I'm always worrying about what comes next and how to prevent disaster. Always bracing myself for the blow, getting myself ready to pick myself back up if everything goes to s**t.
"That's just who I am" I mumble quietly and shrug. Poppy is still giving me that same old sad smile, I see it so often. I miss the 'i'm proud of you smile' I get sometimes, because it makes me proud of me too.
"But this is your chance to break out of that same old routine. You don't want to live your whole life trapped in a box of self doubt and protection. Is it a risk? Sure it is. But it could also just be a nice holiday with your hot rich boyfriend in the city of love" I roll my eyes, she really had me going until the city of love part. I think she's convinced we are going to be forever, she's probably just
