Chapter 69
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"Just do what you feel is right. No matter the decision you make I will be right beside you..." She rubbed my back soothingly..
"Thank you..." I pulled back and she wiped the tears from my cheeks with her thumbs..
"I will let you rest now and please be careful with Chloe...She is a snake and she bites when you least expect..."
"Okay I will be careful..."
Atleast after that talk with Sophie, I felt much better and I had come to a decision....
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I was at the balcony, rubbing my hands against my arms when I felt a shawl on top of me...
"Do you want to catch a cold???" Jaxon asked...
"Jaxon," I turned around to face him, "We need to talk..."
"You are scaring me.."He stammered, "Why do you look sad??? You can finally divorce Jordan and we can be together at last..."
Did he think it was that easy??? Two lives were at stake..Ariana's and Jordan's...It was upto us, no upto to make a wise decision..
Leaving Jordan for Jaxon was going to be a very wrong move...People are going to be sympathetic with him and that's bad for my career...Jaxon didn't fight hard for our relationship and that's all that was.. Jaxon and I dating was going to make his fans mad at him for leaving his two day old relationship for his brother's wife. .
"Jaxon, I choose Jordan...I can't run away with you..." I murmured...
He staggered back, running his hands all over his face...
"Jaxon," I tried to touch him but he pulled back..
"Ciara, but you don't love him??? Or is it because he is a billionaire??? Why choose him??? He threatened you again didn't he??? I am going to teach him a lesson.." He lashed out ready to turn around and go face Jordan...
"No, Jordan did nothing..."
"Why are you defending him????"
"Because you are with Ariana and us leaving them will be wrong for our careers..."
"It's all about your career..Did you sit down for a moment and think of how much I love you???" He cupped my face but I dropped his hands from my face..
"Let's run away...Let's leave all this behind and start afresh....My fans will understand, the fashion world wouldn't care..." He insisted, going down on his knees," Please don't choose him..."
"We can go back to the Maasai Mara reserve and rekindle our love..." He stated holding my legs tightly...
My hands were held back by imaginary chains, they couldn't even do anything.
No matter how hurt I felt, how much pain I was going through, how much I wanted to say yes to him...I needed to be selfless...For once I felt like letting go once more was the right thing to do..
"I love you Jaxon but the moment you introduced Ariana to the whole world, everything changed. Two Iives are at stack here. Jordan is your brother for crying outloud..." I stuttered.
"He stopped being my brother, the moment he stole you from me.." He sneered, getting up from his knees..
"He is my husband and I am choosing him..." I stammered but he didn't seem to care.
"What about the kisses, love making scenes between us???" He begun c*ressing my cheeks, moving closer and closer towards me," Have you forgotten all about that??" He whispered into my ear and I almost ripped my clothes off.. He still had that effect on me..
Ciara you can't lose yourself now ...
"Sorry, I can't..." I pushed him aside and ran out of there....
The more he called out to me, the more I ran...
I lied on the grass at the garden, looking at the stars as my cheeks continued to get wet from my endless crying...
Did I make the right choice???If so why does it hurt so much....
A/N
Are you pleased with Ciara's decision????
Jordan's POV
Someone catch my tears before I drown in them...
I sat under the running cold water from the shower and the funny thing is I loved it...
I loved the freezing feeling, it made me remember what it meant to have an icy soul...
I had gone to get some fresh air from the terrace when I saw Jaxon c*ressing Ciara...
Yes they loved each other but don't they mind how I feel...
My heart was cracking inside me..I needed a shoulder to lean on, someone to tell me the dark clouds above me shall pass but I had no one...
Suddenly I heard someone open the bathroom door, it was the last person I expected to see...
I thought she was there to take her toothbrush and leave but no, she came and sat beside me...
"What are you doing here??? I don't need your company..." I thundered...
"I chose you Jordan...I don't know why I did but I did..." She replied softly...
I felt my heart dancing shakushaku in my chest threatening to burst out...Jaxon was my brother but the fact that she chose me, made me feel special...
I was done always being the second best...I wanted to hug her, plaster kisses all over her but I chose to hold back.... I wasn't going to forgive her that easily...
I wanted to leave from there but I loved it there...What if I woke up and she was nowhere to be found???
Her eyes were casted down in a mournful gaze as she got all wet...She wasnt supposed to be there but I needed her there...
Was I being selfish to just ask for a few minutes from her??? I know she would get sick again but I needed her assurance...
"Why did you choose me???" I found myself asking her...
There was a moment of silence before she stuttered, "Honestly I don't know but I just couldn't leave..."
Those weren't the words I expected, I needed her to tell me she had begun falling for me and the fact that she couldn't live without me was killing her...
"You shouldn't......."
"I shouldn't be here because I betrayed you and you don't want to see me...." She butted in...
How did she read my mind??? That was what I wanted to tell her...When I thought that was it, she places her head on my shoulder, "Why am I still hurt??? Would you have given me the divorce??? Did I make the right choice???"
God knows I wanted to slap sense right inside her
. How would she ask me that???
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