Between Two Mates

Chapter 18

-Helix POV-

I sit in the dining room looking at my food. I have no appetite. I don’t eat much these days. Another month has passed and I barely have seen Rose.

She goes out almost every night and this I know because Nova makes sure I know. She tells me of all the guys Rose has been meeting. I know Nova is doing it on purpose but it works. If it wasn’t for my wolf, I would be taking Rose right now. Marking her and making her mine. I know she hasn’t done anything with anyone since I haven't felt pain but it still annoys me.

I have been messaging her but she rarely answers and it does hurt that she is ignoring me but I know I deserve it. After everything she is going through and the way I have hurt her, she has every right to hurt me back. I don’t blame her one bit.

“Your belly is going to start growing soon.” One of Harper's friends says.

Harper laughs but looks unhappy. “Yes... I’ll be getting fat.”

“Have you been getting any cravings?”

“Y- yes, and Helix has seen to them. He has been great. He will be a great dad.”

I roll my eyes. She keeps saying that but there is not a single thing that I have done that makes anyone think that. She just treats me like I am her personal butler. I have to cater to her. Otherwise, she gets upset and if she gets upset, my wolf gets upset. I never hated being a werewolf more than I do now. If I was human, things wouldn’t be this complicated.

She puts an arm around mine while she continues to eat and talk with her friend.

It aggravates me that she acts as if we were together. It doesn’t help that she throws herself at me almost every night and my wolf wants to give in. Last night she even asked me when was I going to mark her as if I had already chosen her. In the beginning, when I first met her, I liked her but now I just dislike the girl. My wolf is so stupid. Seriously, if there was a way to turn human, I would.

I have continued to train with Dominic and I do feel stronger but it’s not enough yet.

“Yes! I already know the color I want for the baby's room. It will be this green.” Harper takes out a color card and shows it to her friend.

She calls it green. I call it poop color because that is what it looks like to me.

They continue talking and when we finally are back in her room, I start to walk out.

“Where are you going?” Harper asks.

“Out, need some fresh air.”

“I’ll go with you.”

“Please Harper, give me some space.”

“Why? You act as if I have you on a leash.” She says.

“You do! You know I am only here because of that.” I say and point to her belly.

“You are so mean.” She pouts.

“No, I'm just telling you the truth.”

“Fine! Go alone. But you better come right back up.”

I f*****g hate that she thinks she can control me. But I was warned by the doctor not to upset her. Before I can leave, her mother walks in.

She gives me a scrutinizing stare. “Why do you insist on running away from what is laying right in front of you? You have a child on the way. Why delay the inevitable? If you mark Harper, all the pain will go away. Even for Rose, it will be better.”

“How about you just don’t mettle?” I say with anger.

Harper gasps. “Helix! Don’t talk to her like that.”

I roll my eyes and quickly go out, slamming the door behind me.

I need time for myself and they need to start to understand that. I walk out of the packhouse and go down the street wanting to go for a walk.

The sun is almost down and as I walk down the street, I see Nova walking up singing and dancing or rather wobbling all around. As I walk closer, I notice Rose behind her doing the same.

We all stop and stare at each other. Nova smile.

“Do you know what it's like to go to a party from three in the morning to seven in the evening?!”

“No.” I say, obviously irritated.

Nova smiles as she passes by me.

“Have at it you two.” She walks away leaving Rose and me looking at each other.

“You’ve been having fun, huh?” I ask with a bit of bitterness.

“Yeah.”

I can smell the booze on her and the many male scents that have been close to her. I know I have no right but it makes me angry.

“Rose, do you hate me?” I ask.

“What? No.”

I slowly nod as I think. “Okay.”

I feel like I am being pitiful.

“I don’t hate you Helix but you don’t want me... so I am trying to drown myself.” She gives me sass.

“I do want you.”

“No, you don’t!”

“Yes, I do!” I argue.

“Yeah! Then show me!” She moves her hair and exposes her neck. “If you want me, mark me!”

Without thinking, I take a step forward, unable to control myself, and put my arms around her waist. My head dips down and my nose touches her soft neck. She gives a small gasp. Her skin prickles and her scent entices my senses. The urge I have is painful but my wolf holds me back though I can feel that deep down, he wants to mark her. He wants her just as much as I do.

“Do it.” She whispers.

