BROKEN ANGEL

He lost his fatherly right

She walked in on us, him on top of me breathing hard and me just there, underneath him, feeling dead.When I saw her, I really wanted to scream, cry, but I couldn't, I just couldn't.Am actually a cry baby, a mosquito bite is enough to make me cry but today, right now, my ocean full of tears was dry.

I heard her say something to him, but I don't know why I couldn't hear, it's like I had built a wall around me in that I couldn't comprehend anything that happened around me.Thanks to whatever Gina said, he got off me, untied my hands,and my mouth.He then picked me up in princess style and took me to the bathroom and walked out.

When the cold water touched my skin, the inside me woke up, and it finally hit me, that me, Moira Michael, was not a virgin anymore, all thanks to Mr Michael himself. The tears finally found their way down my face,and I realized I felt pain down there,also on my thighs,on my wrists and jaws, my n*****s too and most especially my heart.I felt like if someone was cutting it into small tiny pieces and allowed me to feel the pain after every cut.

How could my own father do this to me,he took what I treasured the most from me, and that without permission.He is supposed to be my dad, my protector.I screamed, hard, and that sent Gina into the bathroom running.

"Chumchum"

She knelt down and hugged me without caring that she would wet her dress.Kissed my hair and held me tight has she rubbed my back.For five minutes she said nothing, just hugged me and cried with me and that's all I needed.Someone to be there for me and comfort me because if they asked anything I wouldn't have an answer.

"Gina"

" Yes my baby"

"Remember your mom used to tell us that it is always good to wait till marriage, what will I have to offer now, it's all gone"

"Hay don't say that baby, your innocence is still with you"

"But he took it from me Gina"

"He didn't, you didn't consent to it and that's what is important, he took it forcefully, and that means you are still a virgin Ira, and a brave girl, you fought him and that's why he had to tie you up,and am very proud of you for not giving up without a fight.You even called me Ira, and am really sorry baby I came late because for the first time there is traffic in our street, funny right, maybe if I came alittle earlier, he would have stopped, and this would have not happened,this is all my fault take it out on me,hit me,pull my hair, bite me, do everything you want to do, cry it out until you feel better inside, okay chumchum".

"Don't say that Gina,it's not your fault,it all me, for allowing him, and never seeing the signs when he groped me when he hugged me,or s******g me in the kitchen has he passed, or always smelling my neck, I assumed all this, because to me he was my dad, and I thought all this was just him being affectionate and playful towards me.But today, I understand that I should have read between the lines and understood that those were signs that he had more than a fatherly affection for me".

"Any other daddy's girl like you Ira would also be blind to all this signs too, so enough with the blame games, it's his fault for seeing a woman to lust after in his own daughter, we should report him to the police and.....ooh no...he put you in the bathtub to wash off the evidence,he has a smart ass hah".

"Would seeing him behind bars bring back what he has take from me, and how do I even break this to mom, how do I even tell her that her beloved husband r***d me, how do I even bring up the discussion, it will break her Gina, our mom will be devastated, promise me Gina, promise me, not a word to anyone, you won't even write it in your diary, not even in your nightmares, it will just be between you me and him, please chumchum promise me please".

"Okay, okay stop crying now, I promise you, unless you allow me, I won't tell this to a soul, not even my guardian angel,he is probably hearing this now, but I won't tell him too, I promise, but I'll pray for bad things to happen to uncle, talking about him, he gave us twenty minutes to get ready and meet him down stairs,so I want you to get out of this bathtub while I go to pick something for you to wear,and we will attend our graduation and try to act has natural and normal has we can and and after that,we will deduce a plan on how to kill him, that monster.... don't look at me like that,we won't kill him like murderers, we will kill him with kindness mhh, and about our moms, we will tell them one of this days when we've already killed him, Okay, good girl. Now wash off his sent off your body and be a strong girl has you've always been because you have a war ahead of you and you must win it okay,I'll have your back anytime, I love you my chumchum and am really sorry"

"I love you too chumchum".

30 Minutes Later

"Girls you are late, late for your graduation, you guys look great in those dresses actually,are you guys okay, you look dull, especially you Moira?"

Sabina Robert Michael, My mom,a chatter box, always smiling happy and lively, like I couldn't remember a time in my life when she was sad, not even when grandpa Rob died, she tried to smile and hid a pain very well. I wish I could be has strong has her.Should I call it a mother's supper power, that they always seem to notice when something is off with their kids, I was trying so hard to act like if nothing happened today,I even put on make up to hide the swollen eyes, but she still noticed that something was wrong with me.When I saw her when we walked into to the graduation ground, I had this urge to run to her, hug her and cry, but I couldn't, because well I can't tell her why I was crying and also because he was also there with us, and he was throwing daggers at me with his eyes Everytime I looked into his direction. I don't have the energy to call him my dad again, I don't even know what name to give him, but I am pretty sure I'll never call him dad ever again, he had lost all the rights of fatherhood he had on me.

