She stares into my eyes, and I just know I have hurt her again. She won’t say it, but I can see it.
I wanted to get lost in her and forget about how my day had been going; all the frustration packed up inside me. I wanted to let it out, and I did. On her. She let me do it.
I have no control over how I feel and it’s maddening. I didn’t want to, but Nat's face flashed between my eyes before I poured into her downstairs, and as if she felt it, she cried.
I f****d her without being present. I have never done that before and the guilt is eating at me.
She won’t let me apologise. Her lips silence me and I don’t know what to do. I’ve always been alone on days like this since then. I made sure it was a rule no one trampled on, but she’s here for me. The relief I felt. I can’t take back what I
