The vampire and the mistress

Chapter 6

I got myself sorted faster than I had told Xander I'd be done. I had no idea where he was planning on taking me, so I just opted to wear a strap top and jeans with my sandals. I hoped we weren't going anywhere where I'd get too hot and regret my choice in my outfit, but if it happened, it was my own fault for rushing to get my plan under way.

I grabbed my bag after shoving my purse into it, and then I ran down to the library. I knew that Dorian had said not much was known about the chaos, but surely Xander would have a book or even a journal about the events, and maybe I could learn something about it. Anything I could learn about it was better than nothing I knew right now.

I walked into the lower section of the library and began to look on the shelves. I had no clue where I should have been looking in the slightest; I just had to hope something jumped out at me that was pretty obvious.

"If you're looking for information about the chaos, you certainly won't find it in this library. I am sorry to inform you." Dorian stepped out of the shadows and looked at me with his arms folded over his chest. I looked at him, still annoyed over what had happened yesterday.

"Why is this so important to you, Ro?" His words caught me off guard.

"I told you yesterday."

"You just said it was all personal, you just wanted to know, but what's the real reason, Ro? What will you get out of learning about it except heartache and having nightmares about what happened to you? Don't tell me you won't, because I know for nearly a month after everything was sorted here, you woke up crying and you called out to Xander, apologising in your sleep for what you did. Is this really worth dealing with a month of that all over again to find out nothing of importance?"

"Dorian..." I began and then lowered my head, breaking my gaze from him. I hated Dorian with a passion right now. I hated the way he knew so much about me simply because he was my best vampire friend, but he was also good friends with Xander, and I also knew he'd understand even if no one else would. "I need closure." I told him, finally looking up at him. "I need to understand what happened that night. I need to know why the vampires, the werewolves, and all those strange creatures came. Most of all, I need to know why Liam left me that night."

There seemed to have been an unspoken rule between the boys and I that we didn't speak about Liam after the night that I'd told Xander all about things. It was all well and good for me to not talk about it, but I still needed to move on from it so that I really could have my happy ever after, but in my mind, this was also part of the moving on too.

Dorian never answered me, so I turned back and pulled out a book and went to open it when he grabbed my wrist, looking at me with coldness in his eyes. "I am telling you, Rosa, as your vampire best friend, just drop it. You don't need to drag up the past to get hurt all over again."

My breath caught a little in my throat, as I'd never seen Dorian like this, least of all like this with me. What was he trying to protect me from? "Let go." I told him simply.

"I will when you tell me you'll drop it."

"And I told you I couldn't. You all keep saying about how I have to accept my actions all the time, I need to accept my actions in the past to move on." I told him as simply and bluntly as I could manage. He let go of my wrist and let out an unnecessary sigh.

"Fine, just don't come running to me when things backfire and you end up learning things about yourself you won't like." Dorian walked out of the library and slammed the door behind him.

What the hell had he meant by what he'd said? Learning things about myself I wouldn't like? I knew Dorian certainly knew something about all of this, and he was doing his damnedest to keep it a secret and to protect me from whatever it was that he knew, which made me even more curious as to what had happened and what I'd learn.

I knew it wasn't my best idea ever, but I decided to chase after Dorian. I needed to know what he knew about me and what he knew about what had happened; however, I also knew how stubborn he was and knew it was going to take a lot of persuasion to get him to talk and tell me what he knew.

I stood outside Dorian's room and knocked on his door. He opened the door and looked at me sternly.

"What, Rosa?" He asked.

"Dorian, I want to know." I told him simply.

"You can't see what Marie and I are trying to do, can you?" He asked me simply as he folded his arms across his chest, looking at me, still angry. "We are trying to protect you from this hell that is going to come your way, Rosa. That is why Marie didn't want to tell you about it; that is why I asked you to let it drop."

"But if you know something about me, then I have a right to know." I argued back with Dorian.

"You do have a right to know your right, but we are not telling you this out of love for you and to protect you. You can argue all you want with me, Rosa, but I'll stand in your way every single time because I love you too much to see you get destroyed over this."

"Dorian..." I began when I felt a hand on my lower back.

"Am I interrupting something?" Xander asked from behind me. I didn't know how much he'd heard from our argument, but I noticed the way that Dorian's face seemed to turn to stone. That told me everything I needed to know. It wasn't just out of love for me that Dorian wasn't telling me; it was also because Xander had asked Dorian not to tell me. Well, damn, this turned complicated pretty quickly. I turned and looked up at Xander, who also seemed to have a stone face looking at Dorian.

"No, Rosa had just come to apologise to me about yesterday." Dorian lied for me. "Like I said to you Rosa, it's fine. Just think before you act next time and just remember that Marie and I are on your side and we're simply trying to protect you."

I nodded and looked at Dorian.

"I should let you both go. I am assuming that Lord Xander wants to spend time with you. I'll pass on your apology to Marie."

"Thank you." I told him softly as I knew he was covering for me but I could feel the tension between Xander and Dorian. Just what the hell was going on between these two. I had no idea but whatever it was that was going on was making tempers fray and I had to figure it out what was going on how to defuse the situation before everyone blew up. I had no idea how to do it, but I'd find a way.

"If you're done, then shall we get going? I know you asked for two hours, but we'll miss it if we don't leave now."

"Ok." I told Xander quietly and then looked at Dorian. "Thank you."

"Don't thank me just yet, kiddo." Dorian muttered as he went back into his room, shutting the door behind him.

"Is everything ok?" I asked Xander.

"We're all just tired and frustrated." Xander answered me. "Now, shall we get going?" Xander and I walked down the stairs to his car, which was waiting outside the front of the house for us.

"What's going on, Xander?" I asked softly.

"It's complicated. Let's talk later and enjoy tonight together. Please Rosa." This hadn't been the first time I'd heard him say this, and it had began to set me on edge. Just what was going on with everyone at the minute?