I felt like I made a mistake, something told me to just clear my head and go back since I hadn’t ran far. Maybe I’m overreacting and I need to talk to Nolan. The truth is I’m not scared of Nolan killing me for the reason of wanting to live. I’m scared of Nolan killing me because then this all would be over. Everything is perfect, I have all I ever wanted.
If I leave now I can keep my memories and my feelings without the possibility of the man I love taking it all away from me. Let me live with these memories and this feeling for a little longer. If I stay gone then I lose my family so I lose either way.
I do love Nolan, there was no way I didn’t. It’s hard to admit that I’m confused and don’t know what the right thing to do is. I’m going to go back. I'm just not ready to have that conver
