Before I Sleep

Chapter 8 Worst Part Of My Life

After finding out im expecting I have been eating healthier. And just been taking extra care of myself. I dont leave my dad's at all. I started to not feel good. Its been about 10 weeks since my last check up. I had another appointment but I missed it. I wanted a private doctor instead. So I had finally got an appointment. I was already 12 weeks into my pregnancy. I could see my little tiny bump. Nothing to noticeable but if you saw my tummy exposed then u can see it. But I was feeling awful like I had no energy. I felt as if my body was run over and It felt like I had a flu or something. Couldn't shake it, I went to the emergency. I needed to be seen. Once I was called back I told the doctor how I felt. And they began to take some blood work. Being that it was the same hospital I came to when I went through that horrible night. The doctor ran another test of HIV and checked if my little pea was ok. After waiting forever the doctor walks back in but this time with another doctor. Not feeling the like of this he begins to introduce the other doctor. After he starts with all the results. Once he says the one thing that I wish he didn't. He confirms it. Im positive for Aids. I sat there in shocked. Not being able to hear anything they were saying. The other doctor noticed and asked if I was ok. I couldn't respond I felt as if I couldn't speak. I started to feel as if I couldn't breathe. The doctors rushed to give my some oxygen and help me calm down. I sobbed and told them how can I prevent my little pea to not be infected with the virus. They both reassured me that they would do everything to help me to prevent on passing aids to my child. They started me on some meds. The doctor prescribed me the medications I would need to be on but at the same time it wouldn't harm my baby. But help prevent it. How was I going to tell my family. Doctor Rodriguez who was the specialist told me what to expect and gave me a number to a support group. Once I got home I called my parents, brother, and uncle over. I didn't know how to tell them. I had everything Dr. Rodriguez gave me. Once I had everyone there I started to explain what happened today. And showed them my results. My dad came up to me and hugged me tight. My mom didn't want to get near me. She said she had to go and pulled Charlie's hand before I could hug him. My brother and uncle were pissed off and how she reacted. They both hugged me and said they were here for me no matter what. I couldn't believe my mom walked out. My dad was more worried about my health and my little pea's, that he sat there thinking to himself. My uncle finally had a lead but didn't want to raise my hopes up. The next few days I got worse. My body hurts so bad. I kept having a high fever. Even taking my medications I still wasn't feeling better. I lived in my bath tub. My uncle dad and brother helped me as much as possible. But I didn't want them to catch anything so I didn't allow them to help me.