Phone vibrates.
Once.
Twice.
I don’t need to check.
I already know who it is.
My chest tightens anyway.
Because with him—
It’s never just a call.
It’s an order.
I step away from the noise.
From the laughter.
From the normal life I pretend to belong to.
Then I answer.
“Yes.”
Silence.
For a second, I think the line dropped.
Then—
“Bring a girl tonight.”
My grip tightens around the phone.
No greeting.
No explanation.
Just instructions.
“There’s a party,” he continues.
“Make sure she looks good.”
A pause.
Then the line goes dead.
Just like that.
I stand there, staring at nothing.
My heart is steady.
But my mind—
It’s not.
Because I know what kind of “party” he’s talking about.
I’ve seen it before.
Girls don’t come back the same.
Some don’t come back at all.
I exhale slowly.
This is normal.
This is what I do.
I don’t question.
I don’t hesitate.
I obey.
That’s how I’ve survived this long.
That’s how I stay alive.
But today—
Something feels different.
My mind drifts.
And I hate where it goes.
Her.
Nel.
Her voice.
Her eyes.
The way she looked at me—
Like she saw something worth saving.
I clench my jaw.
No.
Not her.
Anyone but her.
I shove the thought away.
This isn’t about feelings.
This is survival.
And survival doesn’t care about who gets hurt.
My phone buzzes again.
A message this time.
Boss: Don’t be late.
I stare at the screen.
Then lock it.
Because deep down—
I already know what I’m about to do.
And I hate myself for it.