3: Pregnant and Broken
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It took me a week before I finally got the courage to tell my best friends what was going on. They didn't know that Zane rejected me, and I never planned to tell them.
They didn't even know he was my mate. I had lied to them that I hadn't found my mate, just to avoid them worrying about me. I wanted them to be happy with their mates and focus on them.
We were in Lilah's room and it was silent. They were still processing the news and I understood. After all, it wasn't something that happened every day.
"You're pregnant?" They both asked simultaneously.
"Yes." I said, my head unable to accept that fact. "I mean, I haven't confirmed it yet. But I think I am. I have never missed my period before and I can barely keep any food down my throat."
Tears rolled down my cheeks as I realized that I was doomed. If I was truly pregnant, my parents would be disappointed. I didn't even want to imagine the look of disappointment on their faces, I have let them down.
Zane was going to outrightly deny me and I would have to face the shame and embarrassment for carrying an illegitimate child. I would become an object of mockery and I didn't want that.
"Shh, it's okay, Ravenna," Lilah said, wrapping her arms around me. "Everything will be okay."
"I-I can't be pregnant. There's no way. I mean... We used protection."
"Sometimes, the condoms don't work," Kira explained, patting my back. "But firstly, you have to calm down. We aren't even sure yet. You have to take a pregnancy test to be sure. And even if you are, it's not the end of the world."
"Not the end of the world? If I'm pregnant, I'll become a laughing stock in the pack. Zane doesn't want me, and he would make my life miserable if he finds out that I was with child. He'll call it a mistake and I don't think I can deal with that. How would my parents react? How will the entire pack look at me?"
"It's going to be okay, Ravenna. We'll go to the pharmacy and get you the pregnancy tests and then we can know for sure. It's just a small step, but we're here to support you every step of the way. Whatever the outcome, we'll get through it."
"Thank you, guys," I cried. "I don't know what I'll do without you."
"Well, you'll always have us." Lilah assured, smiling. "Always and forever."
"Always and forever," Kira and I repeated, a smile making its way onto my face.
We got up and made our way to the pharmacy. Lilah and Kira stood by my side while I bought the test and when we were on our way back, I saw him.
He was walking hand in hand with his Morgan, their smiles wide. They were so beautiful together and it made my heartache.
I was never going to have that.
"Ravenna," Morgan called, noticing me.
Lilah and Kira immediately stood on each side of me, their jaws tight. "What do you want, Morgan? I'm not in the mood to fight." I said, avoiding Zane's glaring eyes.
"I don't have any problems with you, Ravenna." She smirked, holding Zane tightly. He wrapped his arms around her waist, bringing her closer to him. The sight made my heart clench and I forced myself to look away. "I just wanted to specifically invite you to our mating ceremony which will be holding in two days time. You can bring your friends too." Giving me one last dubious look, she walked away, Zane's arms still around her.
"That b***h!" Kira exclaimed.
"It's okay, guys," I lied.
"No, it's not okay," Lilah said. "The audacity of her. She wants a reaction and I'll give her a reaction."
"No," I told her. "We can't give her what she wants. She just wants us to fight her and get into trouble. And, Zane is not even worth it." I tried to pretend like I wasn't breaking down on the inside like I've been doing for the past month.
"I agree," Kira stated, linking her arm through mine. "Let's forget them and focus on you."
We reached my house and went straight to my bedroom. My parents were thankfully not around, so it gave us some privacy.
"Here you go," Lilah said, passing me the bag.
I opened it and picked the test, staring at it. I read the instructions carefully and when I was done, I turned to the girls.
"I can't do it. Can you guys, maybe do it for me?"
"Sure." They both answered and took the test from me.
Kira stood up and handed it back to me. "Why?" I asked, staring at the stick in her hand.
"You need to pee on it, Ravenna."
"I can't," I shook my head. "Can you please help me?"
"Sure," they both agreed, and we headed to the bathroom.
I peed on the stick and waited. The results came quickly, and I stared at it. My heart dropped as my eyes focused on the tiny writing.
Two lines.
It was positive.
I was pregnant with Zane's child.
The realization was like a punch to my stomach. A sob escaped my mouth and Lilah immediately wrapped her arms around me.
I couldn't do anything except cry.
Kira placed her hand on my back, and they both stood by me, their support evident. I had suspected, but the realization that it was real was another thing.
"What am I going to do, guys? My parents are going to kill me. I'm not mated, and now, I'm pregnant. My life is ruined. I can't do this. My mother would be so disappointed, my father would probably disown me and Zane, well, I don't even want to think about that. I don't even want to go to the mating ceremony, the shame will kill me."
"Shh, Ravenna," Kira said. "Everything will be fine."
"No, it won't. My entire life is ruined. Zane will never accept the child, and everyone is going to make fun of me. They will talk about how the omega without a wolf is a w***e and don't even know who the father of my child is. I can't stand against Zane. He is the Alpha's son. No one would listen to me. And the pack would side with him because of his status. What am I going to do? This can't be happening."
"You have us," Lilah assured. "Always and forever, remember? You can't just give up and we won't let you. You're the strongest girl we know. You can do anything and get through anything. So what, you're pregnant and unmated? That doesn't define you. You can do whatever you want. You don't need anyone, Ravenna. You are amazing and beautiful and we'll never leave your side."
"Yeah," Kira agreed. "We'll figure something out."
I hugged them tightly, my heart full of emotions. There was a little baby growing inside of me and I felt lost and confused. What am I to do? How do I even care for a child when I'm only but a child myself? How am I going to support a child when I couldn't even support myself?
It was all too much.
But, no matter what happened, I was going to go through this with the help of my best friends.
"What will I do?" I cried. "How will I be able to do this?"
"It's going to be okay," Lilah assured.
I wasn't so sure about that.
I had no idea how the hell I was going to survive this.
I was so screwed.
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