GOING BACK TO THOSE EYES

-1 MORE MONTH-

The next morning, I woke up early as usual. I cooked breakfast for Ian, I prepare his suit for work and ready his belongings.

just this simple everyday things already makes me happy, I feel pathetic just being here in this huge house alone and unloved while other wives are there living their luxuries.

I'm an introvert, I don't like parties and I don't like crowded people. I like to be alone, read books or maybe party alone, sometimes I talk to myself.

"morning" I heard Ian's voice coming down the stairs "good—" everyday, he doesn't let me finish my sentence but that's fine, I'm fine.

"I won't be home tonight so don't cook dinner" he say while slicing his sunny side up egg in half "where are you going? " I struggled to say that but I mustered up a little " I'll be at my office to finish off work" he always says that, we both know his going to stay with his lover.

"then, I should pack some clothes" I stood up going to our room when he held my hand stopping me from going "pack some clothes? I said I'll be at my office" he says irritated. " we both know where you are going, I won't argue anymore so calm down " as I said that I don't know if I should caress his shoulder to calm him down so I just reached out my hand for his shoulder and held back like a coward.

"what makes you think I'll be staying at her house? " he ask facing his body at me " you never went home early, I only see you at Saturday and Sunday but it's okay you can go ahead and stay there of you want, I won't argue" I told him distancing myself away from him a little.

"what is wrong with you today? " he ask staring at my face figuring out what had changed.

what had changed? everything... I ask my father if he can send me a copy of the contract, he was suspicious but he send it anyway and upon reading it I have 1 more month with him and both of us can have a divorce.

I'm tired, this last month I want to give it my all to just wake up every morning and make him breakfast, prepare his clothes and belongings and be at peace alone in the house before leaving.

"did you read the contract? " I ask and he shakes his head "once you read it, you'll be happy" I forced myself to smile then I went to the drawer near the living rooms television and took out a file then I gave it to Ian "this is the contract, read it. I'll ready your clothes" has I was about to turn around, he wrap his arms around my waist and pulled me to him making me sit at his lap.

he opens the file and read it while I look away from him trying to get out of his grip "so you're say we have 1 more month" he place the paper at the table and turn me around to face him "and you'd think I'll be happy " I nod my head still looking away.

what more can I say, he will marry that lover of his soon...

then unexpectedly he pulls my head to his and claims my lips, my eyes widen while he swirl his tongue in my mouth. it was gentle, passionate and hot but as I said...

I'm done.

I tried pushing him away but he just presses our body together deepening the kiss then his lips made it's way down my neck "stop Ian, please"

"you want this didn't you?" he says in-between the kisses his doing to my neck. he takes my shirt off and unclipped my bra exposing my breast, he cups the right breast and starts nibbling on it "Ian stop" I begged trying to push him away... so I slapped him.

he looks at me surprised while I cried in front of him half naked, I'm still sitting on his lap and I can't move my body for what I just did "I'm sorry" I told him wiping my tears and holding his cheek to where I slapped him "I'm so sorry Ian" I kept saying that a million times and maybe Ian is pissed by now.

he grabs my hands and sigh "no I'm sorry, I was just angry. why bring up divorce now when I'm starting to like you"

did I hear that right? even If I heard that right, I want a divorce, I'm tired of being a wive who always says yes, nods her head and does everything, when will I experience what any CEO wives sees

"Ian—"

"you'd call me Honey or Hon instead of Ian" he interrupt, his eyes were like a lost puppy or a person that lost a precious object "for 1 month Ian, let's be happy please" a tear rolls down my cheek while he stares at me wanting to cry as well but just holding back. He nods his head and kisses my lips gently then he hugs me tightly.

it's just 1 month that I can finally feel Ian's love, I'm already broken so I'll be breaking myself at the end of this relationship he and I have.

******

I look at the clock and it's 8pm, he should be out at work and be in his lovers house by now. I went to the bathroom and took a quick bath and my skincare routine, I dried my hair using a hair blower and tied it loose.

as I went down the stairs I heard the door close and a voice I didn't expect to hear "I'm home! " Ian's voice, why is he here?.

I quickly went to the front door and sees that it's really him "how come you're here?" I ask and he look at me weirdly "can't I go to my house? " he says and I shake my head immediately "I mean, welcome home" I smiled placing my hand behind my back like a child " I'm hungry, is there dinner? " he ask taking his shoes off and loosening his tie "I didn't know you'd come home so I didn't cook any dinner"

"so you didn't eat dinner? " I look at him and nod my head slowly "I don't eat dinner anyways so why bother cook. Now that you are here, sit by the couch and I'll make you dinner" as I turn around to make my way to the kitchen, he wraps his arm around my waist and kiss the back of my head " where's my kiss everytime I'm home?" he ask teasingly, I blushed pushing him away but he won't let go, so I kissed his cheek "wrong place to kiss honey"

what's wrong with him? his not like this...

"we don't do that though" I told him "now we do" he kisses my lips and went straight to the couch and stares at me while I slowly make my way to the kitchen to cook him dinner.

when I have done cooking, I prepared the table and called for him. he didn't come so I went closer to him "I can't today, I promise I'll lend you my card to let you buy what you want so stop getting angry for no reason" he says through the phone, I guess that's his lover... when he hung up, he turn around and saw me, he was surprised standing up immediately and wanting to explain but I shake my head with a smile "it's okay, dinner's ready"

he sat on the dining chair and look at the food that is placed before him "this looks delicious" he says with a smile "I hope you enjoy, just place it at the sink when you are done, I'll do the dishes later" then I left him but he starts speaking.

"she and I were never a thing JJ please understand"

both of us look at each other and I smiled and continued going back to our room.

A few hours later, he came in our room and sat beside me "done eating? I'll go wash the dishes" I stood up but when stopped me "I already washed them so you won't leave"

"then let's sleep" I told him and went to my side wrapping the thick silky blanket around me. He wraps his arms around me and pulls me closer to him, I turn around and see those green eyes that I always fall for "I love you" he whispered and I didn't say anything "you'd say that every night" he says with a smile " yeah, I kind of gave up these days"

"do you have to?"

"of course, 4 years of loving someone who doesn't love you, who doesn't give up" he felt hurt but he doesn't unwrap his arms around me, instead he pulls me closer until our noses touch "then can we start all over again? if not I guess it's my turn to make you love me again" he stares at my lips and in my eyes, he looks serious, even I want that as well but what if its all a lie and that he is just trying to comfort me and that he is actually happy that I'll be gone in 1 month.

"1 months almost over Ian" I place my hand on his cheek and caress it with my thumb "I hope you will be happy without me"

"what If I'm not going to be happy? "

"I'm sure you will Ian, I love you"

his eyes were full of hurt, I see tears in his eyes while he stares at me " I love you too JJ" he kisses my lips and we slept peacefully hugging each other.