Going Against the Alpha

Chapter 19-Gone

Alpha Blake’s POV

Her lushest lips are brushing against my ear as she whispered "restroom right now!" Instantly my member is getting hard. I did not expect this from her, but I’m not going to keep her waiting. I excused myself not long after she is gone. I can’t wait to feel those lips on my body. She may not be my mate, but that’s not going to stop me. If she wants to give herself to me, I’m going to give her so much pleasure she won’t be able to walk.  

I enter the bathroom and lock the door behind me. She’s on the toilet looking at me like I’m crazy I’m so confused. Did I get here too fast? This is not how I pictured this going. I thought the minute I enter the room; she would jump in my arms, wrapping her legs around my waist and kissing me passionately. I would push her up against the door, deepening our kiss. Before leaving trails of kisses down her neck while sliding my hand up her thigh. I’m brought out of my fantasy when I hear her snarl at me “What the F*** are you doing in here. Get out!” 

Claudette, You told me to go to the restroom right now, and you left the door unlocked. “Blake, I said I need to go the restroom, not we. Please get out. I still have to go, and I’m going to die if I do not go soon.” I was ready to get all hot and heavy, and now I’ve been shut down twice. Once in front of everyone, when she said I was not her mate and now. I snicker to myself, trying to hide my embarrassment. As I shut the bathroom door, I make sure to lock it. I do not need any more suspicion from her.  

After quickly adjusting myself, I head back to the table to wait for her to come back. Mark go see why Claudette has not came back.

 It’s been almost 15 minutes, and she still has not returned. Mark did you find her? I mind link him again.

 I would do it myself, but I do not want anyone to ask questions. 

“She is not here. The only other way out without being seen is through the side door,” my beta tells me. Check outside and if she is not there, check her house! Do not draw any attention to her leaving without me.

Claudette's POV

When I leave the bathroom, my feet seem to have a mind of their own. I take the side door and exit out of the building. As soon as the warm summer air hits my face, I feel like a weight I didn’t know I was carrying is gone. The moon and stars are shining so bright tonight. It is like I have my own fairy lights twinkling in the sky just for me. 

The sky looks beautiful tonight. I stand there for a few minutes in amazement at the world around me. I think to myself. I wonder if my mate is looking at this same sky somewhere else, wondering if I am doing the same. I snarl my lip while rolling my eyes when I remember no, he’s inside kissing my parents a**.

My peaceful mood was ruined by remembering Alpha Blake is my mate. I take off my shoes and start walking home through the grass. I do not understand myself sometimes. The first day I met him, I would have jumped up and down to find out that he was my mate. Now that I have, I just feel so alone. I do not know why. 

Mates are supposed to be your other half. They are supposed to make you stronger, not like this. I wonder if I feel like this, not because of him but because of myself. I wonder if I realize I’m the one that is missing something, not him. I do not have my wolf yet, so I do not feel adequate to be his mate. Maybe I’m worried that since I do not have my wolf yet, he will reject me. No, that can’t be it, or he would not have come here for the week. Idk maybe I’m overthinking all of this.

Oh great! I was so busy in my head I did not realize I walked to the river. The river is my favorite place to think. It is so peaceful here. I always used to come here when I needed to think, but I only have ever been here during the day. Another one of my parent's stupid rules. We are not allowed to leave the inner pack territory at night. The only exception to this rule is if we are with them or two or more pack warriors.

 But it is nice just to have some one-on-one time with myself. I haven’t done this in so long it will not hurt me if I stay here for a little bit. Besides, it is not that dark with the light from the night sky. I find my thinking spot without even trying. It is the only tree with a huge boulder right up against it. It is made almost like a chair, just an extremely large chair. I climb up there and get comfy. 

I look up at the sky, but it feels like my heart is also looking at the sky. My entire body and soul just feel at peace at this moment. If I could freeze time, I would.

I closed my eyes to let it all sink in….I’ll rest here for a few minutes before going home. 

Alpha John’s POV 

It looks like most everyone has left or is leaving now. I turn to Ann and let her know that I’m sorry, but I’m going to have to stay at the packhouse tonight and get some work done. She does not look happy. She pursed her lips together, crosses her arms over her chest, and huffs, “really, tonight, you have to work? 

You were already late, to begin with, and now you have to stay at the packhouse.” This is something that I can not put off if I want to enjoy the girls' birthday, I tell her. Her mood seems to give a little bit. 

Before she snorts out fine as long as you promise.” Yes, I promise. Kiss her on the cheek and head off to my office at the packhouse.  

I have to hurry to fix the mess I have created. I curse myself. Alpha Blake is one of the most dangerous Alphas now. In my younger days, I would not have cared if he noticed something was off. I would have taken care of him myself. But now that I am getting older, my plans have changed.

Alpha Blake's POV

“Alpha, she was not outside or at home.” I hear my beta through the mind link. FIND HER! I yell back through our mind link. I look around to see who else has left. Could she have gone with someone else? I feel my anger rising in both my wolf and me. My claws are now out. I claw at the plasm of my hand to release some of the anger. 

Everyone is almost gone. There is no way to pinpoint if she left with someone unless they are found together.

I down the drink that is in front of me. Why would she have left without telling me? I’m annoyed and trying hard to control my anger. 

This was supposed to be easy since she doesn’t have a wolf yet. I should have been able to tell her we were mates, show her a little affection, maybe be a little possessive, and her fall for it. My wolf is yelling in my head that this plan is not worth it and we should just take over the pack by force. I push him back. No, we will not. Pay attention look around all of these alpha’s would help him if we started a war.

The only reason I chose this way was because I need her father’s business and any alliances he has. My pack may be one of the strongest, but financially we need help. So if her father gives me his business and lets me know his business secrets, it will work out better for the pack. However, if not, I will go with our plan B, but for now we need to remain focused, I tell him.

We need to find her and I do not have time to search for her. If I start searching for her it could potentially draw attention to the fact that I can not sense her or pick up her smell as a real mate can do. All werewolves can pick up a scent, but when you are mated with someone, you can smell them like no one else can.

 I trust my beta with my life, but I need to make sure she is not with anyone else. If she is, I need that person to be dealt with and not come back on me. I groan before I mind link the one person who I don’t want to.