The past and present

The Thoughts

May 24th 3:45 am

Yesterday was very creepy but exciting at the same time. It's nice to know a little family history. Having powers is so cool, but not when you don't know what you're doing or where you're going. After that whole past and present situation and finding out my mother can do the same thing kinda blew my mind. I didn't even know what to say. I don't even know how to describe what I was feeling. It was like when someone says something that doesn't make sense you just laugh nervously because you don't know how to respond. Yeah, that's how it felt for me yesterday. What did she expect me to say or do? like I was just frozen in time. I don't know how anybody would react if they got news like that. I'm just glad that it kept my mind off of my father. I was expecting him to show up but he didn't. Sometimes I feel like maybe I did something wrong to make him leave, but my mother always tells me it's not my fault and always tells me it's for the best. I didn't even receive a card this year like I normally do. He's probably just busy or maybe even forgot what day it was, but all that doesn't matter what matters now is that I get my thoughts straight and try to figure out how exactly to use my powers. I just hope that choosing to use these powers will make my family proud. First I have to get used to whatever this is and then maybe I can ask my mother how to use this gift properly. After all, we did inherit them. I wish my Nana was here to tell me to not be afraid and to just embrace the gift that was given to me and, my goodness, some of her chocolate chip cookies would be nice right now as well. I wonder how my Nana first found out that she had powers and what her parents thought at first. I know great Gran would've known but what about great pop-pop? Maybe history will repeat itself and I'll make the same mistakes they did. Will I be able to see the mistakes my mother and Nana made?