Sunset Kisses

PART FOUR

10 new messages.

two from my mom, one from my lolo and Won and Hoon and the rest is from Sunoo. My mommy said that her and dad will visit me here but I replied that there was no need, baka maka-istorbo pa ako. Lolo asks about how I am here and all i say is good. Won as usual messaging me about what I did to his car and Hoon? He keeps on pestering me now. Yah he is heeseung friend oh f**k! I didn't know?! and Sunoo? Gosh! This b***h is already on his way here because he also wants to smell the air of the province daw. Hanap din daw sya ng tall, dark and handsome here.

lol as if he will find one? I mean, I feel like Heeseung is the only guy here who is not straight and the rest? All of them are straight! Ramdam ko.

But to be honest, Super daming pogi here!! Lalo na yung laging kabiruan ni Heeseung sa labas ng bahay nila. As far as i remember his name is Jay.

Gwapo sobra jusko!

Binaba ko na ang cellphone ko at lumabas ng teresa para tignan si Heeseung na naglalaro sa may court kasama yung mga tropa nya daw here. Tabi lang naman kasi ng bahay nila yung court and dyan din gaganapin yung sayawan.

I remember nung bata ako ayaw ako payagan nila mommy na sumama doon sa sayawan kasi nga daw baka magitgit ako pero si lolo lagi ako sinasama at sya pa magbabayad ng entrance ko hahaha doon ko din nakilala si hee.

He is so cheerful talaga and lahat sinasayaw nya that night kahit mas older sa kanya. May times naman na babae mismo nag aaya sa kanya na hindi naman nya tinatanggihan.

We didn't know each other but he literally drag me in the middle and hype me to dance with him and it's so funny kasi i remember na bungi sya non haha sa gitna pa talaga kaya panay lang tawa ko habang sumasayaw kami kasi nakikita ko yung ngipin nya kada ngiti at tawa nya.

That little heeseung is so adorable, well until now. He is still so adorable.

Napatingin sya sa pwesto ko ng akmang mag shoot na sya ng bola at ang sira biglang ngumiti at kumindat na ikinangiti ko na lang din.

What the f**k is wrong with me? Para akong teenager na kinikilig here.

"Jake!!" Napatingin din ako kay Jay ng tawagin nya ang pangalan ko "Halina! Dito ka umupo at panoodin mo kami"

"I'm okay na here" Sagot ko at ngumiti

"Sali ka sa amin brad!" Sigaw pa ulit ng isa nilang kalaro

"Uhh i don't play basketball eh" Sagot ko ulit

"Anong ball ba alam mong laruin?" Biglang sigaw nya na ikinatawa ng iba nilang kalaro.

My smile immediately drop because of the questions. The question… It's double meaning right? Or ako lang nag iisipin non.

Napatingin ako sa reaksyon ni Hee at nakita ko na sumeryoso ang itsura nya at hinarap yung kalaro nya

"May iba akong ball dito baka gusto mo larui—"

My eyes get bigger when I see the guy collapse on the floor. Sapo sapo ang ulo nya.

Heeseung f*****g throw the ball on his head!! Agad akong lumapit sakanila dahil mukhang susunod pa si Heeseung doon sa lalaki.

"Pre ang bastos naman ng bunganga mo" Saad ni Jay at sya yung lumapit doon sa lalaking nasa sahig, Heeseung is just standing and glare at the guy.

"Nagbibiro lang naman ako bra–"

"Nagbibiro lang din naman ako" Saad ni Heeseung "Parang ang sarap nga ulitin eh kasi nakaktuwa na makita kang lupasay dyan"

"Heeseung" I tried to call him down by caressing his arm

"Bakit ba ganyan reaksyon mo? Parang gago naman brad! Kailangan manakit? Anomo bayan? Siguro ball mo nilalaro nya–"

Napasigaw ako ng biglang kumawala sa akin si Heeseung at walang alinlangan na hinawakan sa kwelyo ang lalaki at sinapak.

I don't know what to do and just watch him. All their friends tried to stop them from fighting.