"Yes mama, am fine, I was just dreading the idea of walking in to find the graduation over, like imagine missing your own graduation".

"Yes aunt Sabi, we are fine, it's just that from the first time,their is a traffic jam in in our street, can you imagine that,I think even have an headache due to the honking and beeping of cars, you should actually give me a hug,it will cool me down aunt."

"Of course, come here you two, I love you so much and am sorry for traffic ".

Yap, that's my best friend,I don't know what I'll do without her, she always has the right thing to say, because if I continued the conversation with my mom,I would have given us away.

An hour later,we were doctor Gina and Moira.I was trying my very best to act all happy, but a keen person could tell that something was definitely off with me, they could tell that my smile was faked and I was being glib.We were currently at a party organized by Aunt Kathy, Gina's mom, for us since she couldn't attend our graduation.It was nice, with our favorite foods, drinks, snacks and even music.Every one around me was happy and congratulating has, but I still had the urge to run to bathroom and cry for some few minutes , but I couldn't, because I was supposed to act normal, like I didn't feel like slapping him, all this was hard for me, how long was this act supposed to last.

"Chumchum, let's go to the balcony i need to tell you something".

"okay"

"Moira, are you sure you don't want to tell auntie Sabina what happened in the morning, because you are zoning out every now and then, and the people around you are noticing, especially my mom I can see how she is looking at you and I know for a fact that she knows something is wrong with you".

"Gina I can't tell mom, I don't have the courage to, I don't even have the proof that he..he..he forced himself on me".

"Ira, she is your mom, our wonderful mom saby, she will believe you, trust me baby"

"I know she will Gina, but I know my mom, she will blame her self,and I don't want that to happen, I want her to always smile, so even if am dieing from within, we are facing this with you and nobody else".

"okay take this glass".

"It's empty Gina, what am I supposed to do with it, get you a refill?"

"Nop,I want you to scream inside the glass, it won't make any noise, scream until you feel better, nobody would hear, just put your mouth inside".

And I did just that, I put my mouth inside the glass, closed my eyes and screamed out all the pain and the urge to cry that I had been suppressing all day.And I actually felt good after.

"Feel better now".

"Yeah thanks Gina, you are the best, can I hug you, I have been meaning to all day.

"Wow, that's new, you Moira, asking to hug me, instead of just jumping and squeezing the life out of me, anyway come here".

"Thank you for being there for me Regina,and for making sure am okay all day, thank you for being my bestie since fourteen, we are turning twenty one tomorrow".

"OMG Moira, I almost forgot it's our birthday tomorrow".

"Yes it's your birthday tomorrow girls and I have a offer for you".

We turned around to see our professor walking towards us with a wine glass and a smile on his face.He has been our mentor since we joined medical school till now that we are done.He has always been there for us since the beginning of it, he cared for us so much and has always been looking out for us.He was like our school dad.He took a liking to us since we joined medical school at a young age and we seemed to be coping just right,so he decided to be our guidance for the four years.To Gina and I, he was our support system in school.

"Which kinda offer?". we asked in unison.

"Back at home, I have my own private hospital, I already told you that,so I was thinking of taking you two with me,so that you can be interns there for afew months before you get jobs, and it's also a get away from whatever is disturbing you two because you don't seem okay to me since this morning, the beach will cool off your minds and you can finally meet my sons, so are you game".

I don't know why we didn't even discuss it among ourselves or asked our parents for permission we just agreed in unison, has soon has he finished talking.

"Game".

"Wooah, that was fast, I thought you guys didn't want to be away from home, especially you Gina,how did you agree so fast, does it have to do with whatever is bothering you, girls you know you can always tell me anything and I'll listen right".

"Yes Professor Jeff, we know that, Ira will tell you but not today, someday maybe, it's enough that you are here for us, thank you".

"You two are like the daughters I never had, and I love you, so yeah,I'll always be here for you okay, so we are flying tomorrow evening to Kilifi,okay, it's up to you to convince your parents, call me when they say yes,I'll see you tomorrow okay, and congratulations".

"Bye Prof, they won't say no,we will see you tomorrow".

"Mom, aunt Saby, Please let us go, Prof Jeff will be with us, we will even stay in his house and we will be working in his hospital, it's only for three months and I promise after that mom, we will be permanent doctors in your hospital, say something Moira".

"Yes aunt Kathy,Mom we will be fine we will take care of each other and besides we have grown up, you can't always keep us under your watch".

"Michael, are you okay with it, because it's fine by me?"

"Can't they be interns at Kathy's clinic and work at Jeff's later on?".

"You guys can take it has mine and Gina's birthday wish".

"Okay fine you can go'