.

- You know what I mean right?

- Liam, Paul, can we all hear your suggestions? – Eleonor asked.

- Yeah, my suggestion is no scarfs in the meetings.

- Excuse me? – She said with an annoying face. So I stood up and approached her.

- Take off your scarf.

- I’m not and you better sit down or leave.

- Did he mark you?!

- Enough, get out.

- Answer me!

-This is a job meeting, not a family one!

- DID HE MARK YOU AGAINST YOUR WILL? – I raised my voice, I was losing control.

- THAT’S NOT HOW YOU SPEAK TO YOUR BETA!

- My beta? Our beta? For how long are you going to be our beta? -  I guessed I crossed the line. Her eyes were wide open.

- You are suspended until further notice – she said with a cold voice. – the meeting has finished, we will do Margaret’s plan.

- Good, I have someone to visit. – And I left as fast as I could.

I was fuming. How he dares to touch my sister. How he dares to come to this pack and do whatever he wants to. How he dares to mark her as his without her permission. I don’t care about his name, and his position, I’m ending this now…

I arrived at the hotel I knew he was, luckily it wasn’t too far. I knew Ely will come behind me so I had to hurry up. I asked in reception which one was his room and I ran as I saw Ely coming in.

I stole one of the cleaner’s master keys and I opened his door.

-What the f**k?! – he said.

But I didn’t listen, I took a chair and locked the door with it.

-You are going to regret what you did to my sister.