Dream of perfect love

Chapter 18

'There is no way I will celebrate my birthday without my mother'

'It’s not good for her to come back in our house, she is very fragile, you know that'

'As if you care'

'I will always care about your mother Anthony'

'I am not going down this road again as I know very well you are not going to give me the answers I need'

'You never wanted to have a party, you were always arguing with us every time we were arranging it, what happened now?'

'You don't want me to have a party for your wifey not to feel neglected?'

'You always distort what am saying, this is not what I am saying'

'Everything will be done as it was done every year. My mother will organize it as she does every year. I hope it is clear'

'Where are you going we didn't finish talking'

'I did' he said while he was closing the door behind him.

The next days passed by quietly until Thursday morning, Dianne rushed in the house supervising every room to decide the theme of the party and the decoration, she was along with a team of five more people and of course Alice.

Paola stayed in her room, she didn't go out at all until the dinner time, it was Friday night when Carmen the new girl informed her that the dinner was ready, her emotions showed in her face immediately when she saw Dianne sitting on the table, she turned her back to leave when her voice stopped her.

'Not even a hello' said Dianne ironically, made sense that Anthony was so ironic as well, just like his mother and they both had those blue eyes that could pass through you.

'Hello and excuse me'

'Where are you going?' Alice said

'It is a family dinner' Paola mumbled

'And you are not part of this family, correct' said Anthony.

She didn't know what to say and she added, 'David is not here'

'You should know by now that David is always late for the dinner my dear' Dianne said faking a laugh.

'Miss Lorena, should I serve you?' Carmen asked but Dianne replied to her 'Please do'

Paola sat reluctantly on her chair and she was looking at her plate for two minutes which felt like an eternity.

'So, you are doing... nails' Dianne said

'You can't tell , her nails are looking horrible, no offense Lorena but black french with red tip? not cool'

'She comes from a village, up in the villages they don't know how to match the colors'

'Anthony, mind your manners, you are not from a village' said Dianne mockingly

Paola was feeling blacked out, she wanted to stand up and go as she knew very well that she should hush and not talk, it was clearly stated in the documents they gave her with the profile of 'Lorena Arias' a quiet, shy and humble person. At the same time the phone of Alice started ringing the song she wrote for Matthew 'What I would do for you'

'What I would do for you? you ask me but is true

my life without you is a place with no view

even if we never meet again, I ll’ keep that night

in the darkness of my head.

Where are you now to feel my heart beating for you

Where are you now, to the worlds other end

away from our dreams and where we met

What I would do for you ask the stars

the flowers, the birds, even planet mars

What I would do for you, hear my song

is the only way I can get across.

Where are you now to hear my heart beating for you

Where are you now, to the worlds other end

away from our dreams and where we met

All her memories woke up, she finished that song in twenty minutes and it was one of her biggest hits, she remembered how the eyes of Matthew looked when she told him that she wrote that song for him. She remembered his sweet hugs and kisses and how much she was hurting for his death, she was pinching her leg very hard to distract herself, she didn't want to cry.

'It's Paola's song right?'

'Yes' said Alice with a sad expression in her face

'The one that died in that accident?' Anthony asked

'Rumors say that she suicided after her boyfriend's murder' Alice added

'He was involved in drugs and other illegal affairs, it was a matter of time for him to get killed' Dianne said.

'He was not involved with drugs' Paola yelled and all three of them looked at her, she was breathing heavily, she was all red and looked like she was ready for a fight. At that moment David entered the dining room but nobody paid attention to him.

‘Did you know him?' Alice said

'No, no I didn’t

'Then why are you defending him with so much passion?' Dianne said

'It's a shame to talk this way about a person who is not alive'

'What's going on?' David asked

'Your...wife is defending a dead drug lord, the boyfriend of that famous singer who died few months ago'

He looked into Paola's eyes, that was the wrong subject for them to open, if they only knew.

'Let's change the subject' David said, 'Dianne is nice to have you here' he told her, she didn't reply, she looked at Paola and said again.

