The queen Alpha

Chapter 8

The tick-tick sound of the clock was starting to go slower and slower as the walls of the infirmary release a chilly environment making me feel like they also were blaming me for Roque’s current condition.

It’s no secret though , I perfectly am aware that his suffering is my doing.

My feet are glued on to the ground but somehow I still feel them trembling from the inside for how impatient I am growing.

If not for the ups and downs rushing of the nurses, this place radiated a graveyard vibe.

As time continue to move on its own pace, I remained sitted on the couch , hoping that soon someone will come with some good news.

I see Doctor Priya and few nurses just coming in and out of the room not saying a word but the expression in their faces speaking a thousand words.

Ruminating on earlier events, how everything went surreal in a snap.

I can’t bear the raging storm brewing in my heart. I swear it feels like I’m grieving, like a part of me leaving and I can’t find it in me to forgive myself.

It’s agonizing and painful to know that I let anger, rage and hate cloud my judgment that I almost killed my mate.

It’s true when they say, we get to see things clearer in darkness. Now that I’m feeling lost in an endless abyss of regret, I get to remember how honest his words and eyes were when I was questioning him.

Even his heart beat was stable when I asked the questions but I couldn’t even trust him , simply because I didn’t want to believe in him.

What kind of a mate am I??, now I understand why everyone refers to me as the monster Alpha, it’s not metamorphic, no , it’s happens that am a real monster.

“Your highness”, A feminine voice breaks me from my thoughts and I look up to be met by doctor priya worried face.

Finally, I thought to myself.

“Yes, Priya. Is he awake ??, has he responded to the treatment??”, I question anxiously , swiftly getting up from my sitting position.

“He is stable now Alpha, but you have been here for the last six hours. I think you need rest and a shower.”, she states calmly tapping my shoulders lightly.

Have been here that long??, I lost track of time dwelling in my thoughts.

Hearing doctor priya’s words, somehow I felt lighter. It felt like something heavy was lifted off my chest. Relief wash over me and I gained a little calm.

“Okay priya, please let me know as soon as he wakes up and take good care of him.”, I state smiling lightly at her as she bows and I begin to walk away exhaustedly to my chambers.

The moment I open the double exit door of the infirmary, I’m embraced with darkness.

I don’t miss the horrendous looks of the guards as they bow their heads not saying a word.

Knowing my whole appearance today is dreadful, I decide on using the back door to head to my chambers. I need to avoid other pack members from looking at my current state of appearance.

In no time, I reach the corridors to my chambers, I simply nod at Theo, my chamber guards and twist the doorknob of my room.

As soon as I walk into the empty dark room, i turn on the lights then stride directly to the bathroom.

I start the shower before adjusting my required temperature then I undressed and threw my oversized bloody tshirt which Rick of s**t.

I stood on the shower as I let the warm water unknot my tired muscles from head till my toes .

Red drips hit the tiled white floor and lips begin to tremble , hands uncontrollably shaking as a feeling of shame hit me like reality.

I try closing my eyes but the image of him in pain and crying out loud is tattooed in my brain.

My stomach is twisting and my cheeks are burning as I release exasperated breaths and soft sighs.

I stretch my arms to the wall and my body slide down on its own to a sitting position as the shower water continues to pour. I soak my self as I watch the bloody water turn to clear.

I stay their hoping that just maybe as the water cleanses my body , maybe my soul will also be cleaned of all the horrific deeds I have done.

Subsequently, I managed to finish refreshening up.

Feeling burnt out , I dressed up casually, settling for sweats and a pull neck. I didn’t bother to dry my hair cause I was too lazy for that.

I decided to go distract myself with work. It’s quarter past midnight and everyone is settling in their chambers now , other than the night patrols who are on watch for the entire night.

Stepping into the office, I turn on the lights and the first thing I see is ‘THE BOX’.

Just looking at that box, bring back a lot of buried memories.

I can’t help but wonder how Roque is related to the Medina family.

And I am hoping and praying to the goddess that whatever am thinking right now is not the truth.

Concluding on sliding the box aside first, I get to my desk and begin to do some pack and kingdom stuff.

There’s just a lot of pending work waiting for my approval and this might be the perfect time to work on it.

After what felt like forever and a day, I hear the sound of doctor vera in the mindlink.

“Your majesty I need you at the infirmary immediately”, she states with a lot of worry then immediately cuts off the connection.

I don’t know how I ran to the infirmary within a minute but the next thing I know is am standing next to doctor Priya as the scent of antiseptics hit my nose trills.

“What happened, is he awake??”, I ask as my chest tighten up and my throat drying out forcing words to come out.

“He needs blood transfusion, immediately.the human blood we got from the town is reacting to his body negatively and..

“Take mine”, I interrupt priya before finishing her sentence as begin to clench my fist ready for the process.

“Are you sure, what if he..”,

“Please Priya we don’t have much time. We’re going to loose him and am not going to stand here doing nothing. Just perform the f*****g blood transfusion already”, I shout unintentionally as doctor priya simply nods but I don’t miss the confusion look she gave me.

“Please prepare the bed next..”, I hear Priya giving out orders to the nurses while they all scatter.

“Your highness, this way please”, a nurse directs me as she opens the door to the room where Roque is laying.

As soon as I see him, my heart sunk and all my blood rushed from head to toe.

Roque is shrieking and yelling in pain as the male nurses hold him in place before he hurts himself further.

“Hand me the sedatives”, doctor priya tells a nurse as she’s hand her syringe which she immediately injects on Roque’s arm as he slowly but surely calms down.

The beeping sound of the monitor goes back to normal as Roque’s pale, buttered face calms.

“ please lay down here Alpha”, doctor priya gestures on the bed next to Roque’s.

My eyes are still glued to Roque as the dryness in my throat continues to grow. I was feeling guilty for making him go through all of this trouble.

His arms are bandaged , his head and his legs. And the more I look at them, the more I want to punish myself for causing so much pain.

I feel a little sting on my arm as the blood begin to flow on a bag, I clench my fist for the blood to come out faster.

In no time , priya connects the filled blood bag onto the faint drip-drip on to Roque’s arms.

Doctor priya takes off her stethoscope and checks Roque’s heartbeat.

She stays like that for a while before she lets go.

“His vital signs are stable for now, let’s wait and see how the blood will respond with his body”, she calmly explains,

“What about his head injury??”, I question remembering he was complaining about the headache earlier.

“The hit was pretty intense and dangerous but I cleaned up the wound and made sure there is no infection. But as soon as he awakes , I have to do a scan to make sure he wasn’t affected internally”, she expresses keenly and all I could do is nod for I was feeling shameful.

“Okay priya, I appreciate it”, I state earnestly looking at her confused features.

“Your majesty, can I ask you a question”, she asks hesitantly as if not sure if to ask or no.

“Go ahead”, I say.

“Why do you care so much about this human??”,