I nuzzle her neck. Temptation trying to take over but not winning. My nose caresses her cheek and then my lips find hers. Unable to hold back, I kiss her. She kisses me back. A moan of desperation leaves her mouth and that makes me surrender almost completely. I put my arms around her and hug her, deepening the kiss.

My wolf doesn’t try to move away because deep inside, he wants her as well.

We separate with our foreheads touching each other, still feeling connected.

“I love you Rose.” I whisper.

“Then why? Why do you make me suffer like this?” She whispers back.

I close my eyes. “You know I am not doing this on purpose. My wolf-”

“Your wolf, your wolf, your wolf! I’m tired of hearing that!”

“...I’m sorry... but it is what it is.”

She completely pulls back and away from me, now looking detached from her emotions.

“Okay. Bye. Gotta get up early since I am going on a trip with Nova and Dominic.” She says with attitude in her tone.

“A trip?” I mumble.

Nova was talking about this. Some of Nova's old human friends are going.

My eyes widen remembering that here friends are wild, even by werewolf standards and most of them are guys.

(f**k!)

She sways all the way up the street and to the second-pack house.

I take in a deep breath, calming my emotions but then I suddenly feel the need to go to Harper and I know why. I just f****d up. I kissed Rose and Harper had to feel that. I rush up to the main packhouse and up the stairs. When I go into her room, the doctor is already there with a hysterical and crying Harper.

“What did you do?!” Laura rushes towards me.

“I messed up. I know.” I say.

(I’ve been doing that a lot the last couple of months.)

“Why won’t you love me! After everything I have done!-” She shouts and is about to continue but the doctor quickly injects her with something that seems to calm her down.

“Do you even care?!” Laura lowly shouts at me. “You know that that kind of betrayal causes pain to us!”

“I know.” I hang my head down watching Harper fall asleep.

My wolf feels horrible and I feel bad now looking at Harper.

“She is fine now.” The doctor says.

“Why must we keep her like this?” Laura asks.

The doctor gives her a weird look. “Because...her distress was... causing the baby distress and she was about to say things... she did not mean and so it is best to keep her calm and sedated for the next few days.”

“Sedated?” Laura asks.

He nods. “It is best to... keep her calm. She might not be herself.” He looks at Laura and gives her a small bow.

She gives him an approving nod and then asks. “They will be fine then?”

“Yes. But she needs rest.” He says.

We all walk out, letting Harper sleep.

Laura gives me an irritated look and I know she is about to chew my ass but the doctor stops her.

“Let me explain a few things that can help keep her calm.” He says.

Laura gives me one last killer look and then starts walking with the doctor down the hall.

"Luna, we need more of the... medication." The doctor says.

Laura nods. "Alright... We'll meet tonight..."

(Medication? Why would Laura be the one providing the medication? Isn't that the doctor's job?)

Deep in thought, I turn around and with another deep breath, I start to walk back to my room which is next to Harpers but I stop when I see Gabriel at the stairs. He leans on a wall with his arms crossed as if he was hiding.

"What are you doing?" I ask.

"Not a single thing." He gives me a big smile.

(Is he spying for Rose?)

He walks out of the stairs and looks in the direction Laura and the doctor left.

"Finally, things are progressing." He mumbles.

"Progressing?"

He looks at me and gives me another big smile.

"Nothing oh stupid one." He says.

"What?!" I shout.

He laughs and walks away.

"Has my sister rubbed off on you?!" I ask but he ignores me and walks away.

Dragging my feet and deep in thought again, I walk into my room and close the door behind me.

Yes, I do worry about Harper and the baby but my head is completely occupied with Rose and what she said about going on that trip.

I feel angry at the thought of her with other men. All this month, I have tried not to think about it. About her going out the way she has been doing. But now after that kiss, I want to make her mine more than ever and I know my wolf does too. He feels torn between them. On one hand one of our mates is expecting a pup, on the other is the mate that we have always wanted and feel love for.

“What to do?”

I pace around the room.

“The doctor said that he was going to keep Harper resting for a couple of days and Laura will be occupied with her party preparations for her ceremony in the next few days.” I mumble. “Harper is safe, right? As long as I don’t touch Rose, then it should be fine.”

I am surprised when I don’t feel any resistance from my wolf at this thought.

I smile.

“You aren't going anywhere without me, Rose.”