The Football Player And His Ballerina

Shame

Lara POV

I was recovering from that kiss that left me breathless and wanting more, when his words, made my body go into shock.

I stood still as if I'd forgotten how to move. I felt my eyes blinking and my mind trying to figure out what happened.

The door slammed and my senses awoke.

I grabbed the pillow where Kyle had been leaning a few seconds ago, hugging it. I cried. I cried so much that my nose couldn't even let the air through. My head hurt.

Ashamed of myself, is how I feel. How did I get carried away? He's committed and didn't want to cheat on his girlfriend... how am I supposed to be near him tomorrow? Work with him?

I feel ashamed of myself, I don't even want to think about the bad thoughts he must have about me. He must judge me, thinking I´m like all the other women, the ones Dean spoke about today, who offer themselves blatantly. I... I... don't even know how the kiss happened. Maybe it was the alcohol controlling my behavior.

I went to take a shower, cleanse my body and try to wash the memories of this night away.

I woke up at lunchtime, with the phone ringing.

"Hi, gorgeous. How are you?", the concern in Sophie's voice makes me open my eyes.

"Oh Sophie, can you come to me, please?" I ask almost in desperation.

"Lara, are you okay?"

"No. I'm not. I need you"

"Okay. Let me cancel a meeting and I'll be right there."

The doorbell rang, and I immediately ran for the door.

"Soph!", relieved to finally see her.

"I was so worried. Did anything else happen?" his eyes roam my body as if checking if everything was ok.

We went to my room. I grabbed my pillow and recounted all the events of last night.

"You...he...WHAT?" she screamed as she grabbed another pillow and pressed it against her chest.

"He has a girlfriend Sophie! How am I supposed to work with him after this?"

Sophie started to laugh very hard.

"Why are you laughing? Do you think this is funny?", my despair rises.

"And you, are you crying because he kissed you???" she questions, stopping to laugh.

"No! I'm crying because somehow I provoked the situation... and he has a girlfriend!"

"And does his having a girlfriend affect you?", her eyebrows raise as she waits for my answer.

"Of course not, Sophie.". Really Lara? The thought of it hurts me.

"So I don't understand the drama! You guys kissed, I understand he started it. He stopped and you should be grateful for that! Better than continuing and finding out he had a girlfriend later!"

"The situation is going to get weird!", I exclaimed, trying to make her see what I mean.

"Lara, you're overlapping. For a man who changes women almost every night and who even gets involved in orgies, a kiss is nothing!"

"What?" I ask in shock.

"Yes, Lara. Yesterday at the party I was with some models I know. Some said that the three musketeers usually invite women to parties and that sometimes it all ends in sex."

"Disgusting!". This must be a lie. People often lie about celebrities. Isn´t possible, is it? They seem so normal...

"Right! They live life to the limit. Luxury, women, parties! So if he can look at someone who yelled his name in some weird position, a kiss is nothing!"

"But...". i can´t continue with my thoughts because Sophie is interrupting me, and making her point of view known.

"No but here. The problem here isn't him. It´s you. Can you tell me what happened for you to kiss him?"

"I think alcohol", I excuse myself.

"Do you like him Lara?", She asked me showing some concern and a teasing face, at the same time.

"Oh, Sophie..."

"No Sophie, do you?"

"When I saw him I thought he was gorgeous. Then every time he touches me, it's like everything stops. I feel protected. I don't even know how to explain"

"I understand... All this is new for you. But life isn't just dancing. You're beautiful and you deserve someone who at the end of the day snuggles up to you. However, many men are not to be trusted. You have to go easy or you could get hurt."

"Again the same story"

"Lara, you're 21 and you've never gotten past the kissing stage. You are a f*****g virgin"

"And should I be embarrassed?"

"No. Your ballet shoes won't relieve you or cuddle you", she informed me teasingly.

"Oh, Sophie...."

"Kyle is beautiful. But he's a beast, a s*x beast, so they say. If you go down that path you're likely to end up hurt. But that can happen with him or anyone else. Sometimes people get hurt, but it only makes them stronger in the end.

"You need to live, go out, meet other people. You've reached the limit, you work hard for perfection, and in your free time trying to free yourself. Please, Lara!"

I hit her with the pillow. She hits me too and we start laughing as we continue the pillow fight.

"Are you coming with me to dinner at Yas's?"

"I think not"

"Oh Sophie, please, I beg you!!!"

"Fine!"

I Called Yas and told her Sophie was coming too, she was happy hearing it. After that i texted Kyle.

To Kyle:

Hey. I´ll not need a ride as Sophie is coming too. We will meet there? XX

From Kyle:

Sure

"See? I told you! That was nothing! Forget it!", Sophie says disheveling me.