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Dear Diary, 

Tomorrow I turn 18. This is an exciting time as I can not wait to explore my new world but the only thing I have on my mind tonight at 8:45 are my failures. I’ve excused myself from the pre celebration dinner with my family down stairs. I wanted to write my thoughts while they were fresh on my head.

My family believe that as a women turning 18 it is at this point when you should be wed settle down and have a start to try for a family. I used to think that the ideal life for me was just that. I reached 16 the age my parents allowed dating but dating for marriage and not for fun but no one called. “Don’t worry Isla, you’ve got 2 years you’ll find your man.” My family chanted in unison at most family gatherings. Then 17 “Isla you are cutting it short I hope you’ve started looking!” The Aunties and Uncles would say. Then tonight the day before I’m 18 “Right Isla, if you don’t find someone within the next month my my friends, cousins friends, brother has agree to wed you. He is 19 and apparently also struggling like you to find his forever”. 

Eurgh I’m furious! I’m looking forward to being 18 to get away from this place!!! I don’t want to get married and have the white picket fence! I want freedom, a university degree and best yet to lose my virginity! I know you are only a diary but sometimes I feel closer to you than anyone I’ve ever met. In my mind I construct exactly how I’ll lose my virginity... there will be flowers, candles and it’ll be to a gentleman and he will be so soft, delicate and kind to me. It’ll be someone I’ve known my whole life (or a really long time) but never really saw as more than a friend. Who am I kidding I have written the name of every boy I’ve know since Kindergarten and still ACTUALLY talk to and there are 6 of them MAX... haha Max is one of them actually. There is Max, John, Thomas, Brandon, Nick and my best friend Andy - which as you know Andy is experimenting with men at this moment. I think that’s all of them... 

I JUST WANT ONE WISH FOR MY BIRTHDAY! 

I‘D WISH THAT  I‘D HAVE  THE MOST AMAZING AND ADVENTUROUS  LIFE FORGET ABOUT WHAT EVERYONE THINKS AND ENJOY MYSELF FOR WHAT I WANT TO BE. 

Who am I minding as if my family would allow me to go to uni and actually have a career! I must go back to dinner before someone notices for now thank you for listening and letting me get this stupid emotions crap off my chest. 

Isla

I returned down the stairs taking my time lingering on each step when the doorbell rang. “Isla can you get the on your way past please?” Shouted my mother. “Fine”. I said with a slight pout on my face. 

As I opened the door the was a gust of wind throwing my hair into a tornado like twist landing over my face and into my mouth. I choked and cough but eventually pulled my hair free from my dribble. When I was able to look up I whispered “Sorry can I...” I stop and no words would leave my mouth. There was a man standing in front of me with A tiny little present box and the most gorgeous face I had seen. I felt heat radiating from inside me where I had never felt it before. 

“Package for Isla” he lifted the box. “M..me” I mumbled. He handed me the package making sure he touched my hand. It felt like an electric shock radiating through my body and stopping where I could NEVER imagine. 

I blushed wondering if he knew how his touch just made me feel. 

“Happy birthday Isla, this order came through to us there is a card inside from the gifter. Forgive me for saying this as it is very unprofessional but you look beautiful”. 

I stood with my mouth opened and couldn’t reply. My brain shouting, begging for me to respond. When the deliver man turned on his heels and walked away. I read the letters on the back of the van F.A.T.E

My brain exploding into thoughts. When my sister grabbed me and said “Close the door there is a terrible breeze and mum is complaining AGAIN! “ Rolling her eyes. 

It was then I hoped that I’d see the man again because the feeling the  electric shock from his touch gave me  between my thighs was the first of what  I’d like to be many!