Our Chemistry

Acceptance

The past few days have been nothing but me fainting and sleeping against my will. To know an entire world exists right alongside yours, and you've been oblivious to it for no possible reason, has been the most tiresome experience. From having Maxwell burn me with lava to Cain shape-shifting into the biggest wolf I have ever seen. I am still in shock, I presume, but watching him stuffing his smug face with a pound of bacon and at least twelve pancakes makes me forget about how there is a wolf human sitting across from me.

"Will you ever be done?". "Do they not feed their dogs?". I mock him.

"I am not a dog, why don't you do yourself a favor and keep your damn nose where it belongs". He snaps.

"You're such a prideful bastard, do you know that? I have never seen someone act so ignorant and rude. "You come out of thin air and reveal all this new information to me and expect me not to even retaliate?". I scoff.

"Retaliate all you want princess, you're coming with me, and we will fix what you broke. You are not my mate, and I'd rather die than claim you".

"As if I am dying to be claimed like some piece of meat Cain, you're very wrong about that, and I am not to be treated that way at all". I stared him down and walked out of the breakfast bar. This is ridiculous. Why should I be doing this? I had to send Maddy home alone. I could be with her right now spending the rest of our well-deserved vacation. Now I'm here trying to not be someone's mate.

"Not his mate, pfft as if I would ever want to be bonded physically and mentally with someone who's such a douche". I mumble.

"You know I can hear you, right?". His voice speaks in my head and I whip my head towards the bar and watch him eating peacefully. I will never get used to this. Can I speak in his head too? Is that possible? What can he do to me, and what can I do to him? With my new set of questions, I made my way back inside the breakfast bar. I take a seat right in front of him and fold my hands as I look at him, waiting for him to finish his bite. Aware of himself being stared at, he quickly swallowed and looked at me.

"What?". He says.

"I have a few questions, starting with can I speak in your head? Yes or no? And do you hear all of my thoughts all the time? Can I hear all of your thoughts all the time?"

"Slow down princess, first yes, of course, you can communicate with me too, just as I can with you. I give two f***s more to you than for me, so I am able to do it easily. If you were to communicate, you need to have a deeper connection with me. And no, I can not hear all the thoughts, just those you let me. Like right now, your apparent hate for me was able to make its way into my head". He picks his fork up and continues eating again.

So I choose what he hears and what he doesn't. Hear this loser, hear this. You are so ignorant and stupid. I don't like you and I wish I could go back to my vacation. Have you heard of this loser? I looked at him intensely, trying to see his reaction to it.

"You're staring at me, Lara, and, frankly, it's making me conscious of myself". He speaks without looking at me.

"So you don't hear me". I will continue.

"No I don't, I just told you. You have to mean it for it to reach me". He speaks.

"What else can I do Cain". I ask him, hopeful that he will reveal something cool again.

"Lara, if you look at me like that, I'm afraid I'm naive and will think you like me, which we can not let happen as I haven't claimed you as my mate. I know you don't want anything to do with this life, so I understand it, but please make it easier for me too. "I may be a wolf, but I am human too". He puts his fork down and walks out the bar, making his way towards his rented house.

I sat there, stunned in silence. Clearly, I hold more power over him than he does me. The fact that I am his mate makes it obvious that, as wolf mates, they are everything to them. I've read that much online. I feel a little guilty channeling all my hate and blame towards him like that, especially now that I know he felt it ten folds more intensely. I mentally make notes of being nicer to him. I genuinely want him to be rid of me so he can continue on with himself, although I am not sure if I can live normally after this. Pretending wolves don't exist? That's just ridiculous, that would drive anyone crazy, but I notice how normal I am about this. It doesn't worry me that he is capable of hauling my ass out of this world or that there may be more wolves that will want to hurt me. The thoughts of Maxwell make me wince, that pain was horrible, and I never want to witness it again. I never asked Cain what happened to him or what he was trying to do to me. I've also just realized that the only reason he came looking for me that day was because I called for him. I jogged back to the house, walking up the steps, I heard his voice.

Fuck f**k f**k f**k no. I can not do this. Why the hell is he here? My legs won't move, I can hear him walk towards the door to open it and I want to get away. Why the hell won't you move your stupid legs!