Before I Sleep

Chapter 18 Farewell My Angel

Eric's P.O.V

Two days ago my Emily called me to her room and asked if I could have a nurse to come and help her get ready and move her to the living room. She wanted to have everyone who was there for her baby shower here. All she told me was she needed to tell us all something. It was a week after Stephen read her that damn letter. So I did as I was told the nurse was so kind. The way she cared for my angel. After she helped her settle on the sofa, she went back to her room and cleaned and fix everything the way she had asked her to. About an hour later everyone showed up. The whole vibe was as if we were mourning. She was barely able to raise her voice to talk so she wrote a letter for her uncle to read for her. Once everyone found a spot on the floor around her. He began...

"Thank you all for coming here. I'm sorry that I had you all come on a short noticed. But as you can see im not getting any better or stronger. I know they said 7months but to be honest I can't anymore. I am so tired in ( clearing his throat) being in pain. Just the endless things I have been dealing with I cant keep doing. I called you all here to ask you all to please let me go. Let me rest now and please(Stephen beging to choke back his sobs) please let me stop being a burden to you all. And promise me you will all remind my Reign about her mama and make sure to tell her that if I had to choose her life over mine. That I would do it again 1000 more times. I need my forever sleep, but before I do sleep know that I love each and everyone of you. And you all are my family. I love you all and Reign my sweet precious angel mommy love u so much. It was as if she knew she had our blessings that she closed her eyes and let out her final breath. And my baby, my only babygirl, my princess left us at that moment. She looked like she was just asleep. I had cradled her tiny 90lb body in my arms, as I cried so hard and cursed everything on taking my baby away from me. Everyone sobbed to mourn our Emily. Today is her funeral and as hard as it is, I have been trying to make peace that my baby isn't suffering anymore. She had made me promise to buy a new place, she didn't want her final months of life to ruin the beautiful memories we had. So I did. It was a cute townhouse. 4 bedrooms 2 bathrooms. Our princess of the house had her own room. She looks so much like my Emily. Shes almost a month and a half old. After we were ready to leave I had Emily's nurse to go in the limo to hold baby Reign. I drove my Emily's car. I know she wouldn't want it any other way. As we followed the hearst to the spot we will be laying Emily's body to rest. We actually couldn't bury her in a casket because of her having Aids. So we cremated her. We put her ashes in her casket. After the funeral I told Stephen and Kenneth to take Reign home I needed more time with my Emily. Can you believe Estella showed up to bury our daughter but couldn't show up for anything for Emily. Wow I felt so much rage but held it inside myself. As soon as I was all alone with my daughter I screamed and cried and begged God the universe anybody to please let me have one more day with her. But nothing. Noone listened to my pleas. I dont know how long I sat there on the grass crying until I couldn't any longer I got up and drove home. Reign needs me and I have to keep my promise to my Emily.