"GAGO KABA TALAGA HA?!" Sigaw pa ni heeseung

"MAS GAGO KA! BAKLA KA ATA TALAGA KAYA MASYADO KANG APEKTADO! TANGINA MO! BAKLA!"

Natuptop ko lang ang labi ko at hindi na alam ang gagawin. Sinusubukan pa ni Heeseung na kumawala kay Jay pero masyadong mariin na ang hawak sa kanya nito.

"Brad ano ba?! Respeto naman oh" Saad ni Jay "Wag ka namang gago"

"Wala naman akong ginawa jay!"

"UMUWI KA NA NGA SA INYO!" Sigaw ulit nito "Baka sila papay pa makakita sa gulo na to kaya sige na uwi na"

Walang kahit na anong sinasabi si heeseung at pilit padin na inalis ang kamay ni Jay sa kanya "Brad Tama na!"

"Kay Jake ako pupunta… bitaw"

Nakagat ko ang pangibaba kong labi at pinanood lang ang mga kalaro nya na isa-isang umalis ng court. Before the guy who insulted us finally left the court, A ball suddenly hit his head again.

It's Heeseung who throws the ball again! oh f**k!!

"Heeseung tangina naman!" Biglang mura ni Jay at humarang sa harap ni heeseung ng bumalik yung lalaki at galit na galit na ang itsura "Pre apo ni papay toh! Ayusin mo kung ayaw mo mawalan kayo ng lupa dito."

"Isa lang jay!"

"Y-Yung isang inisulto mo.." Saad ulit ni Jay at tinuro din ako "Apo ni don lucio naman yan! Tangina pre bukas na bukas wala na kayo ng pamilya mo dito dahil sa kabastusan ng bunganga mo at pagiging gago mo"

"Binabantaan mo ba ako?"

"OO PRE!! WAG KANG TANGA KUNG GUSTO MO MAY TIRHAN PA KAYO BUKAS!"

Sinamaan nalang ng tingin nung guy si heeseung at nag middle finger pa bago tuluyang tumalikod at umalis ng court. Nakahinga ako ng maluwag dahil doon.

Heeseung came closer to me and held my arms and cheeks and made me look at him.

"Okay ka lang?"

"I'm the one who needs to ask you that! Are you okay? Nasuntok kaba?" Nagaalalang tanong ko at tinignan ang bawat parte ng katawan nya at nakahinga ng makitang walang kahit na anong galos "Oh gosh!! Wag kang makipag away please!"

"Binastos ka nya, Jake" Sagot niya dahilan para i-angat ko ang tingin sa kanya "Kulang pa yon dapat pinadugo ko ang bibig ng isang yon"

"Nah it's okay! I'm used to it already." Mahina ang tinig na saad ko at napabuga ng hangin "Sa manila palang sanay na sanay na ako makarinig ng ganon"

"Pero hindi pa rin tama yon" Singit ni Jay "Wag kang masanay na ginaganon ka lang"

I just shrugged and smiled "It doesn't hurt me at all anyway. I don't care what they will say. So what if I'm gay? Gosh! There's nothing wrong with being gay."

Jay smile and give me a two thumbs up that makes me smile more "Kaproud ka hehe"

Napatingin ako ulit kay Heeseung at seryoso parin itsura nya "Hey"

"Pagbalik sa manila gusto ko ako pa rin kasama mo."

Natawa ako at tumango nalang "Okay po"

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"Jake baka madapa ka ha!!" Rinig kong sigaw ni Heeseung. I just smile and run again patungo sa dagat.

Wearing only my short shorts and white sando top, I didn't hesitate to wet myself in the sea.

It's so refreshing.

Heeseung put all our things on the small cottage. This is one of my lolo's property here pero sila papay na ang nagbabantay. Mas lumakad pa ako hanggang sa gitna ng dagat at dinamdam ang sikat ng araw sa balat ko.

