You Are Mine

Ep5| A stian

Diane's pov

It had been three weeks already and I hadn’t seen any sign of my monthly cycle. Yes, I was nervous! Was I pregnant already? Goodness! What did people do when they were expecting it? Was I supposed to call the doctor or could I just test at home? Or jeez! Why was I freaking out? I am pregnant!

I had to celebrate my win- the bar? nope! Is it harmful for the baby to go to tempting places such as the park? Yes! Babies liked parks, or so I heard. It took not more than five seconds to have the tears glistering on my cheeks. I couldn't control myself from crying. I was carrying his baby. God! Should I call him? No-he's going to be mad at me defiantly.

I didn’t know who to share this happiness with. If anything, it was solely for my selfish interests and no one else. My eyes travelled down to my normal-size stomach as I gently traced my fingers on it

“But I have you, right?” I just asked my baby a silly question. Of course, I had him or her, whoever it was, I was beyond happy to welcome.

A knock sounded on the door moments after allowing the reality of my circumstances to set in.

" Erm come in" I said, cleaning up my tear-stained face.

"Diane, please just today, okay, try to have fun? "

Dave asked, looking hopeful. He had been trying to get me to go out with him for days now and, honestly, I was secretly planning on moving to my place now.

"David, you know I am not a fun person" lies! My inner mind screamed at me.

“You have literally not explored it since you got here and you are not one to do that if it makes you guilty I cancelled my meeting to plan for this”

“Wow David, such nice things to say, fine I’ll go”. I had a reason to celebrate. Anyway.

"Thank you, yes! For a minute, I thought the stubborn ass of yours was going to say no. "

"s**t ", I cursed under my breath because of the sharp, swift pain in my abdomen.

"Diane, are you okay? "I saw the worry in his eyes.

"I don't know, God might be cramps.” Flat lie!

"Um, should I get you aspirin? But was it good for the baby?

"No Dave, I'll go to the bathroom. I think I have some around.

"Alright then let me know if you need anything, okay "

" Of course " I slowly exhaled in, to smooth the pain. Ugh, where from these cramps? I made my way to the bathroom, splashing cold water on my face. At this rate, I was getting alarmed now what was happening.

I couldn't help the yelp that escaped my throat, there were blood stains in my pants. So I wasn’t pregnant? Now the cramps and all the discomfort seemed to make sense now. I was never pregnant-I lost.

It felt like the world just conspired against me when I was just this close to having what I wanted, damn! I lost in the end. No faith, no baby Faith... Gosh, I couldn't help but let myself welcome the sorrow that came along with losing both.

And here I thought it was easy for first timers to get pregnant. Mom used to say the first time I did the deed without protection was when I’d have a baby so what went wrong?

"Diane, are you okay? I heard you

"Sure" I said, trying not to chock on saliva

"I- um I’m good thank you”

"Are you sure, Diane, what's going on? You don’t sound good? Frustrated as I was, I blurted out before thinking

"Faith I am okay!"

" Faith?" Oh goodness!

"Dave, please, I need to be alone."

"Fine” I heard him say, and his faint steps retraced away from my room. The more I stayed, the more I hurt him. I didn’t want that; I was too broken to hurt another.

If this was the sign, then I guess I have to give him a chance. After all, I was not pregnant.