The Architect of Life

Chapter 8

Oli

We arrived back I grab Junes bags and bring them in the house. Babygirl I had a great time and kiss her head. She's upset. Hey baby what's wrong? I don't want you to leave. I place her bags down and lead her to the couch I sit and put her on my lap. I lay her head on my shoulder. It will be ok I'll come back later if it's ok with your parents. She stays like that crying as I stroke her hair. How is this possible? What, I ask? I feel so much for you already. I don't know. It's kinda the same with me too. Maybe because you were younger we have this history but you were off limits completely. I saw you as child well because you were. Now I'm beginning to see you as something more. Maybe because you saw me as your friends friend or brothers friend. I too was off limits. I'm thinking and now that's changed, she says. She snuggles into me and I chuckle you're not letting me go home are you. Nope you stay I need a nap. I sit there obediently and let her rest. I know she needs to take a nap she's exhausted emotionally and mentally with eating and struggling with her mind not to throw up. She's having a hard time. She's fully asleep when her dad walks in. Hey Oli how's she doing? Well she is struggling with not throwing up after eating but she promised me she wouldn't do it again so she is trying to keep her promise. She told me she would go to Harmony for counseling. She's also really upset about me going home. Ah I see. Have you figured out anything? Truthfully Sir I'm already falling for her and I told her we would talk everyday. I am not going to be dating anyone or anything because I am focusing on her. I will come down so visit every 2 to 3 months. I will make it work. Even if there's ever a reason I have to come for an impromptu visit, I will. I have money. I have invested wisely and have my own business. I'm relatively thrifty and don't like to waist money. Well Oli that's good. Did you both have a good time? Yes we did. With everything I learned about her I know why you all think we'd be good together. We all could see it after past summer. We just wanted to make sure what we were we seeing was right. We paid attention to June and you and when you'd call to talk to Hudson or Zoe and they weren't home. You two would talk for hours. We found it quite amusing that you two never talked about your job, or her career, or school. Yet you still had plenty to talk about. You both know a lot about eachother. You've been talking for over a year. You have over hundred hours of talking racked up but never once did you get her cell number he laughs. How do you know how much talk time we have? Oh, my tax guy thought it was business calls. So, he added it up, he chuckles, and it was just over a hundred hours when he quit. He called and said what the hell do you have to talk so much about with a Architect guy. I then I figured it out. I know that maybe some of that was to talk to Hudson, but you usually call his cell. I knew you were actually calling to talk with June. After the first week went by because Hudson's broke phone was fixed. He had mentioned that he had spoken to you. So, all calls after that was to talk to her. You two didn't even realize how much you've been talking. You kept saying things to eachother like, I know we don't talk that much or know you don't know me that well at the picnic but you have. I didn't even realize but I do enjoy talking to her and I would call especially if I had a hard day. Just talking to her made me feel lighter. Is it weird that I didn't even notice it? No not at all. Sometimes our hearts hold secrets our minds aren't yet ready for. Like Hudson and Zoe being in love but not willing to admit it. It was extremely frustrating to watch from the sidelines. Tell me about it they laugh. Hey how are they really? Losing a child can't be easy and it's still so recent? I think they handled it better than most people would have. They didn't tell us till last month. It was right before his two month death anniversary. I know that hurt never leaves but it is possible to heal from it. We lost a child it was difficult. It was different then their experience, but what a lot of people fail to realize is that no matter how far a long a woman is, if she wanted the baby it's hard and grief filled all the same. People will say the stupidest things especially if it was early in the pregnancy like well at least they weren't born yet but we parents grieve none the less. So, that is both insensitive and stupid. I know people don't know what to say, but just being there with no words is ok. Grieving with us would have been just fine. So, that is something that I wish people will learn. Wow, I think I feel the same losing a child would be hard at any point. Yeah, it is. I'm sure it's hard for all of you. It is he was ours to love. Well even though he's not here you all love eachother well in his honor. I know it's hard for June. She's going through a lot and I don't want to add to that. So, I promise the first visit down I won't make her wait two months. I don't want her to be sad and I will miss her too much. Well I'm glad that you both are realizing what is there. Me too. You have a pretty amazing daughter. I do. Just remember to protect her and put her first. I will, I give you my word. That's good enough for me. He gets up pats my shoulder and walks out.