Wow himala ha? Hindi sya ganon kasakit sa balat di katulad nitong mga nakaraan araw. I was busy looking around when I suddenly felt an arm around my waist and a chin on my shoulder.

I lean my head on his head too and held his arm that wrap around my waist.

"Jaeyun" Bulong nya at dinampian ng halik ang pisngi ko "Masyado pang maaga para itanong to pero kung liligawan ba kita papayag ka?"

My heart started beating so fast because of his questions. f**k! I remember him asking me this question too when we were having a thing in manila but he also ended up saying that it was a joke because why would he court me? I'm just his friend and we're just exploring things.

"Right masyado pang maaga so ask me nalang kapag gumabi na" Sagot ko, Trying to make a joke.

He laughed "Sige tanong ulit kita mamaya" Sagot pa niya at hinaplos ang tyan ko.

Natuptop ko nalang ang labi ko at tumingin sa malayo. I don't know but I'm already contented with this. I have this feeling na it won't work again and once we are back in manila? He will ignore me again and just dump me like a f*****g trash.

All of them are just like that. It's so easy for them to just throw me after they use me. Well nakasanayan ko na din naman at it's not a big deal with me anymore.

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Heeseung was about to kiss me again when suddenly someone irritating voice call my name and run like a f*****g s**t on our way.

It's Sunoo everyone.

This b***h.

Ang ganda pa ng pagkakangiti nya habang tumatakbo palapit sa amin. Lumayo si Heeseung muna at tinignan din si Sunoo. We are currently in the cottage and yah we are making out. So what?

"aaaaaa my jaeyunieeee!! i miss you!! b***h aaa!" I blew a breath and look at heeseung with apologetic face

He just smile and give me a thumbs up.

Nang tuluyang makalapit sakanya ay agad nyang akong niyakap at halos mapahiga ulit ako but i felt heeseung hands at my back so nakapag balance pa ako.

"I MISS YOU SO MUCH MY JAEYUNIEEEEE!!! AAAA b***h"

"GOSH! i miss you too, okay?! but please stop shouting" I said and hug him back "So who told you that i was here?"

Bigla syang ngumiti at parang tanga na iniipit ang buhok sa likod ng tenga at binangga ang balikat ko.

"Ang pogi beh!" Mahinang bulong nya at doon ko napansin si Jay na dala dala pa ang mga gamit ni sun na naglalakad patungo din sa amin.

"Malandi ka talaga!" Mahinang bulong ko at hinampas sya sa braso, Humagikgik lang sya at inirap pa ang mata. Napatingin ako kay heeseung at tyaka muling bumaling kay Sunoo. "Hey!"

"Yes?"

"This is Heeseung..uhm my ano uhm childhood friend?" Alangan na saad ko. Heeseung still smiles and offers his hands to Sunoo.

"Heeseung"

"Oh…is he the guy you told me?" Bulong ni Sunoo kaya tumango ako. He smiles and accepts Hee's hand "Hi! I'm Sunoo! Jaeyunie bestie"

"Nagagalak ako makilala ka" Saad nito and swear Sunoo flirt face is now showing! Uhh i hate him!

"It's so nice to meet you too! So you know if your relationship with my bestie won't work then I'm here hmm?" Nakita ko pa ng marahan niyang pasilin ang kamay ni Heeseung kaya hinablot ko buhok niya "Urg! Ano ba?"

Heeseung just laugh and wrapped his arm around my waist. Tinignan ni Sunoo yon at ngumisi sa akin.

"Pokpok" Mahinang bulong nya at tumingin na kay Jay.

Yung pagkahumaling talaga ni Sunoo sa mga tall is sobra. Girl he is obsessed with that kind of guy.

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As the night got deeper, Heeseung and I decided to leave Jay and Sunoo alone in the small house here sa may island and back to the small cottage, to you know? we can't do it doon sa house kasi magkakasama kaming apat sa isang room.

We just kiss, mixing our saliva together, suck each other's tongue. It really feels good and I want him more. Now? I'm on his lap and humping my ass on his clothed d**k while he is kissing my neck.

