Chapter 20
August 11. It’s one week until my forty-fifth birthday and the guilt I have is overwhelming regarding the landscaper’s sensual and mouthy delight in the attic room. Yet, I can’t stop thinking about yesterday’s event with Block. My hormones rage, wanting nothing less than to f**k around with him again. In truth, I want to get the bulky and bald man out of his clothes and use his skin for my every s****l wish and desire.
What have I done to Dayton, because of my actions? Have I accidentally created a scene of betrayal between us? How long can I keep my behavior with Block from the boarder? What level of deception and infidelity did I carry out? Who have I become in the last few weeks? And, how do I remedy my horrible actions with both young men?
Shame finds me, pins me to an em
