Messy feelings

Scary feelings

As we walked into the Zoo Night Club me and the girls decided to take selfies. The DJ was playing my jam "girls just wanna have fun" I rocked my head to the beat and danced a little and we all laughed. "Soon it will time for you to do your thing on the dance floor" Money joked, we all laughed.

We went up stairs first, the air was pristine, and the night sky was a definite pull for me I loved being out under the stars, the top level of the club had an open plan with no roof, it was picture perfect so we took some more pictures and fooled around a little. However the vibes upstairs wasn't what they wanted so we went back downstairs.

On our way down I ran into a friend from work.

Me: Hey Seven long time no see.

Him: For real its been a minute, so what are you up to.

Me: Its my Girlfriend's birthday and we're gonna party.

Him: Ok don't say a word will see you around.

Me: Alright Seven, save a dance for me.

I leaned in and hugged him then went and caught up with the girls.

We met up at the club I didn't know the guy who brought them but we were introduced and found out his name was Zero. Zero was the type of in the shadow kind of a person he bought us drinks and retreated to a dark part of the room and without hesitation we decided to set the little area we were at, on fire.

Hip-hop came first, we mock sang to the tunes and danced like crazy chickens, I kept the girls' cups full and the vibes going. Then came the the RnB we sang along in inaudible tones as the state of the art equipment in the club didn't disappoint. Pop music came on, and we sang along to "everybody hands go up and they stay there" and danced and carried on.

It was time for Dance Hall and all of upstairs was filing into downstairs. The club was pulsating with all different type of vibes we were the center of attraction we had refused several offers to dance

Dexter Daps "Slavery" came on and I decided that I wasn't dancing to this one alone. I spotted him, Seven was coming towards me and I used my hand to call him over so he would hurry along he didn't ask any questions, he knew what I wanted and he gave it to me.

We danced like lovers in a world by ourselves nothing and no one existed. Song after song and we showed no signs of stopping he met my every rhythm, with an even momentum. It was dirty dancing all night long and the DJ seemed to be playing songs just for us.

I got hot really hot and started to use my hand as a makeshift fan, at this point the air conditioning was useless. So we stopped dancing for awhile.

Him: you wana go outside to cool off?

Me: why not, let me just tell my girl real quick.

I went and told the girls that I was gonna cool off, then went back to him, he took my hand and led me outside.

The night air was heavenly it welcomed us with the longing of a mother who was missing her child and we basked in the cool invitations of the night and it's secrets. We walkedover to his car me on my tippy toes because I'd removed my heels to get down on the dance floor.

Him: a who are you here with?

Me: me and the girls and the guy who took us.

Him: is he your man?

Me: no, why?

Him: I wanna take you home!

Me: "laughs" really!!!

His face began to darken and he was no longer smiling. He pulled me into him possessively and tried to kiss me but I turned away.

Him: why are you acting like this if your man isn't here?

I immediately sobered up.

Me: that doesn't mean you should kiss me without asking!

Him: by the way do you a man?

Me: no.

Him: then there's no problem if we spend the night together.

Me: are you crazy?

Him: yes I am crazy over you, all that dancing we just did, has my mind in a spin, and I know you want me too, I see it in your eyes.

At this point he was starting to scare me, I told him I wanted to go back inside but he wasn't having it. He pulled me into him and tried to kiss me again, my only hope was to appeal to his sense of decency.

Me: please don't do this, I'm not drunk, I'll remember everything and you will go to jail.

Him: you wouldn't make them lock me up. You're just talking.

Now it was getting out of control he took my phone and threw it in the car and said get in we're gonna go somewhere else.

I know you will like it.

Me: please no, please don't violate me, we can meet at a different time when I'm in control of my body's locomotion, but not now not here and not this, please!

My begging seemed to fall on deaf ears. He began to wrestle with me and although my body was lethargic it seem to work in my favour. Never have I even been so happy that I was over weight.

We wrestled for awhile, all the time I begged and pleaded with him not to do this.

Him: stop it, why are you behaving like this, don't you like me, what's wrong, do I not measure up to your standards?

Me: that's not the issue. You're not even nice about it and you're forcing me to do something I don't want to do.

Him: you want me, I can feel it your a shaking..

Me: from fear!!! Please, I'll give you my phone, we'll meet up, take it step by step the s*x will eventually happen. Please just not tonight.

Him: ok, so you say I'm not nice, please could you get in the car? And what's the difference if we have s*x now or later?

His eyes sparkled in the moon light and I could see his pupils dilate as the headlights of a car hit his face as it came round the corner of the parking lot. He raised a hand to shade his face from the light all the while never letting go of me.

When the car had passed I asked him to get my phone and he refused.

Me: ok then do your worst, do anything that pleases you I hope you are ready for the consequences.

I said it with resignation, hoping to appeal to his conscience it worked.

He looked at me with fire in his eyes and went quiet, then he released his grip, I started to pray "o God please help me" I could see God pouting but I still prayed. He looked at me and said go get your phone, his tone was more relaxed and the danger disappeared from his eyes. I began to thank God for stirring his conscience. Then it dawned on me, this could be a trick. I started to pray again.

Me: please go get it I'm afraid.

Him: I'm not gonna do anything, on my honor go get your phone and let me take you back inside.

He knew I couldn't walk all the way back without him holding my hand and made sure I didn't forget. I looked at him with questioning eyes, he immediately put my assumptions to rest.

Him: just get your phone I wana go back inside, do it quickly before your friends come looking for you.

His tone was clipped with a bit of annoyance, but me still not trusting him told him to open the driver's side door so I could get it from there. He did, I got my phone and we went back inside.

I sat down no longer interested in dancing, started to chug bottle after bottle of drinking water trying to get the liquor out of me as fast as possible. I couldn't get over the fact that I had a narrow escape, and was so grateful to be obese. I would never complain about my stomach nor any other part of my body ever again. I was just saved by my curvaceous voluptuous fluffiness. One point for the Phat girl. Zero for the skinny nigga without a chance in hell. I could tell I was still a little tipsy because I began to giggle like a child.

Money: bby are you ok we ready very soon, your such a party animal but we are gonna be ready in a bit.

Me: do your worst, anything that pleases you!!!!

And I began to giggle again...