The Rockstar That Saved Me

Chapter 5

*6 Months Later*

"I'm sorry Ms. Meyers I am still giving Mr. Meyers full custody with no contact or visitation. You are not allowed to be anywhere near the child again." I'm sure I looked like one of those cartoons where you could see fire in my eyes. "Your honor, my doctor cleared me over two months ago! Why am I still being punished?! Why is my child still being punished?" The judge glared at me. "You broke the arrangement and talked to the child every week."

"His father called me for him! Am I supposed to just hang up on my son?!" Zac glanced at me, holding back a smirk. "Ms. Thorn said you threatened her, stating that if she didn't let you talk to him, you would cause her physical harm again." My jaw dropped. "Again?! I was defending myself after she busted my lip! Zac was there and even tried to stop her! Zac told Roxas that I could talk to him once a week. Jax was even there to witness it!"

The judge looked at Zac. "I tried to stop Rogue from attacking Jessica, who did nothing wrong but walk into the room. I also never said that to my son." I glared at him. "You f*****g liar!" The judge stood up and slammed his hands down. "ENOUGH MS. MEYERS! YOU WILL NEVER SEE YOUR SON AGAIN! Case dismissed!"

I walked over to Zac and tried lunging at him but Jax pulled me back. "HE TOOK MY BABY! LET ME AT HIM JAX!" Zac and Jessica just stood there smirking. "Have a nice life Rogue, however short it may be."

*3 Months later*

I stopped going to therapy. My smoking and drinking have dramatically increased. It's like I'm an empty shell. I'm here in the flesh but dead inside. I have even stopped talking to Asher. Every time he came by Jax just told him I wasn't home. Eventually, he gave up.

"Ro?" Jax cautiously stepped into my room with Jamie behind him. They have been dating for almost a year now. Jamie has been an amazing friend. She and Jax are the only reason that I have lasted this long. Although I have a feeling even they won't be able to keep me around much longer.

"Hey, Ro. Jax bought us tickets to the rock festival for today! Let's get up and get ready to go!" I smiled at her and Jax. He knew I had been wanting to go for years. "Thanks, Jax." Jax and I winced at how hoarse my voice was. "Now leave so we can get dressed!" Jax smiled and left the room.

"I have no idea what to wear for something like this Rogue!" I laughed. "I forgot you grew up a country girl." She playfully glared at me and stuck her tongue out at me. I walked into my closet and picked out both of our outfits.

I was going to dress sexy and not give a s**t tonight. "Damn J looking sexy as f**k!" She blushed. "Speaking of f*****g, if you and Jax could not be so loud at night I would highly appreciate it." She started to blush again.

I laughed. "Girl, your face is as red as a tomato!" She punched my shoulder as she mumbled "Shut up bitch." I laughed as we walked out. "Well, someone seems in a better mood." I rolled my eyes at Jax. "Let's just get out of here!" We all loaded up into the car and headed to the venue.

It's a 2-hour trip so we were blasting music and singing it around. Once we got to the venue, we got out and got into line. Fortunately, we got here early and there were only a few people ahead of us. As I was standing in line, I received a text.

Zac: Kill yourself yet?

A tear slipped down the side of my face. I quickly wiped it away before Jax or Jamie could see. He does this everyday but today I decided to ignore the text. Nothing would ruin this day.

Zac: Maybe this will speed up the process...

My heart stopped. It was a family photo of Zac, Jessica, and Roxas. Roxas was kissing Jessica's face. They looked so happy. I can't do this anymore. I will enjoy today as my last day, but after today...

"Hey Ro, let's go in now." I smiled and walked in behind Jax and Jamie. We visited some of the merch tents while waiting for the bands to set up. After a couple of hours, we listened to the bands play. I snuck away to get a drink when I received another text with a video of Roxas calling the b***h Mama.

I don't know how long I wandered around drinking when Jax grabbed my arm and pulled me to the side. "Where the hell have you been?! Are you drunk?!"

"No, I'm not drunk." However, my argument wasn't convincing since I slurred slightly. I shoved my phone at him and continued to drink from my bottle while banging my head at some band called Out of the Darkness. "I'm gonna kill the mother fucker!" I took another swig. "Don't bother. He wins. I've lost the battle, and I'm not fighting it anymore."

The music stopped and I frowned. I took another drink. "Rogue, maybe you should give that to me." Jamie tried to take the bottle from me. I snatched it back, glaring at her. I tipped the bottle again to find nothing there. I glared at the bottle. "Dammit."

