Discovery Of Love

Battle Scars

when we feel alone in this world we tend to think no one will ever love us and we lose control of ourselves self worth and self love.

we break our own hearts loving the wrong person and putting them first before ourselves.

Fall of 2021, I tend to find myself thinking about life and what my purpose is I felt trapped in my own mind and I felt so betrayed thinking all this pain is real love. I'm running from my emotions I take the bus downtown on the southside and walk down the long sidewalk by the highway and I keep crying and crying, I feel so miserable within my own life and choices I have made for myself.

As I'm by the highway, carrying this babygirl of mine I feel happiness because this life I'm carrying is so beautiful and I get to take care of Belizcia one day when she is Born.

I go back home and months go by Still talking to my dead beat baby daddy , I lose control of how I feel about him and his words start to affect me and his negativity towards me and hatred made me have this Anger towards him that I never in my life thought I would have for him.

I used to be this kind of Girl full of love and I would think nothing in this world can be that mean can it? but it can and I was wrong! love can hurt in many ways but this wasn't love.

we fight and we fight over the phone and we argue over the most Littlest things you can think about but when it came to my daughter the argument wasn't little for me it was a big deal.

I was happy that I was going to have a family and be a mom to my daughter never would I have thought I do it without him.

Sebastian never wanted to be in Belizcia life and he chose a different path from ours.