Messy feelings

Hyena feelings

While he danced like a hyena about to devour its prey around me, I kept telling myself not to have s*x with him. My mind went back to all our conversations and how I told myself I wouldn't fall for him. "He is the rebound guy" I would tell myself, " you'll hurt both yourself and him if this goes anywhere" I tend to speak to myself a lot. I'm back in the present and the music is playing like a child having a tantrum needing only my attention. We danced and I blocked out every red light, and every alarm going off in my head. We danced and kissed, I felt his kisses in my finger tips and I just knew he'd be a great lover. I forgot all my problems and allowed myself to melt in his arms. I've never kissed anyone like I kissed him and I don't think anyone has every kissed me the way he did. I thought to myself if love was a kiss this is exactly how it would feel. And the thoughts flood my mind once more. He never said he wanted a relationship, he never clearly expressed his intentions and if you have s*x with him tonight you'll never see him again. I ignored it and I let him kiss me. I let him kiss away all the pain I let him kiss away all my insecurities my anxieties my fears and my senses. I am totally at his mercy and he knows it. I came up for air and because I've been drinking I have to pee again. I went to the porta potty and do the smell test and I smell real good. The thought crossed my mind, if we had s*x I don't have to worry about how I smell. Then I think to myself again what the hell is wrong with you, keep your legs close, men like a chase why are you giving it to him so easily. Ok if I give it up and I never see him again at least I would've saved myself some time I would've otherwise wasted dating. I'm completely sober now from all the dancing and the kissing. I went back to him with the intention that if it happens it happens. We went into the car and we started kissing again. But this time I knew it was different, I felt his ferocious need for me and I also felt that need. He touched me and kissed me as if he'd been doing it for a hundred years. His knowledge of my body and how to treat it was appalling and a little dangerous. He caressed my breast with such reckless frivolity that it seemed I was an extension of him. My body responds to his touch like a conductor in an orchestra and I am loving the attention he's giving my breast. His hands moved feverishly over my body and found the buttons on my shorts, I squeezed my legs close and like a genie he rubbed my tummy and my legs opened. He unbuttoned my shorts with skill of that of a locksmith, and he touched me. My whole body rejoiced at the simple touch of his hand, and without warning he kissed me there. I scream out in super sensitive pain and pleasure, he knew exactly what he was doing, he terrorized my p***y with his tongue and I begged him for mercy. I was so turned on I was coming over and over again. I screamed and moaned until my mouth went dry. And as if he sensed it, he raised his head and kissed me and my juices tasted so good on his lips and as if he had read my mind he put his hand in my p***y tasted and told me "you taste so good". At this point I couldn't even speak when he spoke to me I just nodded or shook my head. I was powerless and at his mercy and he loved it. He went down on me a second time, this time he ripped off my shorts and underwear off and open my legs up so wide I thought I would split in two. He went in with tongue and finger and licked and finger f****d me mercilessly. He manoeuvred my v****a as if he had f****d me life times before. He took me to a new high I didn't even knew existed and I came violently.

I pulled my shorts up and just laid there. All the preexisting insecurities bombarded my thoughts, I couldn't breathe I couldn't think I was almost at my breaking point. Remembering how I was dumped just the month before like I was nothing, a flood of emotions came over me so overwhelming that all I could do was cry. To disguise my crying I turned on my seat and knelt down in the doggy position. He immediately thought I wanted s*x. Maybe I did want s*x, maybe I didn't. In my mind it is more of a need than a want. The need to feel wanted in such an urgent animalistic way, that it would take the pain away. The need to embody all the long conversations that they have had. The need to culminate the relationship, to forget the past and move on to the future. I tried to remember all the things he told me, all the promises he'd made but every thought I tried to process was incoherently blurred. A slight slap on my ass brought me back from my reverie into the present. He did it again, to say it pleasured me would be to say the least. My head twirled with the previous pleasure session and the alcohol from the party, I had been to a work party that evening and it so happens that he was nearby, for the most part ready or not I decided that whatever came after I'd accept it. He slapped me on the ass once more and the words he was saying became audible. "Baby please don't do this to me".

With ever slap there was a plea and a tug on her shorts, the slaps on my ass sent waves of erotic momentum up my spine which made me moan with excitement. My moans seem to arouse him, which sent him flying to my side of the car. He began to nibble on my ass. Then it became more intense. He bit into my firm bottom and slapped it with the rythm of DJ working his turn table. He began to tell me.

"Baby I want you" the urgency in his voice while he tugged my shorts, slapped and bit my bottom sent erotic electricity through my entire body. I responded to his pleas, "yes I'm doing this, you deserve to be teased after what you just did to me". This gave him the strength of ten men and he ripped off my shorts pulled my panties down and went down on my in one range of motion. He kissed and sucked at both my ass and v****a. I'd never experienced such pleasure, I tried to process what was going on but I couldn't, my thoughts were temporarily out of service all I could process was the erotic exercise that was going on, in the front passenger's seat of the car. I don't know if I like it and I love it were two different thoughts coming from the same brain, my confusion gave way to exquisite pleasure. By this time I had lost count of all the involuntary orgasmic explosions I'd had, building up from one to another effortlessly. I couldn't understand how soft his lips were I wanted to kiss him. As if he had read my mind he came to my ear and begged me to let him f**k me. She said no. "I'm going to f**k you" he ranted. "No" was my only response. The no sounded like something from a porn movie and he knew I wanted him inside me as much as he wanted to go in. With quick thinking he changed the words of the question to a command "tell me you want my d**k in you".

"No" I said again. He went back down this time putting his finger in my p***y and his mouth over my ass. Mercilessly he worked his way up and down until he had me begging him to f**k me. He came back to my ear.

"You want this d**k"

"Yes"

"Tell me how you want it"

All the time his hand never left my p***y.

"I want you inside me"

"You want me to f**k you"

"Yes" I quipped

With one swift movement he pulled his pants and boxers off and thrust his shaft into my v****a.

"Its so sweet" he said, "it's so warm, it's so good. All the while I was thinking how much I needed this. I moaned and groaned as he f****d me and showered me with p***y compliments. The orgasms were never ending. I couldn't tell where they ended nor how they began, it was just a fusion of erotic sensations. He hit it from behind with ferocious desire, He slapped me and talked to me, I heard him, I talked to him, but I wasn't there, I was somewhere up on a cloud hoping I hadn't passed out.

His voice took me from my elevated state. "Baby I dont want to come". It was more of a plea than a statement as if I could wave a wand and make him go on the entire night. Truth is I didn't want him to come either, I wished we could remain in that euphoric state for as long as was possible. He stopped and asked me to turn around. "Baby I want you to open it up for me" I did and he went back in, then he stopped and went down on me. He used his fingers to part my lips and went all in with lips and tongue. I screamed and beat him. I clawed at his hair and begged him for mercy. It was too intense for me, he stopped and tried to go in with his d**k again. No luck this time. And he announced to me that his d**k was dead. They laughed and he collapsed on top of me.....