22 KARISSA I had zero interest in going to book club. I’d been avoiding everyone for days. Finley called me every hour, but I ignored her calls. When she told me she was going to show up at the condo if I didn’t reply so she knew I was alive, I sent her a text that simply said I was fine. Lies, but it got her to leave me alone. Sort of. Finley was texting me updates on Xavier, letting me know the extent of his injuries, how he was feeling, when he was released from the hospital, everything. I hated it, but I also needed it. I was paralyzed with fear. Hearing McJenna say he was in the hospital brought me right back to my mom dying. And then Eddie ending up in the hospital less than a week ago. I couldn’t handle it. I couldn’t lose someone else. I was already in love with him, but we wer

