Undone

Losing Her Dad

Mia did not have a good relationship with her mom before Jeremiah but when Jeremiah was born, her relationship with her mom begin to rebuild but what really brought them close was both been there for the one person they both loved and adored her dad. When her dad got sick the time of his sickness till the point of his death, they relationship begin to grow more and more, they had each other and hard to keep each other from falling or breaking down, it was really hard for both of them.

Losing her dad two years later Mia lost her dad to an illness. Mia's was around her dad and while her mom took care of him. It was hard seeing the man who she looked up to all her life in that state.. It broke her heart been unable to do anything.

Mia's dad was her rock and source of strength to grow and become a better person, her dad was her support system. Every night would have dreams of losing him and every day was difficult cause his condition was not getting any better.

The death of her father tore in pieces and broke her Spirit to be a better person but it brought peace knowing he was in a place without pain . A place where he was free from sickness and pain he endured during the months he was sick.

She remembered the last time she saw him and spoke to him, on his hospital bed . He lay there smiling at her and asking her to be strong and take care of her mom and son and not to take Jeremiah from his grandma cause he would give her strength and be there for her . She remembered talking to him and believing he was better and would recover but that was the last time she saw him breathing and alive. She didn't know that the moment she would leave the hospital she would never see or talk to him again. She didn't know she was saying goodbye to him that say that time.

She reached home with Jeremiah and her grandma, from the time they left the hospital Jeremiah was uneasy, kept throwing tantrums and crying, he refused to eat and sleep. It was hours let when her mom called her to tell her that her dad passed away just after she left the hospital and they where already people reaching the house to show comfort and help move things around the house.

It's was hard for her to cry and believe that her beloved father had left the world, who would protect her and play with Jeremiah who grow up so attached to his grandfather. Her heart felt broken but she knew her dad was in a good place away from the pain and sickness and all he endured drying his sickness. Saying goodbye and accepting his that gone tore her in pieces. After the burial and everyone was gone she felt the emptiness in the house and the home they grow up in didn't feel like home any more everything around them was a constant reminder of her dad not been there anymore

Poetry to my Father

The sound of silence

Most people think it's the stabbing words from a sharp tongue that hurts the most, daggers slashing open your chest, causing you to bleed fast in an open wound, the scars those words had marked which will be more unforgettable.

They say it is the rising volume of violent sounds that will bleed your ears, but in truth, it is the sound or silence that is defeaning, it is the sound of silence that slays you, slowly craving your heart into a deep hole if you allow it to consume you.

It is the uncertainty of knowing and wondering if you ever hear the word or voice from people whom you have lost, if you will ever receive another word from them or ever come to hear the sound of there voice, laughter and cries ever again..

These nothing more painful then not hearing from you or your voice, I tend to think of you more often when am in silence, rebuilding our memories and the family ones, I miss you more every day, it's like every day a refined knowledge of your death and then coming to an understanding that I will never hear from you, or see you again, or get to call you to laugh or you breaking fight between me and my baby brother drama.its only been years and it still feel like just yesterday we where laughing and watching TV together with everyone home. The joy and laughter in the house are the best and most lively memories of you dad.

May You Continue To Rest In Rternal Piece