I went to the bar tent, bought another bottle and smiled. "No Rogue! Don't do this!" I took a swig from the bottle. "Why not? No one needs me. I'm a burden to everyone!" I took several gulps. "No, you're not Ro!" Jax pulled me towards where the band's tour buses were.

"I have nothing left Jax! My husband left me for some gold-digging slut! He took my son away from me and now has him calling Jessica Mama! I also pushed away an amazing guy. I can't live without my baby Jax. Let me drink in peace!" Jax started towards me. I started backing up, looking him dead in the eye while drinking. Since I wasn't paying attention, I backed into someone.

I felt arms wrap around me and someone tried to take the bottle away from me. "What the f**k are you doing?! Let me go! Give me the f*****g bottle back!" I turned around to see a man throw my bottle in the trash. I whimpered as I stared after my bottle. He wrapped his arm around me and held me tight. "Rogue. What happened to you?"

Once I realized it was Asher I stopped fighting. I laughed bitterly. "Well, my ex took my son away from me and since I "threatened" the gold-digging slut he is with, I am never allowed to see him or talk to him again. So f**k it all I'm going to drink and let it numb the pain. Why not be what they say I am? An unstable and waste of space."

Asher just held me tighter. "Zac has been sending her these." Jax gave him my phone. I tried to grab my phone, but I mean, let's face it. I'm 5'1, and he's like 6'4 plus I'm drunk, so it was useless. His facial expression completely changed to being pissed. "How long has this been going on?!"

"They gave him full custody 3 months ago. I guess he has been doing it since then. This is the first time we have gotten her to come out of her room since it happened." Asher looked at me and then grabbed my arm. He started examining it. Once I realized what he was doing, I tried to pull my arm away.

He grabbed Jamie's water bottle, poured it on my arm, and started rubbing. I winced and whimpered at the pain from the fresh scars. Once he had rubbed the makeup off, all of my scars, fresh and old, were visible. I looked up at him with tears in my eyes and ashamed. Jax got angry and Jamie started crying. "Why would you do that, Ro? What the hell were you thinking?!"

Jamie put her hand on Jax. "You're not helping Jax." She pulled him away to give me space and to have him calm down. "Is this why you stopped talking to me? I thought you had gotten him back and were just busy. Why didn't you tell me I could have helped you just like I had been." I looked up at Asher. "I didn't want to drag you down with me. To be honest, I didn't want help." He hugged me and opened his mouth to speak when there were a bunch of screams.

"ASHER!" "Asher, can I get your autograph?!" "Can I get a picture?!" The group of girls stopped and started glaring at me. Asher pushed me behind him, signed a couple of their things and took some pictures. "Sorry girls, I need to go now." He grabbed my hand and pulled me towards the tour buses. One of the girls tripped me. "w***e!"

Asher picked me up bridal style and glared at the girls. "Please tell me what you like about our music?" One of the other girls spoke up. "It gives us hope and strength to stand up for who we are and to stop bullying." Asher just stared at them. All the girls except for the one who tripped me looked down in shame and said how sorry they were.

The one that tripped me continued to glare at me. "You're pathetic. f*****g Asher for money I'm sure. Go kill yourself." Asher stepped forward but I stopped him. "Ash no." Asher waved over a bodyguard.

"Sir?" Asher nodded to the girl who tripped me. "Please escort this girl out. She caused physical and emotional harm to Rogue." The guard nodded and grabbed the girl. They walked towards the exit.

The other girls apologized and followed. Asher took me back to his bus. Wait. Bus?! Fans?! Music?! "Um...Asher?" He sat me on his couch. "Yeah?" "Are you in a band?!" He gave me a sheepish smile. "Yeah...um you know Out of the Darkness."

I just gave him a blank look. "You didn't think of mentioning that before?" "We're not that big ye-don't change the subject!" The door opened, and a guard walked in with Jax and Jamie. "They said that they are with you?" Asher nodded his head and the guard let them in and left.

"I'm sorry for reacting that way, Ro." I glanced at Jax. "It's fine Jax, you have every right to. I'm just a burden to all of you. That girl is right. I should just end it." Asher stood up. "STOP SAYING THAT s**t" I flinched and covered my head with my hands.

Asher slowly inched towards me as I backed away. "Rogue...I would never hurt you. You know that." I uncurled my body. "Sorry. It's a reflex." Asher had rage all over his face but tried to tone it down. "Why does he have custody instead of you? You were cleared and doing so good. I still don't understand how he isn't in jail."

"He has money and connections." Jax had anger in his voice but was trying not to scare me. Asher had a thinking look on his face. "I have a plan to get Roxas back and f**k up Zac's life"