Nine
830 Words
"What happened"
We came to school early than expected to complete our project.
Its funny how big this project is. I did not know that parents are allowed to came here for that project.
"You came." I said.
My dad look at me. "Of course, this is the first time you ask us to come" my mom said happily but im only looking at my dad.
He did not say a word but what he did next surprise me.
"Good luck" he hugs me.
My tears almost escape my eyes.
"Thank you" i said.
My mom also hug me. Yeahh, we are hugging each other now.
Its so warm. And comfortable.
I don't want to let go.
If we can only stay like this forever.
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One by one, every ones presenting their project. They are great, i don't care if they are better than ours. I only want to present.
"Lastly of course... Uhh.. wait.." i got confuse when the teacher started to panic.
I look at Zane and he's also clueless.
We headed to the teacher to ask what's wrong.
"Your flashdrive is missing. Im sure i put it here" she said panicking.
"What?" Zane said look worried.
The people started to whisper to each other.
I look in a group of girls. They are laughing. I think i know what's happening here.
I sigh.
I hold Zane hand and pull him.
We headed infront.
"Hey!" He whispered.
"Don't worry" i said.
I look at the girls fiercely.
"Good Afternoon I am Kate Marauez and this is Zane Hatubio." I introduce.
I
look at Zane and nod at him.
"We want to present how BTS help is in different ways."
He pause for a second and look at me.
"As you can see.. BTS is a popular k-pop boy group around the world. They also have many fans. Some people might think they are just ordinary group. That many people stan them because of their looks but no..." He remove his hand on me, ohh.. he will start.
"BTS save many people and im one of them.." he confidently say. He look at me and smiles.
"Im actually depress. I hated my self because i can't give and help my parents. Im from a poor family. I feel like giving up, but then i met them, i met BTS." He stop and look at his family.
"They made me realize so many things.. not enough? Kate also a proof how bts help her change" he look at me and nod.
I inhale and exhale before starting.
"At a young age.... I experience many things.... I don't have any friends back then.. i had one or two but they betrayed me. My dad, he's always busy. They don't have time for me that's why if my mom ask me how am i or what.. i will tell myself, to stop pretending that you care for me. Stop asking because you only think of yourself. You are all selfish. I have everything, yes! But i feel like i have nothing.." i pause for a second and look at Zane.
"At the age of 8 i started to talk less. I started to shut myself from people, from everything..at a young age, i visit therapist. At a young age i started to take different kind of medicine for my health. At the age of 10... I.. i.. i started to try to commit suicide, yes! At a young age.. i have wound on my wrist. I take sleeping pills every single day. I tried to jump at a building and bridge. But i am here.. still standing.. i can't feel emotions. I always ask myself, why?" I stop when i feel like crying.
"I feel like.. im a moving body with out soul. I feel so empty." I said.
"But you know what.. despite all of that.. i met BTS.. they taught me so many things. I started to laugh. I started to cry. I feel emotions. For the first time, i tried different kind of things. I feel like someone understand me. I.. i stop taking pills when i met them. I sleep peacefully every night ever since i met them. They help me. I realize so many things.." i said. A tear escape from my eyes.
"They help me more than what i am saying here right now. You know.. i wish to die but when i met them.. im really happy to being alive. Im happy.. i always ask, why can't they give my only wish.. i think understand now why.... Because i am meant to find BTS. Its not time for me to go.. so who ever experience.. and having difficult time, you won't regret knowing BTS."
"I learned different kind of things because of them.
So Bangtan,
Namjoon, Suga, J-hope, Jin, Jungkook, Jimin, Taehyung
THANK YOU VERY MUCH FOR SAVING ME!"
I cried so hard. Zane hugs me.
"And of course.. thank you Zane.." i whisper.
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