Before I Sleep

Chapter 3 Innocence Lost

It was starting to get late. I had texted my mom letting her know we were ok. I checked the time and it was about 11:30pm. It was pretty chilly out tonight. Teresa gave up on flirting with Jason and was grinding on some guy she had been dancing with for the past hour. Bobby got dragged away from some girl in a slutty dress if that's what you can call it. It looked more like a piece of fabric with a string holding it together if you asked me. I was actually more covered up. I had on my skinny black jeans and a black tank top with my zip up sweater. Of course my vans. I wasn't so fond on showing off my girls or my ass. I noticed it was me and Jason. He turn to me and asks if I want to get some coffee or something to drink. Man do I love some hot cup of coffee right now. I decide to go with him. ****TRIGGER WARNING***********

As we walk towards the trucks he grabs my hand and starts to pull me to him. I start pulling away and pushing him away. He grabs my wrist harder and the other hand around my waist and with the what he said in my ear made me color drain from my face. All I could think of was how to get out of this situation.

He pulls me into a random tent and tells me if I scream or try to get out of here, there would be major consequences. I ended up pulling my legs up to my chest and started whimpering. How the hell was this going to be the way I loose my virginity. I wanted it to be so special and with maybe someone I was with. He zipped up the tent and come up to me, he's basically walking on his knees. He's about 6'3 and on the lean cut side. He easily over powered my smaller 5'1 ft 120lb frame easily. Pulling my ankles he begins to struggle on getting my pants off. Doing everything I can I kick and try to aim on the areas that would hurt him more but he ended up catching my ankles. He pulled me closer to him where he had my legs wrapped around his waist. I was trying to cover up feeling so exposed in front of him. He chuckled and ended up taking away from me what I could never get back. I closed my eyes and kept wishing that this was just a nightmare and I would wake up. But no it was real. I dont know how long he kept on having his way with me. All I felt was gross. Finally what felt like forever he stopped. And threw my pants to me and said to get dress and get out. I did it as fast as I could. But my legs felt so sore and as soon as I stood, I could feel so much pain from between my legs. It hurts so much. I know I look horrible. My hair got all knotted up from him pulling at it. And my makeup was all running down my face. I need to get out of here. I walked out of the tent and was limping. I made myself walk as fast as I could out of the concert and I went to the hotel. Once I reached our room I sent a text to Bobby and Teresa saying I'm sorry but my dad had an accident and I had to leave. Not waiting for a response I gathered up my things and left. Getting into my car I drove as fast as I could. I think I even hit about 100mph easily. I couldn't hold back anymore. I pulled over two blocks before my house and cried and yelled and hit my steering wheel. I mean how could this happen? Why? I knew who is the only person I can call and trust.