A whole minute went by with me just standing there and wishing for the ground beneath to open up and just swallow me whole but it didn't and instead had my entire wall crumbling right before me. I could feel my heart beating right out of my chest in a panic attack. What the f**k does he mean by 'he doesn't regret the damn kiss'. Was that statement supposed to make me feel any better? Because I totally do not. I feel angry and pained at the same time and above all?, lost. I was completely and totally short of words to say to him as he stood staring at me, probably expecting me to say something to reply him but I don't. Ryder on the other hand looked really hopeful as his emerald green eyes kept narrowing at me still with a hint of smile on his face. For f**k sake. To thi