The way he licks and sucks my neck is so heaven… This summer vacation of mine here is now so good. I wasn't expecting that me and heeseung ended up being each other's parausan again.

Maaliwalas ang simoy ng hangin pero parehas kaming init na init at pinagpapawisan dahil sa sariling kagagawan.

Heeseung didn't hesitate and laid me flat on the table in the middle and put my shorts down. Saglit syang lumingon sa pwesto ng bahay bago tuluyang pinaghiwalay ang hita ko at nilabas ang titi nya.

Fuck! I am drooling again and want to suck his d**k instead. Impit akong napatili ng bigla nyang hatakin ang pareho kong binti.

"Jake shh!" Mahinang saad nya at ngumiti, Yumuko sya at hinalikan ako "Mabilis lang to okay?"

"I don't care if they hear us"

"Wala rin naman akong pake kung marinig nila tayo. Ayoko lang na makita ka nila na walang suot" Saad nito at naramdaman ko ng unti-unting pumapasok ang ulo ng titi nya sa butas ko.

I bit my lower lip. Gosh! Ulo palang pero nakakabaliw na talaga. His hold to my hips tighten everytime he tries to push himself more. Our position is kinda uncomfortable to be honest, Kalahati lang ng katawan ko ang nakahinga sa table tas yung binti ko ay nakapulupot lang sa bewang nya.

I just want to bend down but heeseung said he wants to see my face while he is f*****g me. Ugh! Gosh! This asshole! Nang tuluyan na nyang mapasok ng buo ang titi nya sa butas ko ay nakita ko kung paano nga pag masdan ang mukha ko. May libog oo pero i see pure adoration in his eyes.

Gosh! Just tell me you like me and I'm willing to give it my all, Heeseung. I'm just really waiting for that word, babe.

Ayoko na puro lang sya paramdam. Na puro pahapyaw pero hindi naman nya totally na sinasabi.

I know actions are better than words but for me? I want words.

I want him to tell me that he likes me and that he needs me.

"Jake…"

Yes baby keep on talking…

Para akong pinagsakluban ng langit ng pinaglapat lang niya ang labi at ipikit ang mata at agad na umulos.

I hate this feeling but I'm starting to be disappointed in him again. Ang hilig nya sa ganon. Sisimulan nya pero di nya tatapusin.

Despite the pleasure that he gives, I'm just there and moaning. Yah i feel good but my heart is so heavy.

They always just use me and dump me when they're done and don't need me anymore.

—-

Now I was alone here and just watching the calm sea. It's already 4 am in the morning when I decided to get up, go for a walk and ended up sitting here and just watching the sea.

I feel unwanted again.

I sigh and just feel the breeze not until someone sits beside me and hugs me sideways. It's my bestie. Sunoo.

Sinandal ko ang ulo ko sa balikat nya at bahagyang ngumuso. So glad that he is here. He is the only person who understands my silent. He knew when I have something in my mind again.

"Why did you wake up early?" I asked.

"I saw you getting up so i followed you" Sagot nya "What's wrong? it's just two weeks that you're here but it seems you already had a lot on your mind"

"Bae you will get mad at me ba if i tell you that I'm being stupid ass here again?" Tanong ko at pinipigilan ang sarili na maiyak

"Nah, why would I? Go on keep on talking. I'm listening"

I sigh and give all my weight to him "I feel unwanted again, bae. I hate it when i feel like he already likes me but my mind keeps on telling me that it was just nothing and I'm just giving meaning to it. I really hate action without words and you know that right? Heeseung just keeps on taking action but doesn't give me the right word."

"Do you like him again?"

"I guess yes." Mahina ang tinig na saad ko at tuluyang naiyak "I already knew it that my feelings for him will be back once i saw him, once i feel his warmth again that's why i kept telling to my parents and lolo that i don't want to go back here but yah they didn't listen on me and now I'm the one who is suffering."

I keep on sobbing and i felt when sunoo's hug tighten.

I admit it now.

After all those years, I still like him.

-- To be continued...