'I believe that the scumbag got what he deserved'

Paola squeezed so hard the glass of wine that broke in her hands, it was one of the hardest moments in her life, hear people talking s**t about Matthew without knowing what an amazing person he was, without knowing that he had absolutely nothing to do with the dirty business of his father.

'Someone's not ok...' Alice said

'You act like you knew the guy' Anthony said to her

'You look like the kind of person that would be around lowlife bandits' Dianne said again to Paola.

David was holding a napkin that put in her hand for the blood, she pushed her chair back but she stayed still squeezing the napkin while the blood was coming out.

'I don't know who this guy was and I've never seen that woman, only knowing her songs like the rest of you, however even though I am from a village as you said, even if I don't know how to match colors and never went to a university, I have the common sense not to talk s**t about people I don't know, especially for people that are no longer in life and cannot defend themselves. Now excuse me' she said and left the table.

'Your wife is very sensitive David' Dianne said

'What? you are not going after her Dad?' Anthony said

'What are you saying Anthony?' Alice said when David stood and left from the table without saying a word to them.

'Look what you’ve done! why you told him to go after her'

'He should be the one to think about that, instead he was here looking at mom'

'He was looking at me?' Dianne asked Anthony, he saw the flame in her eyes, he saw the hope that David might regret for marrying Lorena. He didn't want his mother to start having fake hopes, he regretted that he thought out loud but what he could see is that his father didn't really care about Lorena, at least not the way a husband would care about his wife.

'No mom, what I meant to say is that he was looking sad because he knows how much he hurt you'

'I thought that he was...' Alice stopped her and asked her something else about the birthday, Anthony felt relieved for the change of the subject.

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'You had to hold it, you were on the verge to uncover everything' David said strictly to Paola

'I don't accept anyone talking s**t for the man I love! nobody has the right to say anything about Matthew, nobody knows how loving person he is...he was, the f*****g b***h has no right to speak about him, you hear me?'

'Calm down please someone might hear us'

'Better! for this comedy to stop, once and for all'

'Please calm down, you know that both of us have to hold on this, you know that'

'I don't know why you are doing this'

'My life depends on your life, please keep it up, keep it the way it should, I can't be away from my wife but I am doing my best to play my role'

'You are still surrounded by your family, I am here all alone, they don't even know I am alive, my mother is mourning in an empty tomb and I can't even mourn to the tomb of the man I love'

'This will finish soon'

'This is not going to finish soon let's don't make fun of each other'

'You are very negative, I know why you are like this, you cannot stand staying locked in this house anymore, Alice, Dianne, Anthony, is just too much'

'I so, so wish I could answer back to them, put them in their place'

'I would tell you to come to the Company but is too dangerous'

'Staying here is more dangerous than coming to the Company with you'

'What if someone will recognize you?'

'Not even my own family would recognize me the way I look now! I am dressed average, with a style and clothes I would never choose, short brown hair, brown eyes, flat shoes.. I would never wear flat shoes, I would never go around without make up'

'Are you sure that nobody would recognize you?'

'Do you recognize me?' she asked him

'I would never thought of you being Paola' he said reluctantly

'I want to come to the Company, I want to start working there and getting paid, I need a car'

'We have plenty of cars'

'I need my own car, I want to work and buy my own car, a simple one, nothing fancy'

'Is it true that you had a red Ferrari decorated with crystals?'

'How do you know?'

'It has been auctioned and sold, the money went to a foundation' she didn't talk.

'I am sorry I didn't want to upset you, I read it few days ago in a newspaper'

'Can I start on this Monday?'

'Yes, this Monday'

'I studied accounting and finance'

'You can help Clarisse then, she is the assistant of the CFO, but you have to make sure that you don't show them you know much'

'No need to tell me this, I am majoring an acting degree lately' she said and left the room to go to the bathroom, it was the only place she was feeling safe to take off the lenses and cry her eyes out for one more time.